Milestones (Amy's diary)

Thanks, everyone, for endorsing my halt-and-assess manoeuvre!
I'm not aware of more energy @liza, but I do know that I don't puff so much up hills or stairs. I never had trouble walking comfortably on level ground, @Emilyrose , but I like the shape of my ankles and feet more now! :) (What vanity!)

Re: shape, though - it's odd about my waist! I have trousers that I couldn't zip up - I mean, there was a big gap where they Just - Wouldn't - Meet! and now they do, easily. But I truly can't see any shift in what the tape says. (Maybe the problem was bottom or belly, not waist? I should have measured those!)

Yes, @LaMaria and @Petal001, - it's the long-term, "as long as it takes", that I'm committing to. I feel - I could feel - angry with myself that I've wasted so much of my life not doing this earlier, but I think that would be an unproductive line of thinking to go wandering off along. Time to go and revisit the Kindness to self thread!

(But speaking of emotions and eating - am I the only person here who can overeat angrily? I saw this trap coming recently, on my way home from something that had made me cross, but I was able to head it off by being aware of the impulse, and planning all the way home - I still ate, but it was a bowl of mixed chopped canteloupe and pawpaw, not lots of crackers and cheese, or whatever. Little by little, with consciousness and strategies. )
 
I've definitely done the angry overeating: well done redirecting it! And awesome that your pants zip up, no matter what the measuring tape says!
 
LaMaria said:
I've definitely done the angry overeating: well done redirecting it! And awesome that your pants zip up, no matter what the measuring tape says!
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Thanks! I thought you were still asleep - I guess the world's moved on faster than I thought - I'd better wrap it up here and get on with work-things!
 
Amy I have done the angry overeating and the upset overeating . The angry overeating is horrible . It’s good to acknowledge where our weakness lie .
 
When I’m really angry, I don’t feel hungry at all. It’s later when the guilt/shame/regret over the latest blowup comes flooding in that I feel like eating.
 
:)

It's odd about the angry over-eating. I can see why with depressed/unhappy over-eating - food=love, therefore comfort (I'm oversimplifying, but that's the general line). But I don't see why eating is a response to anger - unless it's really primal, to do with biting and tearing?

Anyway... back to the average weight in lifts! As promised, I checked in the lift I'm most frequently in, and it seems it's engineered for eleven persons, with a maximum total weight of 750 kg - so everybody's fair share would be just a touch over 68 kg!

liza said:
Excellent! All of our pants fitting again! :)
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:hurray:
 
Interesting about the lifts I might check out ours tomorrow in work although I never ever use it .
it’s a small lift .
I think maybe re the angry eating it’s the tearing and biting or even the hope it calms us . I don’t know really . Lol
 
aiminglow said:
But I don't see why eating is a response to anger - unless it's really primal, to do with biting and tearing?
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For me I think it's about stuffing down emotions that I feel uncomfortable with, be it sadness, anger, anxiety... I think food mutes the feeling whatever it is. So finding ways to allow the emotion to be there without overwhelming, seems to be key for me.
 
liza said:
For me I think it's about stuffing down emotions that I feel uncomfortable with, be it sadness, anger, anxiety... I think food mutes the feeling whatever it is. So finding ways to allow the emotion to be there without overwhelming, seems to be key for me.
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When I overeat it muffles all feelings as well, but to the point that I don´t have to deal with the original feeling at all. Hence angry overeating.
 
I also think about my food problem and not the real issue at hand when I eat that way. It’s like if your back hurts and then you bang your toe with a hammer - the back doesn’t hurt so much! (House does this a lot for his pain management.)
 
I think eating does numb feelings or at least replaces them with something else.
Are you away with work, Amy? Hope all is ok in your world xo
 
aiminglow said:
I really admire how organised and thorough you are. I hope the MRI brings some good, useful insights.
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Hey Amy, thanks for your comment on my diary. It's always nice to hear from you and get your heartening. Food quelches my anger for sure by numbing me to it. The dopamine kick makes me forget I was angry in the first place. It comes back around though and with more venegence the next day if I'm not careful.
 
Just posting here quickly, without even reading up above! I've tried to look at "What's New", and there's so much! (Which is good, and shows how many people thise site is being used by and useful for.)
I have to go out and do things (including walking to get them done!) but I'll be back and read and post properly (I hope) before the day's out.
 
Another angry eater here. And tired eater. And stress eater. And, and, and. But good for choosing healthy options. And congratulations on your pants!
 
Amy I find if I miss a day I can't overwhelmed with all the new stuff lol . It's too easy to sink an hour on this forum. Hope you have a good walk
 
Thanks, @Petal001 ! I try to read all of "What's New" whenever I come back - or I have tried to do that, but yes, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed right now. I did have a good walk, thanks! (Oh, and please do check what it says in your lift - I'm wondering if lifts everywhere are engineered to the same standard.)
True enough, @alligatorob , about the new year making for new beginnings, and thus lots of postings - it's really good to see. :)
Yes, I am, @Cate - and all family and friends are safe, thankfully. (As I say that, I feel the three months of summer tension still waiting in the wings.)

Eating and anger - thank you all, for such thought-provoking comments, I really hadn't thought there'd be others who've noticed a link like that - we hear about comfort eating, (and as W2L says, stress eating, and tired eating) but not about angry eating.
Your responses have sent my thoughts off to explore a different direction, expanding from my first idea (about the tearing and biting being expressions of angry aggression). So many of you - Liza and LaMa and Emily and Cate and Rob (and Rob!) - pointed out that eating distracts from unwelcome feelings, or numbs them. And I can see - can identify with it, that I might eat in anger to try to not feel angry - that would fit with a general people-pleasing aspiration. (And dopamine! I have looked quickly at what dopamine is, and how it works, but can't say that I've got much of a handle on it yet.) More interesting lines to pursue - about how to deal with anger, other than by numbing and distracting. Thanks a lot for the insights, everyone.

Meanwhile, on the lighter side of this healthy eating-and-living program:
I've been trying to bump up my protein by adding in small incidental proteins - like a bit of beans with my morning egg, or a few nuts en passant of an afternoon. To which end, when I was choosing fruit purchases for the week, I carefully put in guava (along with mandarins and canteloupe - yum!), as the protein-est fruit going. So far so good...but then, idly, I looked guava up on the internet, and found the most radiant picture of a juicy-looking pink-fleshed fruit, nothing like the guavas I'm used to! I nearly choked with indignation!
The guava I have (that I was relying on for that extra protein kick) has white flesh, crisp, like an apple. I can see (from the seeds) that it's definitely in the same family, but what's going on? Is the white-fleshed guava as good as the pink-fleshed kind? I await your advice! :)
 
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