Alligatorob's Diary

alligatorob said:
Both LSU and Alabama went into the game undefeated, LSU has a very good chance at staying undefeated and taking the championship this year.
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:hurray::lurk5::hurray:

Re: Prester John - there were Christians in India way back when, so reports of those communities may have fed into the Prester John story.
alligatorob said:
Ji Gong aka Li Xiuyuan and known as Chan Master Daoji... In the end we still know his name
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Well, I do now! :D Thanks as always for the history-snippet!

alligatorob said:
men's jackets in my size, even the new one, are more expensive; with tax and all it cost me about $180.
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That is a serious bite, but $180 to feel great and look great, not just once but multiple times over the next season (okay you'll shrink down out of it, but you should get through the winter in it?) is definitely worth it! Go, that suave gentleman over there in the new sports jacket! :)
 
I wish I could sometimes say I forgot to eat lunch .
 
It was a good day, I ate well and got in my exercise. I went a few calories under my usual, problem was pizza, I ate just one piece and could have eaten two. I still live in fear of eating too much, hopefully I'll get over that one day. At the end of the day I had some cheese and crackers just to bring the total up for the day, I didn't really want them.

I've had mixed feelings today, sometimes I appreciate what I have done. Found a healthy diet that is letting me lose weight, and exercise that works for me. I know these are no small accomplishments, I really know that intellectually. On the other hand sometimes I get a bit down. I still have more than 90 lbs to lose to get to goal, and by most standards my bike workout is pretty modest. I need to keep reminding myself that I originally committed to a 2 year time frame to get to goal, and I am just 6 months in. And as minimal as my exercise routine appears I am not doing too badly for a 67 year old still 90 lbs overweight, and one who has not done any real exercising in years. Got to keep repeating the good stuff in my head to beat back the other...

Monday

breakfast
yogurt 80
cereal - grapenuts 110

lunch
sardines 180

dinner
1 piece pizza 270
vegetable soup 120
salad, lettuce only 40

snack
crackers 60
cheese 104

total calories 964

Pope John XII died in 964, possibly at the hands of an unhappy husband who caught the Pope with his wife. Some have called John the worst and most corrupt Pope in history. Amongst other things he was accused of celebrating Mass without taking communion; taken bribes for ordaining bishops; turning the sacred palace into a whorehouse; gone hunting publicly; that he had blinded and killed a cardinal after castrating him; toasted to the devil with wine; when playing dice invoked Jupiter, Venus and other demons for luck; and not making the sign of the cross. Even if he was only guilty of a few of those things it would seem he was not a very good Pope.
 
alligatorob said:
On the other hand sometimes I get a bit down. I still have more than 90 lbs to lose to get to goal, and by most standards my bike workout is pretty modest. I need to keep reminding myself that I originally committed to a 2 year time frame to get to goal, and I am just 6 months in. And as minimal as my exercise routine appears I am not doing too badly for a 67 year old still 90 lbs overweight, and one who has not done any real exercising in years. Got to keep repeating the good stuff in my head.
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sounds really frustrating Rob. It sucks when you see so much more work to be done but you’re right. You’ve achieved a lot and found a system that works for you so you can hold your head up high.
 
Please keep repeating those good things, Rob. You've come so far! It's quite normal to have a bit of an off feeling after having been at it for what feels like a long time and seeing how long you may have left to go. Like marathon runners who hit the wall you'll get past it and reach the finish line triumphantly.
 
Everything you're saying makes total sense from my perspective, Rob. You rationalize well. As you say, you "know that intellectually". Emotionally maybe your inner compass is off a bit. It'll come back and your intellect can carry you through until it does. I remember sometimes I moved forward based only on the memory of my plan and what had worked for me up to that point. I had no intuition or guiding feelings otherwise and that memory would carry me through. I think I posted about that a few times.

I can't help but remark on the small amount of calories you're eating over the long term. Would you consider something like IV therapy for vitamins? I'm not sure if that's even a thing but seems like it. I wonder if they have services in your area or if anyone has any thoughts about it. It could be a whack idea but you are on a serious trajectory and it's a lot for your body to go through. Also, just maybe check in with your doctor.
 
Rob I can’t recall what your weight is now . So is the 90 lb to get to what you think you should be by today’s society or what you feel you could be happy to live and maintain by . I know for example if I was to go by what I should be be for my height etc I would be aiming for another 28lb . I can’t even envisage that so for me I’m looking at what I think I can maintain , be happy . That’s not to say maybe in another 6 months I might think I can lose more . Little bite size pieces rather than looking too far ahead . You are doing excellent so far and we will help you keep mojo going .
I have a Friend similar weight to lose as you I am trying to keep him motivated and I will tell you something you are far far ahead in the commitment and motivation game than he . You have so got this . He is still rewarding with food and alcohol so it’s a bit of a yoyo effect . I don’t really know how he will change that mindset . I often wanted to point him here but selfishly I like being incognito here . It’s my private place to think .
there are days I know you worry and wonder how you will go further and think it’s so easy to give up . I try to focus when temptation strikes on how good I feel and better I look and if I give in to those fries or cake ( which incidentally half the time are rotten ) will I still feel as good and look as good . Which feeling do I want to keep ? Which feels better for me .

I bet buying that smart smaller size coat felt fantastic and think how you felt on the plane. And that’s all only going to get better for you . Go Rob . :auto:
 
Did my 40 laps, decided to try upping the gear a little. It made the up hill a little faster, but harder. I still made it however, think I will try this gear again tomorrow. I can't safely speed up the downhill, but that's all coasting no gear necessary, just the brakes.

Thanks all for the support, Petal, TM, and LaMa you reminded me to remember how far I have come, no sense in stopping now.

Petal it is kind of you to try and help your friend. I wish I could give you the magic bullet to get someone else to lose weight, but I don't know what it is. I do know that if he decides to do it your support will be very helpful. Good luck with him. I know what you mean about keeping this place anonymous, it would be harder for me to be honest if someone I knew was involved. Not that I have any deep dark secrets, but I sure feel more at ease knowing the place is private. There are other similar forums out there, maybe you could point him to those? Your decision though, you are the only one he would impact. I also know the 160 lb goal is just a general target for now, like you I will probably just see what I feel when I get down into that range. The last time I was at 160 I would have been 16 years old, and losing weight for the wrestling team. Not sure how it would fit me today.

Rob, I know you have probably been through a lot of the feelings I am having, I appreciate your insights, and reading your diary. It helps me to know I am not alone. I started taking a multivitamin when I started this diet, on the advice of someone here, and I do try to balance what I eat. I don't go to the doctor much, but probably need a checkup, you are right I should probably talk to him about this.
 
alligatorob said:
I am not doing too badly for a 67 year old still 90 lbs overweight, and one who has not done any real exercising in years. Got to keep repeating the good stuff in my head to beat back the other...
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As a matter of fact, I think you are doing brilliantly. Genuinely, I do. I think it's probably the few extra days' time spent kicking the door of the 200-250 Club which is getting to you right now - numbers on the scale tend to have a disproportionate power over our perception of how we're doing, when it's the real-life things like the ability to bike close to five miles around the lake, to mow without puffing, to sit comfortably in an airline's seat (with the tray going down! and a gap!), to look pretty darn terrific in a new sports jacket... all those things are the reality. Absolutely, go, you!

(And yeah, about a check-in to your GP. I'm betting he'll be majorly impressed! :) )
 
It was a good day, I ate well and pushed my exercise a bit. I'm happy.

Tuesday

breakfast
yogurt 80
cereal - grapenuts 110

lunch
sardines 180

snack
seaweed 20
apple juice 120

dinner

vegetable bean soup 380

snack
crackers 60
cheese 85

total calories 1,035

The feeling Olga gets from Angel Number 1035 is confused, miserable, and preoccupied. Olga says that the purpose of Angel Number 1035 is what the angels want you to do with its meaning. The purpose of Angel Number 1035 is summarized in these words: Structure, Rise, and Edit.
 
I don´t think I like Olga very much. Starting to think those purposes are meant only for her and we get to find our own ones. Today I´m going with eat, work, sleep.
 
Down 3 lbs to 250, just 1/8th ton! I am happy, that makes 70 lb, 5 stone, or almost 32 kg to date. I have been here and dieting for 6 months now, 70 lbs in 6 months is more than I had hoped for or would have even believed possible.
LaMaria said:
I don´t think I like Olga very much
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No, I am beginning to suspect she uses some kind of random word generator, I see little connection between her meanings and feelings.
 
Just did my 40 laps and 1 for lagniappe. Drug my 1/8 ton body around the track 41 times, all in the higher gear. I was pretty sure I was going faster, but my phone doesn't seem to agree, 40 min is good, but my my lowest for 41 laps. Maybe the result of the count problem, I know I usually miss a few laps, it may have been 43 or more.

The ride is feeling easier and more routine, a good thing.
 
5 stone in 6 months is so amazing. I know you have a bit more to go, but to go from 320 to 250 in such a short space of time is really inspirational. And the fact you have done it all by yourself as well. You rock.
 
Emilyrose said:
the fact you have done it all by yourself as well
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Hey Emily, much as my macho side would like to say that I can't, without the support and help of the folks here, you included, I am quite sure I could not have done it. I have tried to lose weight all by myself and I know it doesn't work.
 
:hurray::hurray::hurray: Joining in the cheers! Your determination and consistency are really a model and a pattern for us!

I love that you have got to where
alligatorob said:
would [not] have even believed possible.
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An amazing feeling! Something to really ponder, about what things are possible.
 
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