Emily Rose: The Reboot
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How did it go? Is the season finished, or if not, when's the next night? Was there (if the season's over) a closing night party? I hope so - they're always fun, or rather, fun and a bit wild. Thanks for the comments and well wishes guys. It went absolutely brilliantly, I was so happy with it. And I had such a huge number of friends and family come to support me, which was nearly better. I really felt well liked and respected and all that stuff. After feeling kind of lonely and at sea for a number of years, it was great to see that many of those concerns were all in my head. I do have friends! 
It was good to realise that.
One cool thing is because of all the running around last week and the huge amounts of nervous energy expended, along with a lack of appetite, at one stage, my weight went down to 174.7 pounds. I was so happy. Of course, it's shot back up already, but it was so exciting to see a number I have not seen in months and months on the scales.
This week, I am absolutely exhausted, and I don't have the heart or energy to get back to the gym or try to be super-restrictive, but I can see that some of the changes and extra workouts I did last week when I had some time off really worked, and if I just stick to a simple plan, I will see results very quickly. I just don't have the energy for it at the moment. But I'm hoping to get back on track once this week at work is over.
I also have a date with the Spanish guy again on Saturday, he's been waiting around for the play to be over, so it will be nice to see him. I'm just going to go with it. Love the one you're with and all that.
It was good to realise that.One cool thing is because of all the running around last week and the huge amounts of nervous energy expended, along with a lack of appetite, at one stage, my weight went down to 174.7 pounds. I was so happy. Of course, it's shot back up already, but it was so exciting to see a number I have not seen in months and months on the scales.
This week, I am absolutely exhausted, and I don't have the heart or energy to get back to the gym or try to be super-restrictive, but I can see that some of the changes and extra workouts I did last week when I had some time off really worked, and if I just stick to a simple plan, I will see results very quickly. I just don't have the energy for it at the moment. But I'm hoping to get back on track once this week at work is over.
I also have a date with the Spanish guy again on Saturday, he's been waiting around for the play to be over, so it will be nice to see him. I'm just going to go with it. Love the one you're with and all that.
Petal001
New member
Em happy to hear an update . All sounds fantastic . Glad play went well and how exciting to see that weight loss .
Funny I was talking to daughter earlier and saying I need a bit more exercise as I’m seriously lacking In that regard .
hope the date goes well and you continue to realise now that you are loved and respected and important to your friends and family x
Funny I was talking to daughter earlier and saying I need a bit more exercise as I’m seriously lacking In that regard .
hope the date goes well and you continue to realise now that you are loved and respected and important to your friends and family x
That is absolutely brilliant! Go, marvellous you! 
And cheers for the cast and crew as well - and so pleasant about all the Em-gang turning up and having a terrific time. Love it!
And what fun, about being back down to a happy-making number on the scales. (By the way - do drop in to the 170s Club sometime - even just quickly, to admire the decor. ) And Spanish guy is back! Or rather, has been hopefully loitering nearby all this time, waiting for the closing night so he can take you out to celebrate - I love the mental picture of him outside the stage door! Have a lovely time!
And cheers for the cast and crew as well - and so pleasant about all the Em-gang turning up and having a terrific time. Love it! And what fun, about being back down to a happy-making number on the scales.
(By the way - do drop in to the 170s Club sometime - even just quickly, to admire the decor. ) And Spanish guy is back! Or rather, has been hopefully loitering nearby all this time, waiting for the closing night so he can take you out to celebrate - I love the mental picture of him outside the stage door! Have a lovely time! 
alligatorob
Respected Member
That is great! I am sure you did very well, no surprise!
Will you be doing it again?
Aw, thank you Petal and LaMa.
Amy, I love your description of Spanish guy loitering around. I guess he kind of was.
Rob, absolutely I will do it again, we might try to kickstart something in the New Year.
This will be a fairly short post but I am sitting in the Prosecco tea room of the hotel where I go swimming waiting for S.G. to arrive. Amy, you would like it here, haha. I’m not sure how I feel about this date, I was kind of dreading it all day. I half considered cancelling, but I decided to put my big girl pants on and meet the man. I owe him that much. I just wish I was more besotted with him. Maybe this is what I need right now, I don’t know.
We are going for some food and a few drinks, so let’s see how it goes...
Amy, I love your description of Spanish guy loitering around. I guess he kind of was.
Rob, absolutely I will do it again, we might try to kickstart something in the New Year.
This will be a fairly short post but I am sitting in the Prosecco tea room of the hotel where I go swimming waiting for S.G. to arrive. Amy, you would like it here, haha. I’m not sure how I feel about this date, I was kind of dreading it all day. I half considered cancelling, but I decided to put my big girl pants on and meet the man. I owe him that much. I just wish I was more besotted with him. Maybe this is what I need right now, I don’t know.
We are going for some food and a few drinks, so let’s see how it goes...
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Great news, Em. So glad it went well. Ohh Prosecco tea room? Sounds divine! Let us know how it went (hope he likes your big girl pants.)
Cate
Long term member
Prosecco tea room? Wow. I'm glad everything went so well for you, Em. You are very well supported and loved obviously. Maybe not being so besotted with Spanish guy might end up being a good thing. You'll be able to see him more clearly & get to know him. How nice of him to be loitering, waiting for you. He seems to have some good qualities. If it doesn't work out romantically he might just become another good friend.
Yup. Remember he wasn´t looking for a committed relationship. Not being besotted IS a good thing.
Ooohhh, yes!
Not besotted - yes, that's good! You can see him clearly, which means you'll recognise if he's overstepping or being too off-hand - in the meantime, if he's someone pleasant to go out with, go to a movie with, take to a party or as your plus-one to a wedding etc - so long as neither of you is stringing the other one along, it sounds great! Have fun!
Hi guys, thanks for the nice comments. I've had a busy week, so I haven't had much time to write.
I'll give a little synopsis of the week:
- Saturday: Had the date with SG. He is actually very handsome, haha. We had a nice chat about him walking the Camino with his dad and other stuff. There's definitely something there, but I am kind of holding back. More on that later in the week.
- Sunday: Exhausted. Slept for 12 hours.
- Monday: Woke up delighted with myself after a marathon sleep. Which was a good thing, as I had dinner plans made that evening with the drama group. We had a really lovely evening, I ate a mountain of food, had a few drinks, but I was home for 11pm, so it wasn't too crazy.
- Tuesday: I can't really remember Tuesday. I guess nothing much happened. Oh yeah, I binge-watched the first series of Marcella. I must have been up till 12.30am. It's so good though.
- Wednesday: I was doing reception for the yoga centre after work. It rained all day. My parents collected me and then me and my dad got chips and curry on the way home. Whoops.
- Thursday: Was meant to go to SG's for dinner and stay over and I cancelled at the last minute and went to a comedy gig with another guy I know instead. I don't know why. I think I was just really worried about work today because I don't sleep very well when I am out of my normal environment. I thought he would be really pissed off, he seemed okay about it. I hope he wants to meet up again, but in a few weeks when I feel less fat. That is also a factor that is putting me off. I went to the gym and for a quick swim before I was meant to meet him, and I was wearing very unflattering grey pants, and I caught a glimpse of myself in the gym mirror and I was just appalled. I also got sent pictures of myself from the group dinner on Monday and I have definitely put on weight. My face has ballooned. So all of that was leading me further and further away from wanting to meet SG. Which is a shame really, but it's how I felt yesterday.
- Friday: Had a very educational day in work which was badly needed, so I was happy with that. I'm really tired after the late night yesterday so I am doing nothing this evening. Had Italian flatbread and chips (again!) for lunch, which is a complete disaster. Skipped dinner and then had tortilla chips and salsa dip. And a doughnut. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Anyway, that all leads me to now. I'm reading a book at the moment about the importance of goal setting and writing things down. I have a very fancy work event coming up at the end of January, and I want to look as good as I can for it, so it's time to get to work. I feel bleugh. The weather and darkness is not helping. I have 62 days to make a change. That is a nice amount of time, but I need to start now.
My general plan for the week:
- At least one form of exercise every day
- 3 meals, 2 snacks a day
Things I need to get done:
- Give blood
- Cancel wifi
Plan for tomorrow:
- Weigh in
- Tidy room
- Home yoga
- 1 hour walk
That should be enough. Trying not to overwhelm myself too much.
I'll give a little synopsis of the week:
- Saturday: Had the date with SG. He is actually very handsome, haha. We had a nice chat about him walking the Camino with his dad and other stuff. There's definitely something there, but I am kind of holding back. More on that later in the week.
- Sunday: Exhausted. Slept for 12 hours.
- Monday: Woke up delighted with myself after a marathon sleep. Which was a good thing, as I had dinner plans made that evening with the drama group. We had a really lovely evening, I ate a mountain of food, had a few drinks, but I was home for 11pm, so it wasn't too crazy.
- Tuesday: I can't really remember Tuesday. I guess nothing much happened. Oh yeah, I binge-watched the first series of Marcella. I must have been up till 12.30am. It's so good though.
- Wednesday: I was doing reception for the yoga centre after work. It rained all day. My parents collected me and then me and my dad got chips and curry on the way home. Whoops.
- Thursday: Was meant to go to SG's for dinner and stay over and I cancelled at the last minute and went to a comedy gig with another guy I know instead. I don't know why. I think I was just really worried about work today because I don't sleep very well when I am out of my normal environment. I thought he would be really pissed off, he seemed okay about it. I hope he wants to meet up again, but in a few weeks when I feel less fat. That is also a factor that is putting me off. I went to the gym and for a quick swim before I was meant to meet him, and I was wearing very unflattering grey pants, and I caught a glimpse of myself in the gym mirror and I was just appalled. I also got sent pictures of myself from the group dinner on Monday and I have definitely put on weight. My face has ballooned. So all of that was leading me further and further away from wanting to meet SG. Which is a shame really, but it's how I felt yesterday.
- Friday: Had a very educational day in work which was badly needed, so I was happy with that. I'm really tired after the late night yesterday so I am doing nothing this evening. Had Italian flatbread and chips (again!) for lunch, which is a complete disaster. Skipped dinner and then had tortilla chips and salsa dip. And a doughnut. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Anyway, that all leads me to now. I'm reading a book at the moment about the importance of goal setting and writing things down. I have a very fancy work event coming up at the end of January, and I want to look as good as I can for it, so it's time to get to work. I feel bleugh. The weather and darkness is not helping. I have 62 days to make a change. That is a nice amount of time, but I need to start now.
My general plan for the week:
- At least one form of exercise every day
- 3 meals, 2 snacks a day
Things I need to get done:
- Give blood
- Cancel wifi
Plan for tomorrow:
- Weigh in
- Tidy room
- Home yoga
- 1 hour walk
That should be enough. Trying not to overwhelm myself too much.
Could it be the relief of the end of your stressful time preparing for the play? You had a lot on your plate for a while! I hope you'll soon feel good enough about yourself again to go visit SG or any other guy that might cross your path
Your life is pretty full-on! That's a great update, with lots of good things happening.
I'm glad SG didn't feel thrown by the change of plans - though putting him on ice "for a few weeks" until you feel slimmer might discourage him a bit. But great that there are other guys eager to go to comedy nights etc with you. The night with the drama group sounds brilliant - all of you having achieved something so good together, enjoying a congratulatory night out - wonderful!
Yes, probably time for a re-set, and a beginning again with concentration on glorious delicious healthy eating (the delicious part's important!) and exercise and good sleeping - your tomorrow's/today's goals sound pretty good. I like that you're starting easy, and making each day's goals clear and achievable - go, you!
I'm glad SG didn't feel thrown by the change of plans - though putting him on ice "for a few weeks" until you feel slimmer might discourage him a bit. But great that there are other guys eager to go to comedy nights etc with you.
The night with the drama group sounds brilliant - all of you having achieved something so good together, enjoying a congratulatory night out - wonderful! Yes, probably time for a re-set, and a beginning again with concentration on glorious delicious healthy eating (the delicious part's important!) and exercise and good sleeping - your tomorrow's/today's goals sound pretty good. I like that you're starting easy, and making each day's goals clear and achievable - go, you!
Petal001
New member
Em it sounds like you are just totally busy but you do sound pretty happy about life just now. Lots of lovely things happening. I'm sure SG isn't even thinking if you put on a lb or 2 he is probably enjoying spending time with you.
Personally I have wasted so much of my life waiting to do something until I lose weight that I missed out on so much. So as Amy says hopefully he won't be put off you could always doll up and just do dinner or movie and no need to stay over for a few weeks maybe.
Personally I have wasted so much of my life waiting to do something until I lose weight that I missed out on so much. So as Amy says hopefully he won't be put off you could always doll up and just do dinner or movie and no need to stay over for a few weeks maybe.
And still do LaMa, unfortunately. I mean that in the literal sense!
Thanks Amy.
I have wasted a lot of time too Petal, I just got scared at the thought of my life changing I think.
Day 1 of 62
- Sleep - 9 hr 2 min
- BPM - 59
- Weight - 180.1
- Fat - 41.5%
- BMI - 27.4
1 hour walk and youtube yoga class
Cigarettes: 3
Food:
- 11.25 am - granola, cornflakes, 2 weetabix, whole milk; 1 slice sourdough toast with butter and marmalade; coffee and milk
- 1.36 pm - tortilla chips and hot salsa; tea and milk
- 3.36 pm - mushroom soup; 1 slice sourdough toast and butter; 1 slice brown bread with butter, ham, cheese and coleslaw; peppermint tea
- 5.45 pm - caramel slice; Christmas tea
- 8.02 pm - chips, veg lasagna, relish, coleslaw, kidney beans and chickpeas, balsamic vinegar, rocket, peppers, tomatoes, courgette and cucumber; chamomile tea
- Morning yoga class
- 20 min run
- Evening yoga workshop
- 1 hour tidying room
I am kind of tired so won't say too much. I texted SG - he didn't seem super-enthusiastic to be texting me, which is sad. He did agree to meet next weekend, but let's see. I'm annoyed with myself, I think I've fucked it up.
alligatorob
Respected Member
If you are thinking about canceling the date with him that doesn't seem to me to be enough to "fucked it up", if there really was anything there. How important is the relationship to you?
Your day 1 looks good, keep it up!