Cate's Diary

The air inside the bar was fine & I wore a cloth mask to get from the car. The air quality is very poor still today. The weather is cooler & it is very still. Specialist firefighters from interstate have arrived to help out as most of the fires are in remote & fairly inaccessible forest. The general consensus is that the fires will be burning for many weeks more.

I did a fast yesterday but my weight has stalled a little. I think that may be because I have been getting no exercise. Unless the sky opens up & we get some rain I can't see myself going to play golf on Wednesday and I'm meant to be playing next Saturday in a comp.
I'm feeling pretty good mentally. The break from all the :icon_bs: has done me lots of good. :)
 
Just got a call from one of our 8-ball friends with some sad news. One of our friends was camping, had a headache, went to lie down & was found dead yesterday. He was a lovely guy & younger than us. It is a hell of a shock. He made the Tasmanian open team this year & played in the team with our son. He didn't think he would make the state team but we really encouraged him & he said we gave him the confidence to do it. He had been trying out for decades & made the team for the 1st time at 64. Our son was great with him & he had a ball & played really well at the nationals. We have travelled away with him many times & had lots of fun, lots of laughs & I will always remember him with a smile.
 
I´m very sorry to hear that Cate, so sad and scary. Did he have a stroke? At least he got to fulfill his dream...
 
I don't know yet what he died from LaMa. He was camping & it's incredibly smokey here. I'm fairly sure he was asthmatic. We should hear more tomorrow xo
 
Oh man, Cate, I'm so sorry. Sounds like he had an abundance of determination in him right up til the end.
 
He sure did Oaks &being remembered with a smile is a great legacy. I really feel for his wife.

They keep downgrading the fire alerts & there are no watch & acts this morning & it is much cooler. We can see the mountains for the first time for about 8 days. We are expecting light showers which should help a little.

I am getting on my exercise bike today. I'll start off with 5kms. It has been a while. I'm doing a fast again today as I'm not sure what my week will bring. Mondays & Thursdays are my preferred fasting days.
 
Enjoy your day, Cate, starting on the exercise bike again is probably a very good idea if your lungs allow.
 
We gathered some wood & I did lots of housework instead. Have been very hungry today! It wasn't a lazy day at least.
 
Thanks Butterfly. I'm heading off for the day today (Vet's golf) & will see Mum, do some shopping, go to the library etc. I'm on the cusp LaMa of getting down to the you know whats [as you are there :) ]
I don't enjoy Vet's golf days as much now that I am secretary/treasurer. I preferred being the barmaid- just the barmaid. I helped out- they were grateful & now they're pesky.
Feb is a big month with golf stuff & once again, I need to fast forward to the end of it. Once again, I'm wishing my life away. This has to stop.
I'll try not to think about it all because when I do I get overwhelmed.
OK- better scoot, xo Cate
 
You´ll join me soon enough Cate, and you´re more than welcome to! As annoying as the golf extras are right now: it looks like you´re solidifying your decisions now instead of just being overwhelmed. I think that´s a good thing. Many hugs and I hope you enjoy your day.
 
LaMa- you "get" me. I am solidifying my decisions. I will cut my ties with the golf club. I have had enough.
The more time I spend there, the stronger I feel about spending less time there.
Today was painful. G & the co-captain are calling a special meeting next week because of the "bitching". It will be before they play as everyone will be there. Bloody hell.

I spent quite a bit of time with my Mum today. I love my Mum so much, but it is SO sad really. She was such a feisty, strong & intelligent woman. She is a shell of that person. I won't go into too many details as I'm sure most of you would not be able to stomach it. She has no life any more. As much as I am going to miss her, it is time for her to go.

I am being sent to the kitchen by my lovely husband, who has my dinner cooked. I had better go now. I am ravenous! xoxo
 
It's always tough to see loved ones transformed due to illness but I'm sure spending time with you brightened her day immensely. The only sliver of a silver lining I have experienced is that a longer illness gives loved ones a chance to spend more time and come to terms with everything.
 
It´s always tough. My clients are usually geriatric and they can have so many horrible afflictions but I´m always sad to know I´ll never see them again. And simultaneously happy they don´t have to fight anymore.

Anonymous greetings to the lovely husband, by the way; he obviously takes good care of you :)
 
I did type in my diary yesterday, but obviously din't wait to make sure it posted. Whoops. G does take very good care of me. He's lovely. He's sighing a lot today & I'm a bit worried about him. It's the golf club I know. We just have to deal with it, but he is not good with any conflict or telling people what sometimes needs to be told.
I played golf with the women yesterday & got around 18 holes ok, considering I hadn't played for 3 weeks. I played just ok. I must say I didn't enjoy the day, though. I don't like being in the same space as B. I looked across at one stage & caught her staring at me. It was an awful look. I am becoming quite steely in my resolve to take myself off committee altogether. I'm not sure I can wait until October though. I will also not be sec/treasurer of the vets past that month. I think also that I will quit as bar manager. I would like to see how it feels to just be able to play golf out there, without any responsibilities. I want to have some fun again playing golf.
I went out with G to 8-ball & we had a pleasant night. I caught up with a young friend & she was relieved to hear that I am going to quit. She is just lovely & I get on very well with her. I had spoken to her on one of my really bad days obviously. She had been worried about me. I think she hugged me about 4 times last night. How sweet!
I had better go. Lots of diaries to keep up with!
Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
It definitely sounds like quitting might be for the best. You deserve to be able to just get out there and have fun, without all the drama. Hugs to you! Hope you have a good day tomorrow! :)
 
cate said:
I did type in my diary yesterday, but obviously din't wait to make sure it posted. Whoops. G does take very good care of me. He's lovely. He's sighing a lot today & I'm a bit worried about him. It's the golf club I know. We just have to deal with it, but he is not good with any conflict or telling people what sometimes needs to be told.
I played golf with the women yesterday & got around 18 holes ok, considering I hadn't played for 3 weeks. I played just ok. I must say I didn't enjoy the day, though. I don't like being in the same space as B. I looked across at one stage & caught her staring at me. It was an awful look. I am becoming quite steely in my resolve to take myself off committee altogether. I'm not sure I can wait until October though. I will also not be sec/treasurer of the vets past that month. I think also that I will quit as bar manager. I would like to see how it feels to just be able to play golf out there, without any responsibilities. I want to have some fun again playing golf.
I went out with G to 8-ball & we had a pleasant night. I caught up with a young friend & she was relieved to hear that I am going to quit. She is just lovely & I get on very well with her. I had spoken to her on one of my really bad days obviously. She had been worried about me. I think she hugged me about 4 times last night. How sweet!
I had better go. Lots of diaries to keep up with!
Love to all, xoxo Cate
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Have I ever told you how incredible I find it to be that you are so incredibly active? I mean, dude...it's so awesome.
 
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