Oops, I've been so busy recently I didn't even realise I hadn't written yesterday. So first I'll update on the food/exercise (since that is the forum focus!) I've been PERFECT. It's awesome. I think the only thing the nutritionist will fault me on this week is the sneaky organic decaf coffee I've been having most evenings (I am allowed 2 coffees a day, she is just against decaf because of the processing... I thought I'd do it just the last week before she gets my food diary and tells me not to lol). Had a really good workout yesterday, SM and I trained chest/shoulders/tris. She's getting really strong and I'm so proud of her!! I am sore today!!!
School was really stressful and full on the first couple of days but today we really went in-depth on all the assignments we are doing this term (there's like... 8 of them. Yikes) and I actually think it's going to be a crazy amount of fun!!! I thought I'd have trouble coming up with my own original concepts for everything but I already have an idea for each assignment. Yay me!
And now the venting part of my diary. I thought I'd sit and type some of this out as it's a pretty big thing in my life at the moment and probably my hugest source of stress/discomfort. Followers of my old diary will know a bit about Wade... well, it's not a big thing in my life for the reason you think. He's been lying about everything. He doesn't know we know, just too much stuff has not added up/ had suspicions for a while so investigated further.... and just before Christmas we told him we wanted to live by ourselves this year and he seems to have completely gone off the deep end. All the things we just used to go along with- him wrecking our couch, being messy, not cleaning up after himself, absolutely hogging our tv etc etc are just so irritating now and moreso because... Here's the latest thing. The day after Christmas he came home in tears saying his mum had a head injury and was in hospital in an induced coma, then had brain surgery... he kept saying each day how she was, then he decided to fly home to Perth to see her (we are about 90% sure he didn't actually go home, for reasons I really can't be bothered typing out right now) He got back last week, was supposed to go back to work on Sat... He sent me a text from work saying he messed up his holiday form so had a short day, then also had to take Sunday off. Then he told us he had to swap a shift with a co-worker, took Monday off. Come Tue, he works a couple of hours... says the boss sent him home as he hadn't slept after a phone call from his dad saying his mum was back in hospital, then had Wed off as a day owed. Thu/Fri are his regular days off. He won't go back to work!! But that's nothing... HE TOLD HIS JOB THAT HIS MUM HAD DIED!!! This has been a constant thing the last few months, he doesn't know this but his 2ic in his department talks to SM all the time and always lets us know what he is telling the store VS what he tells us. He takes so many days off saying he has chemo/ is in hospital/ family member sick etc etc and then just sits on our couch alllll day and tells us he had the day off because days owed etc. I can't even stand to look at him after how many nights I stayed up with him over the years thinking he was dying etc. This is all constant, his lies just keep going. And going. And going. Lies that he told me when we first met 6 years ago I've discovered since aren't true (with proof. I have 100+ screenshots of him saying something and SM's friend at work telling us what he told them). I feel physically disgusted every time I see him. All this... we can't confront him because we don't really know him after all, I have no idea how he would react being caught out in a lie. I'm worried he'd go on a rampage and destroy stuff in our house or hurt our cats... so not confronting him with anything until he's moved out. If the thing with his mum being supposedly dead keeps going on I'm going to call his parents and tell them what's going on. Aggh.
In the meantime, another thing about this that is stressful is he told us before Christmas he was going to move in with Jackie when her lease is up in March... meanwhile, he told me yesterday her parents house is being sold and they're looking at downsizing so I'm sure he is about to tell us he can't move in with her. I mean, we don't care. I'll straight up tell him again we don't want to live with him anymore. He holds the lease though so if he says he won't leave... then we will, and we'll take everything in the house with us and he can pay the whole $560 a week on his own. He really just needs to go though, urgh. I've been invited to a brekki down south on Sunday for someones birthday near where Jackie works, if I end up going I'll pop in and "bump into her" and ask how the house hunting with Wade is going... I'm sure he hasn't even spoken to her about moving in together.
Righto, I'm going to stop talking about this shit for now, it makes me so angry.
Todays food
B 1/2 cup sweet potato, 1/2 cup spinach (I wilted it), 2 eggs, 1/2 avocado
S Carrot, chopped capsicum, 40g spicy harissa hummus. Emphasis on the spicy, yikes
L Leftovers from last night- 130g salmon fillet with salad (who knew how good cold salmon was!??)
S 1 cup rainbow salad with 1 tsp leftover miso dressing, 2 hardboiled eggs
D My faaaaave salad ever, I'm looking forward to eating it! 130g pulled beef with roasted chopped beetroot, asparagus and green beans on lettuce and red cabbage with a homemade Dijon mustard dressing. Sooooooooo gooooood. Also great with added walnuts but don't want to get told off for too many add ins lol
Exercise REST DAY!
Tomorrow is the start of a new food week too so I can have a cheat meal again. So proud of how this week went!!
