Okay so I have decided not to weigh myself until next week. I had to give up my veggie diet for a few days because my husband cut me off financially and I had to eat what was in the house. I really can not spend the money I have until I have money coming in so, you have to do what you have to do I guess. It is a very sad time for me because of leaving my children. Although I will see them on the weekend I do not want them to hate me because I had to leave them. I wish I did not have to do this GOd knows but my only choice is to stay with him and self destruct or move on and be happy.Had I been in America it would not be so bad because I know I would have my kids in my custody but this German law is so fucking backwards. I carried them around for 9 months did everything for them and I am not allowed to leave the country with them ugh!!!
SO I have have not went on any binges but I did eat come calorie killers such as tortolini with cheese sauce with ham. I also had pizza and spahgetti. Its funny how he will not give me any money but he can buy things like pizza. I can not wait to be out of this house tomorrow!