Windmill's Diary

[windmill]

Hey everyone,

I have been looking at this forum on and off for years, but I feel like I need to start a diary because I really need some support right now, I am afraid of gaining back the weight I have lost so far.


So, just some stats, I am a 23 year old female, 5’ 4’’ and as of September 10th this year, I was 172 ( my highest weight ever is 177). I decided to lose weight, and to try and do it the healthier way, before I would always try and lose 11 lbs a month and exercise 2+ hours a day, which would last a month or 2, and then I would not be able to keep going and I would gain it all back.


Anyways. This time, I have tried only weighing in once a week, and exercising 45 min, 5 days a week, and eating more vegetables. Everything was going well, up to a week ago when I started eating wayy too much. Especially yesterday and today, I binged horribly, and I don’t know why, I thought I was way past this. Last week I was 152, I weighed myself today and it said 158.5. I can only hope this cannot all be fat? My stomach is much bigger this week though, and I feel so horrible right now. I just don’t know why I am backsliding like this. Anyways, and advice would be appreciated, I am not giving up this time, but I feel really down right now. Alright, thanks for listening. I feel a little better already.

 

[scbibhouse]

Welcome to the forum Windmill!

Congratulations on deciding to take control of your life in a healthy way...and don't beat yourself up too bad over a couple of days...if I've learned anything in this journey (I started on 1 June 2011) is when you fall off the path, you just have to get back on...simple (not easy) as that! For me, I needed some simple rules to follow...again, simple, not easy! I started at 269 and currently at 207 (or around that...I only weigh once a month) and on my way to 150. I'm 5'7, 51 years old. You are way ahead of me in that you're starting young...don't wait like I did...trust me, it gets harder as you get older! My simple rules are

1) no sweets (processed sugars)..occasional fruits are ok

2) low carb (no bread or pasta),

3) no soft drinks (this includes diet drinks), and with that I increase my intake of water

4) no eating after 6:00pm (this means that sometimes I "miss" dinner...so on those days, I have a light snack late in the afternoon

5) exercise every day no matter what (I've worked my way up to 1 hour on the elipitical...I certainly didn't start there...I started at 30 min on treadmill at an easy resistance...and over the months, I've cranked it up!) and

6) I only weigh myself once a month typically on the 1st of the month, then I take measurements of bust, waist and hips once a month around the 15th..I do this because sometimes the scales are not the best indicator...inchens/cm's often tell the tale better! Sometimes I really feel "slim" and I'm tempted to get on the scale...but other times, I know I've gotten off the path and dread the results...so I've found that a month is a better timeframe for me.


What I've written here is working for me...may not work for you...and that's the beauty if this forum...take what you need and leave the rest! The best thing about this forum is that you can say what you feel...and not feel ashamed or embarrassed...we're all on the same road...some of us have a long way to go, others have shorter...but we're all going the same way!


So, pick up your chin and smile that smug smile knowing that you are in control now! If you're feeling down, you might want to write out (not just think it) a gratitude list...it's hard to be depressed when you're grateful!

It's also hard to be depressed when you are actively doing something to counteract it...like taking a good brisk walk...when I'm bored, I've found that even if I've been to the gym once, I go again...double the calories burned and feel better all around!


Hope this helps and stick with us girl...you're worth it!