Wow Mal,
Great post. Describes so much of what i feel, i 110% live to eat, and I have along way to go to sort out the relationship food and I have to get to where you are now, but it is kinda nice to hear someone else put into words exactly what is in my head.
I also think trying to stop myself cooking, experiment and enjoying food which i seem to be doing at the moment is all wrong. I must go back to loving food, but loving it sensibly in moderation. Thanks!
As for my motivations. The simple one is my health, not only am I fat, Im majorally unfit, and both of these are things I want to correct.
I am heading back out to india in July, and i really want to be a hell of a lot fitter than right now, and a little slimmer so that I can enjoy my time there to the full. I have pictures of when i was there last year, and I hate to look at the ones at the beginning of my trip, because I hate what i see, and this time, I dont want it to be like that, I want to like what i see in the picture/the mirror etc.
I want to fix me head, and stop using food in all the wrong ways.
This isnt a diet, this is definately a new lifestyle. One that right now is blooody hard for me to stick too, so feels a lot like a diet, but i wont give up, and it will one day be the norm, and my messed up food attitude will be fixed, i;ll be fit and slim, it will be a happy day
K x