Hey Laura, sorry to hear about your bf - I couldn't imagine what you are going through. You are doing so good picking yourself up and getting to the gym two days in a row though! Great work!! Keep it up and let me know if I can help in anyway.
Thanks, Lisa… It’s been off and on pretty rough, but I’m keeping myself distracted. I didn’t quite keep up the good gym work, but I went back tonight for a long run, and pushed myself harder than I have in a VERY long time. Tonight was definitely a stress relief, and despite being frustrated with myself after (see my earlier post) it was rewarding to see I hadn’t lost all of my stamina.
Hi Laura, sorry to hear too about the bf...but totally awesome you are done with post grad!!! I hope u have a happy new year
Thanks, Akani! Despite the fact that a break-up was a rough way to end a year, it really did give me the fresh start I needed for 2011. In 2010 I switched from a crazy, hectic job that gave me panic attacks, nosebleeds, and enough deliciously fattening food to put me on the path to this forum here to a 9 to 5 job with an amazing group of people that I love to spend my days with. (Yes, I let taxes give me nosebleeds, but it’s stressful, I promise!) I started running, completed I think 8 races of various lengths, and have unofficially lost over twenty pounds. I finished grad school. And I got out of a relationship that was ultimately not going to result in a long, happy marriage and will eventually be on the path to find a relationship that will. It is going to be a good year. I know it.
I haven’t had a bad snacking night since then, so hopefully I will continue that trend. I said it before and I will say it again, thank GOODNESS I am off the Ben & Jerry’s!!! That would have spelled T-R-O-U-B-L-E these past few weeks. Thanks for all the fun advice, I have struggled in the past with having close female friends but I am finally letting my guard down and talking to them more about the things I am going through. It has helped a ton, and I am looking forward to building stronger relationships with them all. And I can think of more than a few of them that would love a spa night!!
Hey Laura
was just getting caught up, haven't eaten and kept seein the pics you posted, lol . TORTURE!! I don't think what you ate was unhealthy at all. I'm going to do some chicken teriyaki on a stick over brown rice and freeze it soon. Your kabobs reminded me of that
The two extra desserts that weren’t in the pic were probably a little unnecessary, but we’ll just pretend those didn’t exist, haha. I kind of like taking pictures of my food! No more catered lunches though, it was peanut butter and strawberry jam today! SOOOO much less interesting!
I love when you buy something new - shoes, handbag, whatever, and get lots of compliments for it. Fabbbbb. Last night I went out and wore some new perfume my OH bought me for christmas, and several people commented that it smelt nice. It just makes an already pleasing new item even better doesnt it! x
It is such a good feeling to get a compliment on something you already know you like! I got a couple of compliments when I was wearing my favorite cardigan the other two, and it was great to see that other people like it as much as I did. Just like with your perfume!
And yay for being able to walk in them successfully, haha!
Hey, sorry to hear about your BF.
And I second what you say about all the Austrailians on the forum (and those who aren't) I hope everyone down there stays safe!
Thanks, Xorie… it’s gotten me a little sidetracked these days, but I hope to snap out it and get my butt back on here ASAP!
Well, it has been a while since I wrote a ‘real’ post. I didn’t go to the gym for the past week. I tried to go on Sunday, waited til the absolute latest time I would have wanted to go at night, and for I believe the first time in the three and a half years I have lived here, all of the treadmills were taken. I went back to the apartment, took a shower and crawled into bed. When I am not working, I have spent half of my time out of the apartment, either with friends (first trivia night on Thursday, first hockey game on Saturday, first time at what is apparently a very historic bar in the city on Saturday) or shopping. Purchased the most expensive pair of jeans I have ever owned, but darn it, they look good. Went out of my comfort zone a bit, I was proud. Also got a haircut on Saturday, it had been way too long. Found a cute little salon maybe a mile and a half away from my house, got my hair cut by the most junior stylist there and absolutely loved it.
The other half of my time has been spent laying around, mostly watching Gilmore Girls. I’m on season seven, I’ll have to pick out something to watch next.
Thankfully my weight is still good. After a late night out with friends I weighed in the next morning at 139. I knew that would go way once I got rehydrated (thank you Lisa for teaching me this valuable lesson!), weighed myself after the gym tonight at 140.6. We’ll see what a normal morning weigh-in brings, whenever that is.
I have gotten fairly comfortable with my weight as it is. I mean, if I stared at myself naked I wouldn’t be overly pleased, but I have learned that I can dress myself in ways that look great and I gotta say, that’s a bit more important to me. Plus, I am really tired of having all of my dress pants be baggy, they are not that fun to shop for and not cheap! But I have realized that I just feel more confident when I am eating better and when I am exercising, and that the numbers on the scale don’t mean as much. Don’t get me wrong, I would still love to lose some more, but that’s not priority. Priority is going to bed feeling happy that I treated myself well and am preparing my body for a long life of running and healthy living.
Hopefully I will catch up on everyone’s diaries soon, as I know I have been ignoring everyone lately. Thank you all for still coming by and showing your support, it really means the world to me.
much better!! haha. 
