Weight Loss Journal

Yes Ankee!! sober year here we come!! Those empty calories turn into my nemesis the next morning when all I crave is grease. And sadly I didn't go for that run as I was hoping for.

Well I know I've been MIA for a couple days again. I was at school and then in Toronto at Cory's then back at school then Cory's then school for the past 3 days. I'm back to my world now and am off the junk food. I haven't had any drinks at all for two days which is no suprise because it's the middle of the week. I was invited to my friends show today but kindly turned it down. The past few days were terrible. My eats were out of control and my workouts were non existent. The healthies thing I had was a breaded chicken parm frozen thing with frozen peas in butter sauce and bistro express long grain rice lol. Washed that down with some McD's. So today I attempt it again. I went to body pump this morning to jump start the healthy eating and living again. So far the eats today have been very good. Now that alcohol is likely not to be an issue at all I am going full speed ahead. I have a new boy now that I want to look amazing for. That was my motive last time and it worked amazingly. Cory doesn't care that I have a tummy and he grabs it all the time just to bug me. This makes me even more determined to get rid of it. Anyways, I plan to run on the treadmill tonight when I get home from school. I have tomorrow off so I'll have plenty of time to workout.

The rest of the week is mine. I'm going to kill it! I wont get my 50 points for eating well all week but watch me rack up all the points I can for the next 5 days. BOO YAHHHH!!
 
Hey lady!! Sorry I havent checked in on you in a while... Bad friend I know!!

I am so glad you registered for a 5K!! That's awesome!! And to complete it in under 25 mins is pretty amazing!! But I know you can do it girl!!!

Your classes look pretty tough but its the last semester I would be pumped to just get it over with and get that damn piece of paper!!! I start school next Tuesday, its going to be a laid back semester though so hopefully I will have time to work on me... if you know what I mean...

So I'm totally out of the loop but is Cory a new flame??? I think its good hes keeping you in check with your drinking.... at the same time its hard to be 21 at last and give up the juice ya know... kudos for cutting back!!

I hope all is well and I wish you the best on your last semester!!

Love yas!! :hug2:
 
Hey, I'm glad you're remotivated to eat better again. Sometimes it's hard to get back into things after not exercising or eating crappy (at least for me it is, lol). So good job on refocusing :D
 
Well I cant really be long on here because I have to meet with my thesis group to begin our project. We will be attemptin to grow penecillin and other molds and then we will be testing the penecillin against bacteria that cause infections like colds and stuff and see how well our batch works.

My diet went to shits again. I seriously don't know whats wrong with me. I just cant stay on track no matter how hard I try. I was contemplating going veggie again but I decided not to because I am pretty sure I was low in protein intake last time. So I've decided to become a semi-vegetarian. I am cutting red meat out of my diet completely. This will help me to avoid bad foods like burgers and pastas with ground beef. Yesterday was day one of this and I think it went rather well. Cory wanted to go to wendy's so I ordered the grilled chicken sandwich without mayo but i put BBQ sauce on it. I had a side garden salad and I didn't drink the iced tea.

One meat which I am unsure whether I should be eliminating is pork. I know bacon and sausage are going to be a no go area, but what about ham and pork chops? They are relatively lean and healthy meats in my opinion. Any thoughts on this?!?

I really sucked at working out last week getting in about 3 hours. I was the lowest scorer on my team in my opinion last week so I really need to step up my game if I want to stay in this. I have started doing the Tae Bo tapes I have at home again just to change things up. Everytime I do them I am soo sore the next day in area's I thought I worked enough to not be sore. It's a great feeling and really makes me think that those tapes work wonders.

Anyways I gotta head out. bye everyone!
 
We had a discussion about this at work a while ago. Some guys think that pork is "the other white meat" because of the ads a few years ago that claimed that. I say that pork is a red meat because it's from a mammal.

Pork is fine for you, but cutting it out means that when you go for meat you'll go for fish or poultry which is usually a better choice anyway.
 
I completely agree with you Trops. It just confuses me because I eat ham and I know it's good for you. But it's true that pork comes from a mammal and would therefore be high in saturated fats.... I would assume. BUTTTT The main reason I am eliminating red meat from my diet is to get away from the burgers at the fast food chains. They do not sell pork burgers anyhow. So I'm still kinda torn. Well I guess I'll just eat pork on the rare occasion. Definitely no bacon or sausage as I mentioned. I may have the odd slice of ham with eggs for breaky or ham sandwich. I'll just mainly stick with chicken turkey and fish then.

I had such a good sandwich yesterday that I know would be much better if I made it at home and tweaked it a bit. Smoked salmon and cream cheese on a bagel. There was a little too much salmon on it (it's raw so the texture kinda gets me if theres too much on it) and I know the cream cheese was not light. I am going to try and make these at home since I know they are very healthy.

Eats the past two days have been really good. Yesterday I had a turkey salad from subway for dinner. I had to have something after that so I grabbed an apple and a nutrigrain bar from the cafe. So overall a nice low cal day.

I did not work out though which was something I planned to do. I am not too concerned though because my eats have been so good and I'll just workout tonight. Besides my hamstrings are still sore from Tuesdays workout.

Well that's all for now. Gotta go and find the tweak to that sandwich.
 
I have been MIA for a couple days again. I am not really doing a good job of supporting my team. I know that I am next to be kicked off the team though so it doesn't really matter.

I'm going to try to make this quick because it's late and I want to get up early for the gym. I have been good all week except for one evening that went completely to shits. Thursday was a great day until my cousin came over. She wanted to eat chips and other bad things. We went to the grocery store and bought chips and cookies and pizza bites and then we ordered 20 wings. So not a great day at all. We made up for it by going to the gym the next day for 1 hr and 15 mins. I have stuck to some pretty good eats since then and have been making sacrifices with lighter meals for a small piece of dessert. I have been able to buy food and eat a small tiny portion when its too late to eat and save the rest till morning. I have also been able to tell myself to stop eating after the two cookies because I will regret it deeply if I dont. The no eating beef has been very successful. I am pretty much including pork into that completely. I have turned down many things so far that have had bacon in them etc.

I didn't drink all weekend because I had my 5K today. I had set a goal for under 25 minutes but said I'd be happy with under 30. Well I finished 11th overall with a time of 27:12. I am very happy with this since it was my first race and it was -13 outside without the windchill. I got a nice medal too for finishing. Overall a great day today.

There is something I have been battling for a while which those who have been with me for months will know. I tend to do cocaine on the regular and sometimes MDMA. Well the new boy Cory is not into that shit at all. He smokes his weed and drinks occasionally but thats it. So I decided to try and cut back on the drugs as much as possible. WELLLLLLL Something even better has happened. I haven't touched hard drugs since before the new year. I have even turned it down twice. My cousin had some today and I could have easily done some and I did get the anxious OMG I want some feeling but I just resisted the urge. It's been too long to fall back into that shit now. I think I'm done for good :)

Overall I'm feeling better, and looking better, and being more cautious about my eats. Weight loss is on the horizon.
 
Amanda, that is such great news. Doing that 5k is awesome, and that time is great. Way to go. :hurray: About the coke, good job resisting. when you are getting that anxious feeling, that means that it's getting it's hooks into you. Best to stay away. You can do great things without it.

I have such trouble with a cheat day. I've been doing this for 9 months now, and I know that I can easily eat as much as I did this time last year. No reduction in appitite, so it's only self control that keeps me in check. One meal off is enough to throw the whole week backwards, so I shoot for zero days off. (although this weekend is the Super Bowl, and that will be an off day no matter what)
 
Day 1

Of what you ask? I decided to do my own little X-weighted. 6 months. first weigh in and measurements today. Havent done the measurements yet though. There will be a mid-point weigh in and measurements and then a final in July. I'm going to really try for this. If I fail... then I'm getting a personal trainer. Anyways I'm super bummed out right now because of a two day fight with Cory that I just seem to make worse and worse everytime I speak so that's all I'm writing for now.
 
X-weighted!! That's a sweet idea, I might try it! Good luck to you on everything, and don't give up on our challenge, we might win this week, therefore you might not get kicked off!!

Are you going to go through the cupboards like that Nadine chick does? She has a huge neck. Good luck!!
 
Sorry to hear you're fighting with Cory... (don't know who that is, but I'm still sorry!)

Oooo, I'm doing a 5k next week Wednesday, I'm soooo excited, it's my first one.

I assume x-weighted is a tv show South Africa does not broadcast?? How does it work? (sounds interesting).

Ok, bye for now!
 
Well thanks ladies for the wonderful comments. It's always nice to come on here and see that people are keeping tabs on me.

Well today is day 3 and I am going backwards. I was up to 150.6 this morning. Yesterday was my 3rd day in a row of eating chicken wings. I'm addicted. They are soo evil and delicious. I am still on bad terms with Cory and it's just really bringing my motivation to do anything down. He's upset for something that is soo stupid and doesn't even make sense to fight over. We have pretty much resolved the issue but he is telling me that he has a hard time sweetening up after he gets put in a sour mood. He also said he needs time to think about things which I don't like the sound of. At least it won't be such a shock if we do end things at this point.

So today I'm in a bit of a less depressing mood and I think I can stay focused and on track with my x-weighted. I'm at school till 10 pm and packed my lunch, dinner, and two snacks from home so I don't get hungry. I still havent taken my measurements. I was going to do it this morning but my mom moved the measurer. Even though I fucked up on the first couple days Ive decided to still call this day 3 because the 6 months are going to have fuck ups no matter what and I need to be accountable. I'm just hoping that today I can get into a good thing and just keep it going.


And Ankee x-weighted is a show where they follow one person for 6 months and watch their weight loss journey. They take measurements and weight in the beginning and end of the 6 months and a weigh in at the mid-point 3 months in. It's a really great show and it's awesome to see the transformation after the 6 months. It's like "if they can do that in 6 months then imagine what I can do".
 
Day 5

I'm serious into this now. I ain't getting any younger so this has to happen now. There's no other time. I did a great workout yesterday. I ran 7.0mph for 5K and then did a wery light jog at 5.5mph for about 10 minutes before cooling down. I burned a total of 450+ cals and ran 4.25 miles. I forgot to take into account the other day that my TOM was approaching which was the result for the 150.6. I'm sure I wasn't too far off from there though.

So I'm really focusing on keeping track of this thing and making it an official x-weighted. I've got a calender that I marked with my first weigh in and measurements. I have marked the mid point and the final weigh in dates as well. I am also considering signing up for a half marathon for august as my final fitness goal. A couple things I am considering is setting small weekly fitness goals that are easily achievable and will be related to my running eg. run 7.1 mph for 5K by the end of the week (which is going to be my first one). I may also buy a target outfit for the end of all this but I don't know if I'll be in a small... it just sounds too weird and unlikely. So bottom line I'm dead serious about this thing. My measure,ents taken yesterday are:
Chest: 36.5
Waist: 37
Hips: 36.5
( I only measured the areas they measure)

OK so my body shape is a rectangle and it's very rare that I've encountered anyone with the same shape as me. BUTTTTTT yesterday I was watching the last 10 lbs bootcamp and there was a GIRL who was almost the same height and a RECTANGLE too. ANNDDDD guess what?!?!!? she was 147 lbs!! she got down to 136 but still had a gut which is how I was at 136 too. Anyways I paid attention to the exercises he gave her to do for the week and will try to be comparable.

Well it's the weekend and it's my friend carey and spencers bday. Carey is in Windsor finishing school so we are just celebrating Spencer's bday. We are going to be in toronto for the night and I know they will be drinking and doing drugs but I seriously don't even want to do any of those. I'm just not interested. Losing weight to me means way more than getting drunk.

I have a 5K on February 22nd and I'm going to really work to beat my old time.

That was a long ass message and I gotta workout so I'm closing off now.
 
Wow, you DO sound committed!

I'm doing my first 5k this Wednesday, yay!!!

Will be keeping tabs on you. I'm also losing the last of my weight once and for all now, so let's DO THIS!!!!
 
Ankee I am so happy that your doing the 5K. After you run that first race you will feel soo good because you will have known that you have truly come a long way since your journey began. Let me know how you do!!!

Day 7

I'm a week into this though I had a shitty first 3 days so it kinda feels like day 4. Things are going really good. Let me just fill everyone in from Friday night. So I said I wasn't drinking and I didn't. I smoked a bowl and got way too fucked and didnt munch or drink or anything. I am really proud of myself. I decided to drive home that night so I could make the classes on Saturday morning. So I got up and went to the gym at 8:30 and did the body attack class, then I did the body pump class right after and went home at 10:30. My eats were very good. I had my first shift at work since starting this and I was so scared I was going to munch, but I didn't eat a single thing. Not one crouton, not one piece of feta, nothing. When I came home fromm work I wasn't going to eat anything and then I remembered that I didn't eat and complex carbs for dinner so I had a small saucer of some stir fry in the fridge. I made sure to stay up for a few hours after the meal so it didn;t just sit in my stomach while I slept. I wouldn't consider the food I had last night to be a bad call. I was probably under calories for the day before eating that... AND I worked out for 2 hours.

Today is going great yet again. My sister and I went to the cycling class this morning and I really just gave it my all. I went on the scale just for shits and giggles and to see kinda how I am doing and it said 144.8. This was not correct because it wasnt my usual time in the morning and I had just had a snack and water and worked out.

So the first weekend of not drinking has passed and I'm super happy that I don't have to face it again for another week. My friends are all aware of why I am doing this, but they are still upset that I'm not getting drunk with them. Oh well... call me selfish. I think I am going to buy a daily log book and record my food eaten everyday. I just think it will really help me to stay in tune with my diet.

Anyways I'm going to watch some tv and relax. Have a good day everyone :)
 
I forgot that I wanted to post a pic from the 5K I ran. Nothing too special but definitely a nice moment in my life. The girl that I am with was the one girl I was running along side for the first half of the race. She came in first for our age group and gender.
 
Wow, well done with the no alcohol!!!!

You are sticking to your workouts AND calories, you WILL reach your goal, sooner ratrher than later!

Yeah, I've started logging my food on fitday again... I love the reports you can pull after a week or more to see your averages and your intakes of various nutrients. Even though I've pretty much been eating maintenance amounts (when trying to eat the weight loss amounts) I'm still logging it. I don't care how bad it looks, I just want to see the truth in black and white!

Anyway, I have had 3 over the top days in a row now, and will be focusing on my Monday to Thursday good streak to give me a nice loss on Thursday. Oh, and the race, yaaaaayyyyy, it's Wednesday, I can't wait!!!
 
Day 10.

For some reason this seems too easy. I have been working out consistently. My eating has been right on target. And I haven't had any cravings for anything. I don't know what it is but everything is flowing so nicely this time around.

Yesterday I did the Bodypump class at the gym and my cousin joined me. It was her second day back into working out since 2 weeks ago. I think I was a little too ambitious though. I wanted to do the pump class and then run for 30 minutes and then do the ab tape. Well I did pump and then ran for 15 minutes and didn't do the ab tape. But as long as I got in a decent workout I am happy.

Today is going very well too. I woke up early to make some salmon, rice, and veggies for dinner tonight and for the next few days. Then I went to the gym and did the RPM class (cycling). For some reason it was super hard today but I pushed through it and had a great workout. I was going to run on my break between classes today but I think I'll just rest my body till tomorrow. I'd rather do that and avoid injury.

I had an exam yesterday for my Chemical separation processes class and I think I got 95% or better. I was stressing soo much about the test because I had missed so many classes but when the time came I killed it. I also had a biotechnology quiz which I got 85% on.

So I decided to do something terrible yesterday. I bought a pack of smokes. Yep...I'm smoking again after a year and a half (I only smoked while drunk). I am not proud of this at all and I plan to quit again as soon as possible.

I still have not gone in the scale "officially" since my weigh in of 150.6. I'm trying to hold off as long as possible so I can see some big numbers when I do finally go on it. I also want to wait 2 weeks from my first weigh in. I did go on the scale the other day again at the wrong time and after eating cereal and it read 143.8. I will have my official weigh in for the 2 weeks on day 14. I'm soo excited. I really think I will be in the 130's by next week. I've got my fingers crossed!!!

Things with Cory and I are still meh. We haven't seen each other for a week and a half. On sunday I messaged him and just pretty much ended things and then I messaged him on monday telling him I was coming by to pick up my things and he was all "so we don't talk for a couple days and your coming to get your things??" So we are talking again I guess. He is saying that he is worried things are going to be different and he is telling me he doesn't want to hurt me. I asked him how he would hurt me and he just told me that its complicated and he just might. He said he hates hurting girls. I just told him that we need to hang out again so that we can get this dispute out of our heads kinda. He agreed but the past couple days our schedules have been conflicting. I'm probably overthinking but it almost seems like everything is just conflicting too perfectly. I feel like he's doing it on purpose so we can't hang out. So I dunno. Does any guy have any advice for me based on what you see here??

Well I'm going to go now. Maybe do a bit of homework.
 
Day 11

I couldn't wait any longer to actually weigh myself. The suspense was killing me!! So I went on the scale today and.... 141.8!! I'm super happy. I really think I'll be in the 130's next week. Maybe even Monday!!

So I decided yesterday that I needed to sign up for another race. I want to really challenge myself to see how far I can run. So I signed up for a 10K!!!! It's not until April 26th, which gives me plenty of time to train. This race is also for a cause, which I am pleased with. I saw a number of races for different causes and the only one that I felt would be really great to run was the Strathroy Run for Autism. I chose this race mainly because Cory's brother is autistic. He doesn't know that I'm doing this yet. I want to wait till I see him to see the look on his face. So I am going to be collecting donations and accepting pledges to raise money for the event. If I'm going to run for something I want to make my presence really worth it ya know!?

I'm also now really thinking of registering for a duathalon. The race would consist of a 5K run, a 30K bike, and finishing with a 5K run. It sounds both challenging and rewarding and since I'm doing more cycling classes and I'm already doing races it just seems like a very suitable race for me. The race I'm thinking of doing wouldn't be until the end of June. I'm sure if I keep working hard I'll be really close to goal at that point.

That pretty much sums up the latest news. I might be going to Cory's tonight for the first time in almost 2 weeks if he's not too tired after work. I'm really hoping I get to see him. If I don't end up going there I'll probably just go home after school and workout or something.

I'm out.
 
Aww, sorry things are still so weird with Cory... I also hope you get to see him tonight, and get some stuff sorted out!

Ooooo, I've also already decided on next month's racing event :) Thinking of doing the 10km too!!! Woooooo!!!! I swear I will still run a half marathon THIS YEAR!

Hmmm, I should look into those mixed races, sounds fun :)

And about it "feeling almost too easy" ENJOY THE FEELING, coz it doesn't always feel that easy! (when it actually is :p )

Ok, have a great day and an awesome weekend, laters!
 
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