hi guys
im a new member and im from kuwait - im 27 old male - work as a secretary in a high school - married and got a nice looking kid ^_^ .
# THE BEGINING :-
since i was 14 old i been obese and in 2002 i made my 1st ever weight loss program in hopes of getting accepted in the army college to become an officer graduate.
sadly after 2 years of applying though i lost like 30 kg (66 lbs) i didnt get in (in kuwait sadly the system is corrupted ...if u dont know anyone inside ur cut even if u did well in the tryouts) .
# JOINING THE DARK SIDE :-
after that i got mentally disturbed and angry and simply didnt continue in weight control cause tbh i only wanted to lose it to get in the militry college
and gained it all back with extras.
since that time i ballooned to 128 kg ( 281.6 ).
i have tryed many many times in the last 9 years to lose the weight but it was all a closed circle .
the weight for me isnt abt good looking or getting in shape or getting good clothes.
weight for me is that dark cloud filled with dark thoughts and endless suicidal destructive waves of hatret and low esteem.
i dont get outside of my home alot only goin to work. alot ppl and friends of mine invites me to partys and trips and i have to turn them down ... i wished to go but...im ashamed of my body...i always think that ppl stares at me all the time or even talk abt me negatively behind my back...if i wasnt a believer in god i would be dead by now by commiting suicide.
its not a journey of getting good looking body or fit in clothes or anything like that crap...its all abt surviving mentally in this world.
im like a toothless caged tiger that never tasted freedom since birth.
i apology for my emotional wrighting but i really had to get it out
# A NEW HOPE :-
2 weeks ago i accidentally got into a diet restaurant called LO-FAT i didnt see there sign i only smelled there nice cookings and got in thought its only a normal restaurant...i ate a 317 calories meal called chicken rab ...and i asked for the menu to check and then i was like : WAT THE F...
THIS WAS A DIET MEAL ???? howcome? its very tasty and filled me up how did that happen??
then i realized after 9 years i actually was eating a 500 - 700 calories per day diet...and realized that im supposed to be eating minimum of 1200 calories.
i knew by now that my destiny of weight losing has come...the torment is abt to end and the allmighty have decided to be gentle on me and give me this 1 more chance.
now im eating a healthy 1230 - 1500 diet weekly and doing a great 6 days aerobics/walking/swiming.
for me now life isnt abt losing the weight and go party again and gaining it all back...now i realize wat did DR.PHIL mean when he said (u have to make it a lifestyle not a weight loss ) and he was damn straight...after i got a healthy diet plan and a good training ...its not a weight loss for me anymore tbh lol its a way of life...and damn it! its a nice way of life im alot healthy now
welcome all to Weight Loss Entertainment !
im a new member and im from kuwait - im 27 old male - work as a secretary in a high school - married and got a nice looking kid ^_^ .
# THE BEGINING :-
since i was 14 old i been obese and in 2002 i made my 1st ever weight loss program in hopes of getting accepted in the army college to become an officer graduate.
sadly after 2 years of applying though i lost like 30 kg (66 lbs) i didnt get in (in kuwait sadly the system is corrupted ...if u dont know anyone inside ur cut even if u did well in the tryouts) .
# JOINING THE DARK SIDE :-
after that i got mentally disturbed and angry and simply didnt continue in weight control cause tbh i only wanted to lose it to get in the militry college
and gained it all back with extras.
since that time i ballooned to 128 kg ( 281.6 ).
i have tryed many many times in the last 9 years to lose the weight but it was all a closed circle .
the weight for me isnt abt good looking or getting in shape or getting good clothes.
weight for me is that dark cloud filled with dark thoughts and endless suicidal destructive waves of hatret and low esteem.
i dont get outside of my home alot only goin to work. alot ppl and friends of mine invites me to partys and trips and i have to turn them down ... i wished to go but...im ashamed of my body...i always think that ppl stares at me all the time or even talk abt me negatively behind my back...if i wasnt a believer in god i would be dead by now by commiting suicide.
its not a journey of getting good looking body or fit in clothes or anything like that crap...its all abt surviving mentally in this world.
im like a toothless caged tiger that never tasted freedom since birth.
i apology for my emotional wrighting but i really had to get it out
# A NEW HOPE :-
2 weeks ago i accidentally got into a diet restaurant called LO-FAT i didnt see there sign i only smelled there nice cookings and got in thought its only a normal restaurant...i ate a 317 calories meal called chicken rab ...and i asked for the menu to check and then i was like : WAT THE F...
THIS WAS A DIET MEAL ???? howcome? its very tasty and filled me up how did that happen??
then i realized after 9 years i actually was eating a 500 - 700 calories per day diet...and realized that im supposed to be eating minimum of 1200 calories.
i knew by now that my destiny of weight losing has come...the torment is abt to end and the allmighty have decided to be gentle on me and give me this 1 more chance.
now im eating a healthy 1230 - 1500 diet weekly and doing a great 6 days aerobics/walking/swiming.
for me now life isnt abt losing the weight and go party again and gaining it all back...now i realize wat did DR.PHIL mean when he said (u have to make it a lifestyle not a weight loss ) and he was damn straight...after i got a healthy diet plan and a good training ...its not a weight loss for me anymore tbh lol its a way of life...and damn it! its a nice way of life im alot healthy now
welcome all to Weight Loss Entertainment !