Like everyone on this forum, I am not satisfied with the way I have been treating myself. I have a long standing battle with living the way I know is right and living the way I know is self destructive. In the past I have been successful and truly happy within, only to sabotage myself and spiral completely out of control. Even after knowing what it takes to get back to the level of health I of dream of daily, I let denial and fear of failure stop me.
That is why I am here.
As of last Sunday (1/15/2012), I am going to start climbing my way out of the hell I have been living in. That morning, for whatever reason, I stepped on the bathroom scale for the first time in about six months. I was willing to see whatever number came up. Just as I feared, the number was the highest I'd ever seen between my feet. But something happened. I didn't get depressed and quickly gobble up some empty calories to make myself fell better for 2 seconds, I lit a fire inside. I dusted the fitness tools I had hidden in the depths of my mind and started applying them. Sure this has happened in the past in every couple of years, only ending in failure and depression after 2-3 weeks of progress.
This time It's going to be different.
I joined this forum to share experiences with people that know exactly what I'm going through. Sure my wife is supportive and encouraging, but when my motivation starts to dwindle, I her attempts at encouragement end with me becoming defensive. My plan is to report here weekly to you. I'm not going to go into great detail on calorie numbers and each meal I consumed, but how I truly feel I did that week. I will be honest. If I start to let up at all and get discouraged, you'll hear about it. I'm open to all forms of motivation, advise and criticism. I in turn want to be a positive influence on all of you and your struggles.
Please Join me and lets do this together.
WEEK 1
As I had mentioned I started Sunday 1/15. My starting weight was 232.5. My height is 5'8". I had a very successful week. I applied some of the tools many of you are familiar with: 5-6 small meals. Fruits, veggies, lean protein and whole grains. Cardio every day and weights 3 days a week. And lots of water. My weight this morning (1/20) was 227.5 .
Thank You All,
tjf
That is why I am here.
As of last Sunday (1/15/2012), I am going to start climbing my way out of the hell I have been living in. That morning, for whatever reason, I stepped on the bathroom scale for the first time in about six months. I was willing to see whatever number came up. Just as I feared, the number was the highest I'd ever seen between my feet. But something happened. I didn't get depressed and quickly gobble up some empty calories to make myself fell better for 2 seconds, I lit a fire inside. I dusted the fitness tools I had hidden in the depths of my mind and started applying them. Sure this has happened in the past in every couple of years, only ending in failure and depression after 2-3 weeks of progress.
This time It's going to be different.
I joined this forum to share experiences with people that know exactly what I'm going through. Sure my wife is supportive and encouraging, but when my motivation starts to dwindle, I her attempts at encouragement end with me becoming defensive. My plan is to report here weekly to you. I'm not going to go into great detail on calorie numbers and each meal I consumed, but how I truly feel I did that week. I will be honest. If I start to let up at all and get discouraged, you'll hear about it. I'm open to all forms of motivation, advise and criticism. I in turn want to be a positive influence on all of you and your struggles.
Please Join me and lets do this together.
WEEK 1
As I had mentioned I started Sunday 1/15. My starting weight was 232.5. My height is 5'8". I had a very successful week. I applied some of the tools many of you are familiar with: 5-6 small meals. Fruits, veggies, lean protein and whole grains. Cardio every day and weights 3 days a week. And lots of water. My weight this morning (1/20) was 227.5 .
Thank You All,
tjf
