"We can't become what we need by remaining what we are"

[i_will_not_fail]

Hey 'Manda, how are you, Doll? I'm sorry I haven't been in here much either... Thanks for swinging by my place. My dieting has been kinda sucking lately but at least I'm exercising... not quite good enough, but we'll get there right?

I'll see you around!!

I'm doing ok.. lots of things going on feel like it's never ending tho.. and yea we're getting there you've already done awesome tho.. Like over 80lbs that amazing!! My eating has been ok.. not perfect but still good enough to be proud of myself. And my exercise isn't horrible but better this week so far..

The two nights I was in the hotel during my exams last week I absolutely had to pry myself off the bed and head for the gym. It was soooo hard but as soon as I started to break a sweat I felt ten times better and actually had more energy for study. I know thats easier said than done but exercise helps with so many things.

You had to go to a hotel for your exams?? Thats strange.. I'm still trying to find good studying skills tho.. I have a lot of exercise equipment ay my house that my mom has collected but all stored I'm going to try and get it all out and set it up soon during spring break actually and I have a friend that said she will come work out w me so if that happens I think it will get me more motivated and make it more fun!!

Hey Babe

Im sending ya s and well wishes for your tests.Im hoping w can catch up online at some point, I miss chattin with ya

Thanks Relly.. yesterdays test wasn't good I failed but have a chance to redo it and the mistake I made was so incredibly stupid I went and practice with my teacher today she said I did everything perfect so I'm feeling pretty confident about the next check off.. And I hope we get to talk so too I haven't talked to you in a while I've been so busy.. ugh anyways hoping everything is well for you!!

Congrat's with the LOSS!

Best Wishes for good test results sweetie.

<3 Stacy

Thanks Stacy! Mondays wasn't so good but today's my teacher told me I would either have an A or a B so I would be pretty happy with either

 

[brawny77]

I took all my classes at a off campus site but for the doctoral comps we had to come to the main campus (like 75 miles from home) It was a two day test 16 hours so the whole group of 9 of us who were testing stayed at a hotel and did the study group thing. First time I ever got a hotel room for a test.

 

[i_will_not_fail]

Well good news first.. I did 45 mins of tai chi last night and I did it at a much faster pace than I do in my class and I was sweating in the end.. and I did an AM work out woot woot lol about 15 mins but thats ok still something it was tai chi and did about 15 mins more later in the day.. so its something.. not the best exercise but hey it's helping!!

I had my tai chi test today and the teacher told me I'm either going to get an A or B for my final grade!! And I have my religion test on Thursday so I'm hoping for the best in there.. my grade is on the A/B line So I'm hoping to get a good grade and push it to an A..

Ok the bad news I failed my check off yesterday.. Some things weren't they were they should have been when it was my turn but I'm not making excuses it's my fault in the end.. but I had to practice with my teacher today and when I did it she said I did everything right.. so I think my nerves along with a couple other things got me yesterday.. but I have a chance to make it up (just once) but it's not til March 19th.. ugh thats so far away.. But I'm feeling pretty good about it!! But yesterday when I failed.. I lost it I started crying in front of my teachers (I don't cry in front of ppl so that a big deal!!) and I think it was a lot of other things built up too and that was just my breaking point.. and I felt like a total failure.. but after some thought and self pep talks I felt better!! And I also talked to my teacher about a lot of other things just about school and life in general and I felt SOO much better when I left!! So I'm hoping that talk helped me!!

Other bad stuff tonight at dinner I ate 2 cheese burgers and fries!! OMG why did I do that?? Mom made them and they looked good.. I wouldn't have felt bad it I ate one bc it was lean meat but why the fries.. ugh Idk the I've been stressed about my test yesterday and I tried so hard not to pig out yesterday and I didn't but ugh oh well tomorrow will be better!!!

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

As long as tomorrows better, I wouldnt worry bout the fries too much!!

Woohoo for the 45mins of Tai Chi!

15 minutes is still 15 minutes more during the day!

 

[i_will_not_fail]

Yes did 15 mins twice today so 30 mins total today better than none!! And I think I'll do a bit more tonight! Thanks for stopping by!!

 

[cinderelly]

Im sorry you have been feeling so crappy hunGet better soon...

 

[i_will_not_fail]

Thanks Relly!! I'm hoping during spring break I'll get things under control!! Crossing my fingers!!


Well eating was HORRIBLE HORRIBLE ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY HORRIBLE TODAY!!!! Lazy day and skipped breakfast and got lunch at Wendys I did get grilled chicken still bad but could have been worse and I did a telethon tonight (I wasn't thrilled about being on tv but had to get some service hours) and they provided a meal and I ate.. blah.. anyways I'm going to weight in the AM and see how much damage I did.. but I'm getting to bed.. I have to be up at 7.. Night ALL!!

 

[AngelicaHope]

i will not fail! girl you can do it!
just keep it up!

i will be missing out on the challenge...
but i cant wait to see how you do

whooh!!! i will see you in about 30 days
and hopefully we can both be proud
of what we have done ^^

 

[dreamtobethin]

hey girlie, just checking to see how you are doing; I see that you are having a little bit of a rough time; but that will soon be over; I have been going through the same crap lately; some selp imposed stress and some from the situation around me...but everyday is a fight so take it one day at a time and before you know it you would have reached where you want to be...

hoping you have a wonderful and fulfilling day today.....

 

[jelly belly88]

Just stopping by your journal! You have done a Awesome job so far! Dont give up now. Dont let a crappy day ruin your spirit. Keep positive! have a good one and dont forget to drink some WATER! LOL!

 

[i_will_not_fail]

Thanks for all the encouragement ladies!!!

i will not fail! girl you can do it!
just keep it up!

i will be missing out on the challenge...
but i cant wait to see how you do

whooh!!! i will see you in about 30 days
and hopefully we can both be proud
of what we have done ^^

Missing out on the challenge?? Where are you going?? I'm hoping I can get this today soon.. Today has been good eating so far and plan to end good too!! And I have my last final tonight so that will be a little less stress gone!

hey girlie, just checking to see how you are doing; I see that you are having a little bit of a rough time; but that will soon be over; I have been going through the same crap lately; some selp imposed stress and some from the situation around me...but every day is a fight so take it one day at a time and before you know it you would have reached where you want to be...

hoping you have a wonderful and fulfilling day today.....

Yes I do agree everyday is a fight something always happens that could throw you off.. Today has been better with eating.. but life.. well still stressful right now.. and I'm sick too ugh I'm hoping I'll get feeling better soon!! But I think my spring break will help lots!! And thanks for stopping by!!

Just stopping by your journal! You have done a Awesome job so far! Dont give up now. Dont let a crappy day ruin your spirit. Keep positive! have a good one and dont forget to drink some WATER! LOL!

Thanks for stopping by and nice to meet you!! Today has been much better so far!! I didn't let yesterday get me down I just got back on track!! ANd I have been drinking lots of water the past couple days especially yesterday and today so I don't retent any of the bad food I've eaten!! I'll try to find your journal tonight and stop by and check out your story..

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Hey!
I'm just passing through but wanted to see how you're doing?!
Are you off school for spring break?
[if so, are you having fun?!]

 

[cinderelly]

Thanks Relly!! I'm hoping during spring break I'll get things under control!! Crossing my fingers!!

So how are things going?

 

[dreamtobethin]

Checking in to see how are you feeling today? Hope you are feeling better sweetie.....and things are moving in the right direction;

 

[SweatPea]

Hiya!

I just saw your progress photos, and want to say man you can really see the difference! How can it be you only lost 1.8 lbs? Anyway, that doesn't matter - cause truly it's the inches that matter!

Keep it up! I will be stopping by here and there for some motivation!!

 

[i_will_not_fail]

Hey!
I'm just passing through but wanted to see how you're doing?!
Are you off school for spring break?
[if so, are you having fun?!]

So how are things going?

Checking in to see how are you feeling today? Hope you are feeling better sweetie.....and things are moving in the right direction;

Thanks for checking up on me ladies things are a bit crazy still.. but a bit relieved to be on spring break but I'm working more than usually since I'm on it.. ugh.. never ending I just need a break.. I will get into details in my next post..

Hiya!

I just saw your progress photos, and want to say man you can really see the difference! How can it be you only lost 1.8 lbs? Anyway, that doesn't matter - cause truly it's the inches that matter!

Keep it up! I will be stopping by here and there for some motivation!!

Hey thanks for stopping by!! And yes only 1.8lbs I wonder how it's possible.. lol but I'll take it either way.. lol

 

[i_will_not_fail]

Well so I've been so stressed out.. ugh.. like I really think I'm starting to have panic attacks.. I'm on spring break now but still feel like things are outta control!! And my weigh in today.. I'm seriously pissed at myself!! I'm not even going to talk about it!!.. And my cold is not going away!! It just wants to stay with me forever!! Really annoying!! Well went to the doc today for a following up on my blood pressure med.. well it's still really high so she's keeping me on my meds and she's also putting me on a stress pill (rather not say which one).. ugh.. idk how I feel about that.. I told my mom tand best friend about it and they were like are you crazy?? ugh I don't want ppl to think I'm crazy!! But maybe it will help me get my life under control.. And I told her I've been really tired lately (the same feeling I had when my hypothyroidism was found) and she did more blood work on my thyroid so hopefully I'll get those tests back soon and find out if my levels are low again!! Lastly I told her about my abnormal period.. (I've been on it for over a month now!!!!!) It's driving me crazy!! She said it could me caused be low thyroid levels or being pregnant.. so she made take a prego test.. it was neg so she decided to put me on a med thats going to clean out the lining in my uterus and well make everything get worse then get better and back to normal soon!! So I'm on like 5 meds right now!! And I also talked to her about quitting smoking bc the price of cigs have gone up here and I'm a broke college student and can't afford this!! And she told me she would not recommend me quitting until summer bc she doesn't think I can handle quitting right now with the other stress I'm under right now.. That made me laugh how many doctors tell you not to quit smoking..lol

Well thats the just of my situation right now.. Hopefully it will get better soon.. bc I need to get other things back to normal!! And my eating and exercise are a big part of that!!

 

[thecabbie]

college stress? Check! Scale stress? Check! Smoking stress? Not anymore.... but it wasn't that long ago...

Hey Amanda... Take a deep breath and relax hun... take a coupld days for yourself if you can during your break before you start stressing out over school again.

BTW, there is never a time where stress is NOT going to be a factor when quitting cigarettes... You have to make the decision to do it when it is right for you.

The only thing I urge is that you do it sooner, rather than later in your life. I did it for 25 years and it is costing me dearly now.

 

[cinderelly]

Honey, (Almost called you Honey Bunny, heh heh heh)

Im sorry you have been so stressed out lately adn I hear ya on the damn cold that never stops...

Im so glad you finally went to the doc abt your period...

Ya know if ya ever need to talk, im a good listener and have a cpl ears that can be bentYou've been there for me...



I would have never pegged you as a smoker, lol

Ya know where to find me when and if ya need to talk!!!

 

[brawny77]

I think the first thing you need is a long nap...That always works wonders. Then pick one little thing that you are worried about...Just a little one and do something to make it better...Then you will feel better. Then you may feel like adressing another thing or you may need another nap. Just baby step yopurself to a better place friend. Dont neglect your health. (mental and physical)