Victory is MINE!

Sara06

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So, I'm starting a new journal. I was on here 4 years ago and so much has changed. DH has finished college and we're back home. I've had another beautiful baby and now have 2 of each. They are ages 8, 6, 4 and 20 months. We're a homeschooling family. DH has ministry 3 nights a week and I take a class once. So there's defiantly no time for hitting a gym. I plan to buy wii fit, if they ever go back in stores here in Canada. I've been trying to buy one for over a month.

Last time I went to the Dr, I weighed 150lbs. Since then, I've lost an inch off my thigh and a half inch of my waist, so I know I've lost a bit, maybe 2lbs or so. I'm buying a body fat scale tomorrow as their on sale.

I think in the long term, I'd like to get down to 125-130. I prefer setting a short term goal for my ticker though. More important than weight is measurements. I'd like for my waist to be 29", my hips 37" and my upper arm to be 9.5". I'm starting Tuesday, Monday is a holiday here. I'll update then with measurements and weight. This morning my waist was just under 32", my hips almost 40". I didn't do my arm. My thigh was 23". I guess if I had to pick a number for my thigh it'd be 20.5.

Because I spent years dealing with an eating disorder, I have logs all over the place that I tend to come across and find my old stats. I find it funny that some of my measurements are the same at 135 and 145. I guess it's just where muscle is or isn't at the time.

In 2004, I hit the gym 5 days a week and put on over 10lbs. My stats said it was all muscle and only 1.2lbs of fat. But, as the trainer said, I was putting on muscle and loosing no fat so I just looked huge. I continued to work out 5 days a week while PG, up to 32 weeks, in 2005. I haven't been able to go to the gym since then and I really miss it.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to getting to a healthier me, one goal at a time. I'd love some company along the way. So if anyone wants to pop by my journal frequently to check up on me and/or link me their journal, I'd really appreciate it.

Here's to a healthier year for us all!
 
I wanted to write some more tonight, about ED's.

I've spent most of my free time today looking at weight loss pics. I've read over a few threads I posted in about ED's. It consumed my life for years and years. I bought my first can of slimfast in grade 6. I started obsessing over my weight in grade 8 and became bulimic in grade 9. I went on to deal with anorexia too. One thing that has held me back from dieting is that I'm scarred. I'm so scarred to go back there. I'm so scarred to watch what I eat, to count calories. So scarred to start regularly weighing myself and measuring myself. I use to feel like I could feel fat bubbling up under my skin when I ate. I knew the calorie count of just about everything. My lunch often consisted of 1 fat free cheese slice quartered onto 4 low fat triscuits. If I ate lunch at all. I'm scarred to go back there. I'm scarred to get consumed again. I had my last purging episode in 2004. I've been dealing with a lot of binging on and off since then.

I'm not the same person I was even just a couple years ago. So, I really do hope I can do this and not slip. I've been through a lot in my life. But having my ED was like a prison in my mind and I can not go back there. It's defiantly the worst thing I ever went through.
 
Hey there :)

I am kind of new to this website but am trying to encourage as many people as I can because this is a struggle many of us are dealing with. I wish you all the best and if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to message me or visit my diary :)

Good luck and have fun with your turbo jam!

-Shawnna
 
My first victory!!!! There's this smoothie place in the same plaza as I get my hair and eyebrows done. I got my eyebrows done. The whole way and during, I'm thinking I'm getting my chocolate banana smoothie, with protein, when I'm done. But then, as I walked out, I looked at the place, looked at my van and decided to just go home instead of getting a drink full of calories when I wasn't the slightest hungry.

Woohoo! Turning down yummy treats has always been my downfall.
 
I weighed myself this morning. 148.6! It's slowly coming off. Body fat is 31.4% and ter 43.6%

Yay nice work! Just keep on keepin' on and you will hit your goal in no time! :) I weigh in tomorrow, it won't quite be a week but I hope I do even half as well as you did!
 
Thanks Shawnna.

OK, my scale has serious issues. I gained 0.2 pounds, whatever, normal fluctuations. But, it said I gained 5% body fat. Seriously! Ah well. I know it can't be right. But now I wonder which was right. I did have a bad weekend. I knew I would, went visiting both days.

I'm so hungry right now! What are good snacks I can buy that will fill me up?
 
Yeah, fancy scales suck :/ I used to dread going to the doctor because they would weigh me, but now I want to go so I can use their more accurate scale :p

Some good snacks that I like are.... peanut butter, nonsalted roasted nuts, a banana, some strawberries, a hardboiled egg (or two, I only eat the whites), half of a pita bread toasted with some hummus on it (mmmm :drool5:), a light string cheese, a light yogurt, or some light soup. I think those are all good snacks, and sometimes I will have a small bowl of special K with nonfat milk if I am hungry at night.

Hope these ideas help!

Good luck :)
 
Thanks for the ideas!

I went to the naturopath yesterday. She wants me to stop eating wheat. That cuts out a lot of my junk right there!
 
Sara,

You are right! Victory IS yours...the war has been won on our behalf!

Just remember that you are not defined by your past struggles...you have been freed from that. Today is a new day :)

Welcome back!
Fit
 
I've been reading...praying...listening to some of my favorite pastors online...and God has used those things to show me something about myself.

Not only is FOOD an IDOL in my life, but the desire to not let food be an idol in my life has become an idol in my life. At different times, I'm consumed by one or the other...or BOTH!

Both of these things take my eyes off Him. I knew food was an idol for me...but I didn't realize the other. This has been exciting for me to find out!

Fit
 
Yeah, I can see that. Also, for me, putting too much pride in my looks. I gotta work on that. I know when I'm at my worst for over eating, I'm trying to fill a void that should be filled by Him.
 
Hey Sara,

I haven't seen you post anything in a few days. Hope all is going well! Looking forward to see your progress :)

-Shawnna
 
Thanks Shawnna. It's good to know I'm missed if I don't post.

I'm down to 147.4 now :party:

I got my turbo jam in the mail today. I love it! I'm going to shoot for 6 days a week.

My weight keep bouncing up and down a bit, but it does keep going down a little more, so I'll take that. It seems impossible to ever get down. But even if I loose just half a pound a week, I'll get there eventually.
 
w00t w00t. Congratulations on your loss! I am scared to weigh in before sunday because I can't say I have been making the *best* choices, and my salt intake has been high and my water intake has been low :/ ANd I have not been working out the past few days, but I will use you as my inspiration :) hehe
 
Slow and steady wins the race. That's what I keep telling myself. I'm down to 146.8 now. I'm going to start doing my turbo jam more consistantly and my whole foods eating recipies and information pacage from green smoothie girl should be here today, so I'm hoping to start eating better too.
 
I'm back. I was just looking at some old threads and my weight was dropping when I was taking the thyroid support. Maybe I should take that again. I'm up to 152.2lbs now. I'll include more stats at the bottom.

I started the Master Cleanse today. It's suppose to detox you, reduce cravings and loose a bit of weight too. It's lemon juice, maple syrup (I used Agave) and cayenne powder. Man is it spicy! I'm almost finished drinking my daily amount. I didn't cheat. Not even a taste. Didn't even have to stop half way to my mouth. It was hard making dinner for everyone, but over all it went well. It's suppose to be for 10 days. Newbies for 3-5. I'm comitted to 3. I'll see from there on.

Ok, for more stats, I measure just about everything, lol.

Neck- 13 1/4"
chest- 34 1/2"
Ribs- 32 1/4"
waist- 32"
belly button- 36"
lower belly- 39"
hips- 40 3/4"
upper thigh- 24 1/4"
lower thigh- 21"
calf- 15 1/4"
ankle- 6 1/2"
Bicep-11 3/4"
forearm- 9 1/2"

Weight- 152.2lbs
body fat- 32%
Water 40.4%
 
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