Vicki's first steps to getting my life under control

Vicki

Vicki

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Well Hello All,
I am starting a journal out hopefully I will be able to loose most of this dreadful weight that is runing my life. I feel like everything about my life revolves in how big I am. I am not liking this very much. I was invited to go to florida this winter and all I could think of is, I can't ride the rides at disney because I weigh to much..... I wish my life wasn't such a constant misery. I must say that I am quite proportionate for my size but I feel horrible about myself, my face seems like it has gotten so big it looks boyish to me, grrrrr. I don't even want to have sex anymore, I don't feel attractive and it disgusts me. I am hoping that by going forward and joining this group I will be able to turn my life around and hopefully be under 200lbs again. It would mean the world to me to be able to get back the life I had when I was 17. I am pretty sure that is the last time I was under 200lbs. I would love to be able to run and play with my kids and enjoy life..... Today I am going to make a huge step for myself, I am going to the store and buying a SCALE OMG I can't believe I am actually going to do it. I have been so afraid of these since I was 10ish, I have always been over weight and it has been a heck of a life for me so wish me luck, I hope to be able to start my ticker today and see a slimmer self in the days to come.
 
Vicki, This forum really helped me. I felt just like you. I felt very unatractive, and was definately not liking myself. I was so depressed and just hid in the house everyday, all day.. comming here, I've learned things I never knew about weight loss, how to do it, what is good and bad weight loss, and almost all the tricks of the trade.
It is not a diet, it is a life style change. I'm sure you've heard that one b4. We all have.... BUT it's true! From here on out, it's all going to be different. Which is a GOOD thing!
Once you've gotten into YOR grove of things, you will start to feel lighter, stronger, more will power, happier, healthier, and more energetic....
BUT it all relys on YOU....
Since you have posted here, it shows how dedicated you truely are, so I know you're ready, and you know you're ready... SO GO FOR IT! :)
Welcome and good luck dear! We're here for ya!
 
Thanks Christina

I know this sounds so stupid, but reading your email I actually cried. I have needed to know I have someone behind me supporting me. I don't have that here at home. My husband hates the way I look and thanks to my stress and depression we have had our share of fights and not once has the fact that I am overweight been left out :( But then he sees how upset I am and tells me I look fine which makes me even angrier, grrrrrr. It seems like this is a never ending circle that I am not able to break, I am trying so hard, I have been on a soup diet for 1 week and it seems like I am already starting to cheat on it, grrr. I am hoping I will be able to make things work this time. How do you set up a weight loss ticker I am definatly make a loss this time around, thanks for the kind words and support :eek:
Vicki
 
Vicki, lord knows I have had my fair share crying while reading and typing in this forum.... But it to will pass once you're further on your journey...
It takes a while sometimes... Becuase our weight means sooo much to us...
We did the fighting for years... It seemed like thats all we did.. and my weight ALWAYS ALWAYS came up too... we would fight about sex, lack there of, and it was all my fault cause I was ashamed. I couldnt do the things I wanted to cause my belly was in the way, I wanted the lights off,... etc.....
God I could go on and on..... (but I cant Im in a hury now) lol
If you find that you start cheating on a diet, maybe its cause its not for you....
There are so many different ways to lose weight out there, you just have to KEEP TRYING until you find what works for YOU!
wldve tojn WWand Curves for Women but I can not affford those things, soI am sticking with EXCERCISE (Tae Bo (hard as hell) and Pilates (even harder!))
drinking TONS and TONs of water and
1200 to 1300 cals a day.... low dat, and low carbs...
All of it is hard as hell... but this is what I want, I HAVE CONTROL and I know how happy I will be in the end...
Oh Vicki, I want to keep typing but I have to go to my daughters school, volunteer, (almost regreting it!) LOL
I will be back prb tomorrow!
 
ALRIGHT VICKI!!!!!!

Your in GROUP 5... know what that means? Youre in MY group!
And I will push you each and every day to get up, get that excercise in, drink that water and WORK IT!!!!!

you can do it, wanna know why ? cuase I can do it... thats why...
And we are all in this together...

I want those postcards... I want to lose 5 pounds... and so I WILL!

This is the attitude you will have from here on out....

READY! LET'S GET 'EM!
 
Vicki - I just wanted to post in here to let you know that I support you, as does everyone in this forum. I feel for you - I have been overweight my entire life. Growing up I have always heard that I was fat ... always! My own dad used to tell me that. It's hard .. it's very hard on a person to hjear this from other people when we obviosuly know this ourselves. Men like to bring up things that they know we are self concious about because they just want to make us mad! When your husband says this stuff, use it to your advantage. Use it as motivation - like an "I'll show you!" kind of thing. Luckily I have a supporttive boyfriend, but before him, I dated guys and I never, ever felt comfortable with my body and always felt fat, and in the end, we fought about it. Nothing makes you feel worse. But I use it as motivation now - I'm gonna be a hottie and make them see what thet lost ;) ehe*

I am guessing the reasn that the soup diet is making you feel like cheating is becaise, like Christina said, not for you. Try just eating normal foods, but in smaller portions. Also by writing everything down, you hold yourself responsible for everything you put in your mouth. That has helped me the most. Drink TONS of water.
 
Christina will push you Vickii thats for sure and shes great motivation. You really picked a great place to come. I have found so much motivation here its unbelievable. Hope you find the same. Good luck to you and Im here to motivate you too if I can.
 
Vicki!~!~!~!~!~!~!~
Where are you ? We need you! YOU need you!

Ok... you know what you want. You found a place where there are actually people going through the same situation as you, who feel the same as you, who UNDERSTAND YOU!

We are here for each other, to help one another, to share tips and encourage and PUSH one another... to get to a place where we all want to be...

I am here if you ever want to talk. Feel free to Private Message me if you need.
I have a feeling that you may not be ready for the 5 pound club.... if not, that's fine! You can always join in on another one, which I am sure we will most likely do... I think it has helped alot of us stay focused...
AND if you are not ready.... PLEASE let us know... OR if you want to stay in let us know....
Thanks hun... Hopefully we'll here from you soon!
Hope all is well!
Christina
 
Vicki the girls are right, the best way to loose weight is to eat normal foods (you can even have soup on some days lol). Cut most of the fat off your meat, eat lots of fruit salad and veggies, drink lots of water and once a week have the one thing you really crave for that you don’t think would be good for you, just have it in moderation. If you would like some recipes or help with anything give us a yell. All the best Rose
 
Well I guess it's time for me to be honest, when I joined this forum, I wasn't in the postion to dedicate myself to well....myself... I am in it for the long run this time I will loose the weight and make myself a better person, a healthy person and most importantly a happy person, I have gained more weight since I first joined the first step for me will be to be honest about my weight, i am going to get on a scale today and I will start my ticker and go from there!!! Please bear with me and lets loose this together....
 
you are ready when you are ready... you weren't ready the first time.. now you are.. and we're glad to have you back.. some of the faces may have changed... but the support you will recieve won't change.. it's there for you if you want it...

Good luck on journey and we're happy you came back
 
Baby steps Vicki.. Baby steps :)
It's OK to go at your own pace. You just have to push yourself enough to do those things you procrastinate about.
Also as suggested, you should just eat normal foods. Don't do those silly diets that you know you would never stick with in the long run.
Watch your portions, count calories if you want, and start including healthier choices.
Getting into that habit is gonna take a while, specially if you're so used to overeating the wrong foods, but with dedication, you're gonna be eating better and feeling better!

You can do this!!
 
Vicki- Hi and welcome!! You can and will do it!! Try to look at this as a long term commitment. This isn't something that can be done in a week or two.
Drink lots of water. Find a reasonable diet plan, don't starve yourself.
 
Omg, thought I was ready but apparently I had to have one last day :(

I came her all ready to jump start my weight loss and low and behold I had a good morning and lunch, and wham, up goes my over eating..... I'm a little disappointed in my self but now I know that I can't do it again.... I planed a healthier dinner of baked chicken, baked beans, cottage cheese and a small side of pasta *yes me the pasta lover got a small portion and didn't go back for seconds on it* Then I remembered my sons football banquet was that night and I ended up eating a piece of pizza and a small brownie with a pepsi which I also had decided diet or nothing on... and to say the least I blew my get heathy image :( Then at like 1030 everyone here was snacking and I sat down with a bowl of bran flakes, I'm not sure why I wasn't even really that hungry..... I did wake up at 1am with the worst stomach ache in the word and thought that I was going to vomit, so I hope that the feeling I got from overeating will help me not to over eat again.... Who knows though, I know I need to stick to some sort of exercise routine, so me who hates the idea of an hour of tae bo or pilates, went out and bought carmen electras aerobic striptease, rofl!!!! I did about 30min of it last night.... I could feel me working muscles that haven't worked in a long time and who couldn't stick to something where sticking your finger in your mouth is a move, lol.... If nothing else I will gain some of my confidence back. Well wish me luck, I am going to make more of a concious effort to be a better me today!!!! I want to make a ticker but I am having troubles finding a scale, I will try my best to get myself together!!!!!:eek: :D :confused: :rolleyes:
 
You know what, don't beat yourself up b/c you've eaten something you think you shouldn't have.
Just remember that it's not the end of the world and you can still pick yourself right back up and get back on that healthier lifestyle again :)

I do exactly what you did though with that bowl of cereal. I have a bad problem with late night eating even if I'm not hungry. I just do it b/c that's the habit I had gotten into. It's hard to overcome but we can do it!!

And woohoo to you for taking that step to exercise! I've never tryed the Carmen Electra workout but hey if you like it then keep at it! :)

You're doing great!
 
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