Vero is back....and ready to commit this time!

It`s stressful but in a good way.....I got my first lunch break this week today!!! I am hoping that this week is the week I break the plateau I am fed up with 187....good thing that last friday I was still at the same weight and then Saturday TOM started usually that brings me up a few pounds...and also it was very humid that makes me reatain water a little so lets up to see 186 next weight in.....anything as long as it`s not 187 or higher! Back to work now....2 more days and grads are over!!!
 
Yay only 2 more days and the stress should be over with!! I hope your plateau ends soon( and it will) just dont give up. I would love to be 187, im likw 235!:O
 
Yay last grad today!!! In one week one co worker that is hard to work with will be gone can`t wait.....she has caused so much trouble since she started here in february.....I may work this summer or not....either way I am good with it! I love the steady pay check and not having to stress about money....but the summer off would be nice being at home with the kids them driving me nuts....but still no rushing in the morning. Everything work wize is in the air. Can`t wait for things to fall in place....I hate not knowing.. I am on a very strict budget...working my way out of detb. I need to know how much money will come in. Time will tell.


breakfast

bagel toasted with butter

coffee



lunch

thai chicken wrap (took out the cheese)

coffee


diner

what ever is the healthiest I can grab on the way to grad "if we go!
 
Good Morning


This weekend was a cheat weekend I drank wine...I ate cheese, cheesecake.....but I also swam for hours and walk and played in the park so good and bad this weekend.


Breakfast

yogourt granola strawberries

coffee


lunch

either a frozen meal or a salade


diner

salade and some protein (read chicken or tuna or legumes)

or a nice tofu stir fry would be nice too....it all depends on the weather and temperature in my house. I know that I won`t be using the BBQ I bured big time this weekend so I am not gonna be outside in the hot sun for a few!
 
Still on here!

Just trying to fit a whole summer of work into 8 days and then .....don`t know if I have a job....I hate this I have worked so hard to prove myself and to learn as much as I could and my boss said he was amazed at the progress made that my job usually requires 18 months to 2 years of training and in the 6 months I held this position I am almost ready to work completely on my own. The lady I am replacing is still not back from her leave but because the real estate agent is back I am out....they can only have so many people on during the summer to close up the school year and open up the next.....my co workers are angry so am I but that is what being a temp is and I was lucky to be given this type of responsability, I handle spending account to students OSR I have a great letter of recomendation so hopefully i get to come back here or in another school!
 
ok so I am gonna try to come back on here on a daily basis again! I am still working so all that stress so that on my last day I get the news that hey if you want to work this summer you can!


Breakfast

French Toast Bagel

coffee 1c 1 sug


snack

coffee


Lunch

frozen meal


diner

I have been craving a salad all weekend so that is what I am having!
 
Hello Forums friends


I know my visits on here are few and far in between....I need to come here more often in order to be healthier and more focused on my weightloss....I am stress right now with the whole employement situation they keep going back and forth....they tell my I am done on the 29 of June then ask me to stay 2more weeks and then until the end of August and then they say sorry you are now leaving next week and then it`s back at the end of August....I am fed up with this....I love this job, I wake up in the morning and I am happy to be comming to work. I like the people I work with....but I can`t be a temp for ever....I want to be able to buy a house can`t get a morgage if I am a temp, there are still a couple of year before we are financially ready for a house but I need the full time job. I am angry that someone who hates this job and the people here and bad mouths everything and everyone will returne to this position and I will be left out in the cold....suck and I feel like crying when i think of it.

Those emotion make me want to eat everything in sight and they make me want to drink wine to escape being born.....to top it off there has been a murder in the town I live, the suspect lives two doors down from me and the body was found where I usually walk....this is a small village there isn`t a 100 different roads to walk on....I really don`t want to be going out on walks after dark alone anymore

so I have been watching Prison break and eating junk food or drinking allcool ( not getting drunk just one glass of wine or one cocktail) almost daily...this has got to stop...it`s not a good cycle..not just in the weight loss but just a bad way to live.....It`s like a month long pitty party and I hate feeling like this. I am getting back to a normal routine of eatin only at meal time and snacking on fruits since saturday but I haven`t been out walking...I am looking for a used threadmill but I find people are asking way too much for something used....since I won`t have the warranty I don`t want to pay almost the same price ....I will keep looking hopefully I will find soon.


breakfast

coffee

french toast bagel (this needs to be removed from my diet ASAP)



Lunch

some vcrappy frozzen meal


diner

I am craving a taco salad ( keep it healthy what I do is to remove the taco shell, I make it with chicken wich I marinate in the taco spices then grill on the BBQ for the veggies I slice em up and then add one tea spoon of olive oil I then use tex mex spices on them and place them in a foil (kind of make a bowl out of the foil) and throw that on the BBQ and once everything is cooked I I add the veggies to the some greens and then top if with 3 ouces of chicken and 2 TBSP of Salsa, no cheese and no sour cream so low cals compared to what it could be)
 
Lunch break is almost over so short post today


Breakfast


coffee (my 3yrs old took my wallet out of my purse this morning so only had enough on me for coffee)


Lunch

chicken tights

carrots and beans (garden fresh)


diner

I don`t know what it will be not inspired in the kitchen this week!
 
Ok so I didn`t get to log on yesterday I was gettng my resume ready for a few job opening within the school board....sucks that i will have to spend like 2hrs in the car each day it will be a nightmare to do in the winter but I need a job....I can`t be home all day I will go nuts plus I would have to change my daughters school since I can`t afford a babysitter if I am not working and I took a school near the sitter because it has better service but if I give my home address I will have to change school....it`s a whole lot of trouble so i must work!
 
ok so I am getting very exited about my holidays.....We are going to Niagara Falls for a whole week!! Can`t wait! We are leaving on Sunday after the hubby gets off work and driving all 6 hours to get there.....first night we will go to a random hotel. Second night the Great Wolf Lodge they have an indoor water park!!! the rest of the week we have reservation at a hotel that has a pool bbq pit and a small park, we will visit Marine Land (we got season pass for Christmas) and there are a few attractions we want to visite as well so ...a lot of walking and swimming and I am bringin clean food with us we want to go pick some peaches so I don`t anticipate a gain...I will actually be more active then usuall so mabee a loss wouldn;`t that be great!!1 Weight loss while on vaccation? I will have my laptop so if I am not too tired I will log on here! It will be nice to be away from work and all it`s issues and just be a familly.....


Breakfast today

bagel

coffee


lunch

Whole grain Tostitoes

garlic Salsa


Diner

Salad with legumes or chicken depends what I have in the house!


went shopping on sunday for some much needed summer clothes and something great happened.....I saw this cute jean skirt I just had to have so I try on a size 16.....it was too big! So i try on a size 14 and it fits a bit snug but it fit!!!!! I haven`t been on the scale for over a month....but friday I will do an official wieght in and then I will skip one week cause I am not bringing my scale on hols. I am hoping to be around the 180's under 185 will work for me!
 
Hello I am back



I didn`t have time to come online much during my time off.but I am back now.....I gained I know I did cause my clothes feel tight. I will be back on here on a daily bases and I will loose the weight I want to loose.....I refuse to feel gross and tired all the time...I want to enjoye life again and not feel crapy all the time.....my husband says you are hot and sexy stay like that....why doesn

t get that it`s not about him.......I want to be able to tie my shoes and breath at the same time.....I want to run and play my kids and not have to hold my boobs in place cause the bouncing hurt and I want the migrains over.....but most of all I want to have energy....even after sleeping 8hrs I wake up feeling so tired it`s crazy.....I don`t care also that he finds me sexy....I don`t feel sexy, i don`t even enjoy sex as much as I used to I hate when he looks at me I hate when he touches my jelly spots and no amount of words comming from him or anyone else will change that.....why can`t he understand....and just support me....I know the weight issue is mine not his.....but does he have to stuff his face in front of me....and can`t he cook healthy meals on the rare occasions he does make diner fhe usually goes to the chip truck and buys poutine....like that will in any way shape or forme help me....and how about teaching our kids to eat veggies and healthy stuff...when you buy crappy processed food......I am very frustraded....and tired and I just want something to jumpstart my wieghloss.....hubby is working night for the rest of the nice weather so that mean no more walking for me cause I can`t leave the kids alone to go walking and if I bring them with me...they walk to slow and they have to be in bed by 7 or they are to grumpy the next day, I just feel helpless and traped....like having kids was a prison sentance for me....don`t get me wrong I love them to peices and I do not regret having them .....but I miss going to the gym......I miss having a social life........how do other moms loose weight...I need more then just healthy eating....I need exercise but walking is the only thing I can afford to do but now I don`t have time. pisses me off....and there is no one here that gets me.....a coworker told me why don`t you come walk with me and my mom in the morning....what am I supposed to do with my kids at 5:30 am.....her hubby is home...mine is not,,,,,then she says well if you don`t want to help yourself........I am just plain pissed off lol.....I just can`t wake the kids up at 5 am put em in the cardrive 20 min walk for an hour while draging them in the wagon then drive back home rush to get everyone ready drive back drop the kids off at daycare and then...get to work...does that make sence to you? Not to me a waste of gas and time....plus my kids will not have enough sleep. I am gonna have to find something I can do inside my home...I have been trying to find a tread mill for a while but they are so expensive even used ones people want to chage almost the same thing they payed.....no way it`s used and I don`t have the warranty to no way ose
 
Ok so after yesterday`s pity party I decided I got to stop whinning and get on with it.....yes I feel horible but feeling sorry for myself will help nothing, actually makes it worst. so I spoke with my sister and she lost a lot of weight lately...(not that she needed to) and I asked her what she used and she gave me a internet link for this P.I.N.K. Method as annyone tried this? Worked for my sister and i am researching it at the moment....it looks intersting but I wonder if i am really interested or if it`s just because I saw the result my sister got....just cause it worked for her doesn`t mean it will for me, she didn`t need to lose at least 40 to 50lb mabe 60lb...(just can`t mention that one to my husband....if I mention 130lb he freaks out saying he isn`t attracted to a 2/4 with clothes....I was around 145-130 when we first met and 145 when we started dating and I haven`t been stick thin since god decided to give DD breast size at age 14. His ex was bulimic I think he is afraid I will be obsess with weighing 100lb....but I am not 130lb is a low as I can see myself go....I want to keep some curves and I want muscle tone......yesterday I told him how I felt....and told him it`s my body and I choose what it becomes not you ....but your support would be very helpful and very much needed but not essentiel to my weightloss......but that went we got married we became a team and we have to work together...that I don`t ask much but at least for the begining of my weightloss I would love to not have tempting junk food in my face....even if I have to go read in my room while he snacks if he can just give me a heads up.... FYI I am on my way to grap some junk! he seemed to realise how much I am serious about this. hopefully he really did but in the end I must loose weight not him so my responsability not his. Let you kow what I decide about the P.I.N. K. I will do my research before I try it....apparently it`s DR Phil aprouved lol!
 
I am still researching the P I N K Method and apparently no one as heard of it on here!!! It has some good review and some bad one from people and DR so I don`t know I am still debating, I like the idea of a strucktured plan to jump start a loss but at the same time I wonder if I can stick to one.....compared to WW where you have to keep paying a one time payement of 80$ is not all bad....it will have to wait until I find a new job since my contact here end on the 21st.
 
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