Just introducing myself! I'm a total newbie to this sort of thing.
I suppose I could start by saying all my life I've been overweight, and with stress in the past few years it's just been getting worse - I'm the type of person who reaches straight for the comfort food, y'know. A 16 year old girl and (uuuugh, I feel weird saying this) as of this morning, 231 pounds - 20 or so gained in this last year alone. I've never been thin, not since I was a veeery little kid, at least - I remember being 160 or so when I was only 12, maybe younger.
All that added on top of the fact that I'm incredibly shy to begin with gave me a few self-esteem issues, and school has been a very awkward thing. Sure, when I'm online or with my family I can be my normal (over)confident self, but plop me in a room with a bunch of strangers and I'll turn into a total wreck. For years I was the kid sitting alone at lunch, not having a single friend, only being talked to in order to be teased. After a sort of breakdown last year that turned into me being homeschooled, I'm finally going back to a normal, new school this year and I figured it'd be a fresh start.
A whole makeover for me, you could say. I never was one to care for makeup or clothes - I think part of it came from being poor, but I'll admit there was always a little thing at the back of my brain saying "you're ugly and nothing's going to help" and while I have been suppressing it, it's been getting a bit annoying. And this summer (and for the rest of my life, I suppose) I want to change everything.
Erm, wow, I wasn't planning on going into a whole history here. My introduction seems to be a bit longer than all the others already. Sorry about that!
Anyway, yup, without going into a lot of unnecessary detail, I realized that it was time for a change. I don't really know where I'm headed with this or whether it'll work out, but I'll try. Problem is, if I did it on my own, I'd give up within a couple of days. I suppose that's why I joined here!
I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do. Dieting, I suppose, would be a good start, but I've never eaten a lot to begin with. Everybody in my family is terrible at cooking, pretty much, so if it takes any more effort than turning on the microwave odds are we won't eat it, so I tend to go for whatever's there. But I'm incredibly picky and have an odd thing against most "healthy" foods (apples make me gag, though I love applesauce for what it's worth). Usually when I'm hungry I make toast. Actually ANYTHING that has bread in it is awesome in my book, it's probably my favorite food. Other than that? There's not a whole lot of variety. A bit of meat. That's it. Also, milk. I LIVE off of milk, though chugging 8 glasses a day probably isn't the healthiest thing ever. I'd be willing to bet a good portion of my caloric intake comes from milk.
Uh...
I think I've gone on too far already. I tend to overdo it when talking about myself - I LOVE doing that, after all - so I guess I'll stop here before I drive you guys crazy.
I hope to have a great time here. See you around!
I suppose I could start by saying all my life I've been overweight, and with stress in the past few years it's just been getting worse - I'm the type of person who reaches straight for the comfort food, y'know. A 16 year old girl and (uuuugh, I feel weird saying this) as of this morning, 231 pounds - 20 or so gained in this last year alone. I've never been thin, not since I was a veeery little kid, at least - I remember being 160 or so when I was only 12, maybe younger.
All that added on top of the fact that I'm incredibly shy to begin with gave me a few self-esteem issues, and school has been a very awkward thing. Sure, when I'm online or with my family I can be my normal (over)confident self, but plop me in a room with a bunch of strangers and I'll turn into a total wreck. For years I was the kid sitting alone at lunch, not having a single friend, only being talked to in order to be teased. After a sort of breakdown last year that turned into me being homeschooled, I'm finally going back to a normal, new school this year and I figured it'd be a fresh start.
A whole makeover for me, you could say. I never was one to care for makeup or clothes - I think part of it came from being poor, but I'll admit there was always a little thing at the back of my brain saying "you're ugly and nothing's going to help" and while I have been suppressing it, it's been getting a bit annoying. And this summer (and for the rest of my life, I suppose) I want to change everything.
Erm, wow, I wasn't planning on going into a whole history here. My introduction seems to be a bit longer than all the others already. Sorry about that!
Anyway, yup, without going into a lot of unnecessary detail, I realized that it was time for a change. I don't really know where I'm headed with this or whether it'll work out, but I'll try. Problem is, if I did it on my own, I'd give up within a couple of days. I suppose that's why I joined here!
I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do. Dieting, I suppose, would be a good start, but I've never eaten a lot to begin with. Everybody in my family is terrible at cooking, pretty much, so if it takes any more effort than turning on the microwave odds are we won't eat it, so I tend to go for whatever's there. But I'm incredibly picky and have an odd thing against most "healthy" foods (apples make me gag, though I love applesauce for what it's worth). Usually when I'm hungry I make toast. Actually ANYTHING that has bread in it is awesome in my book, it's probably my favorite food. Other than that? There's not a whole lot of variety. A bit of meat. That's it. Also, milk. I LIVE off of milk, though chugging 8 glasses a day probably isn't the healthiest thing ever. I'd be willing to bet a good portion of my caloric intake comes from milk.
Uh...
I think I've gone on too far already. I tend to overdo it when talking about myself - I LOVE doing that, after all - so I guess I'll stop here before I drive you guys crazy.
I hope to have a great time here. See you around!
