Transformher
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My name is Kelly. I need to get healthy. I'm also about to go off on a long rant about god knows what. Please ignore the next 50-something lines.
Do you know that feeling you get when you want to finish something so badly and you keep telling yourself you’ll do it tomorrow, but deep down inside you know you never will? It’s that same feeling you got in high school when you just received the 200-page report on your favorite person of all time and you already know Corey Haim is the PERFECT person for the piece. You get home and you’re searching the internet finding out all of this crazy, totally relevant information. Like that Corey liked to play ultimate frisbee. And mid-search you come along an online video of The Lost Boys and the entire project is out the door because for the next three days you’ll be completely enveloped in a marathon of The Two Coreys, but it’s okay because this will give you material to work with when you start the project next week! Oh, that was just me? Well, it sucks… and it’s the exact same pattern I fall into every time I “try†to lose weight. I get SO excited and I do all of this research to prepare myself for "next week when my lifestyle change begins". And then that next week I tell myself I haven’t prepared enough and it only makes sense to start the proceeding week. It’s a vicious, vicious cycle.
And that’s why I started my journey a week ago. Because vicious cycles don’t deserve to continue. Because on Sunday, I told myself I wasn’t ready yet. That I would only fail because I didn’t have all of the tools I needed… and then I realized that I was a bitch. I was an inconsiderate, belittling, lazy bitch.
So I went outside and I walked. I walked once around my neighborhood. And then I ran. And then I ran some more. I didn’t have any tools. No workout guidelines, no nutritional outline, and no “common myths about losing weight†article dissected and highlighted. I think that was the best way I could have started this journey. One step at a time. Literally.
Do you know that feeling you get when you want to finish something so badly and you keep telling yourself you’ll do it tomorrow, but deep down inside you know you never will? It’s that same feeling you got in high school when you just received the 200-page report on your favorite person of all time and you already know Corey Haim is the PERFECT person for the piece. You get home and you’re searching the internet finding out all of this crazy, totally relevant information. Like that Corey liked to play ultimate frisbee. And mid-search you come along an online video of The Lost Boys and the entire project is out the door because for the next three days you’ll be completely enveloped in a marathon of The Two Coreys, but it’s okay because this will give you material to work with when you start the project next week! Oh, that was just me? Well, it sucks… and it’s the exact same pattern I fall into every time I “try†to lose weight. I get SO excited and I do all of this research to prepare myself for "next week when my lifestyle change begins". And then that next week I tell myself I haven’t prepared enough and it only makes sense to start the proceeding week. It’s a vicious, vicious cycle.
And that’s why I started my journey a week ago. Because vicious cycles don’t deserve to continue. Because on Sunday, I told myself I wasn’t ready yet. That I would only fail because I didn’t have all of the tools I needed… and then I realized that I was a bitch. I was an inconsiderate, belittling, lazy bitch.
So I went outside and I walked. I walked once around my neighborhood. And then I ran. And then I ran some more. I didn’t have any tools. No workout guidelines, no nutritional outline, and no “common myths about losing weight†article dissected and highlighted. I think that was the best way I could have started this journey. One step at a time. Literally.