Tracey1
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I’m sitting here at work, taking a 15 minute break and wondering if I can lose the weight.
I hate doubting myself, but I’ve failed miserably on diet after diet these past few months that I just want to give up. But I won’t!
I’m only 21 for gods sakes, how does a 21 year old feel trapped in a 45 year old’s body? Its stupid I know, but that’s how I feel today. Like some bored, unsatisfied housewife.
Except it’s with my weight.
I think I’ve fallen into this comfort zone after being with my fiancé for almost 6 years (on the 22nd of September). I decided one day to be completely honest about how much I weighed when I was almost 150 lbs, which was the same day I decided to lose weight.
And the sad thing is I did! I got from 148 to 135 in less than 2 months of hard work, at my own pace, but I still did it, this was back in spring 2008.
I ended up getting down to about 127 just a few months ago, and I have the number saved on my digital scale for reference, although these days it causes more depression and anger towards myself than anything. Although let me be honest, I did it from starving myself. NOT SMART! Which is why I put all this weigh back on, it’s true what they say about not eating, but for some stupid reason I always end up refusing to believe it. I think I’m too used to my old habits, its really hard to let something you’ve known for so long go, and even harder when you know its just as easy to go right back into doing them.
Weekends are always the hardest. McDonalds and junk food! Oh and can’t forget pizza and if we go to the bar than there’s always bar food and alcohol which, I really don’t drink that often, I am happy to say about myself. So I’m thinking of carrying around a journal with me, which is why an iPhone would be handy. I could type away my moods and what not and just update regularly when I felt like it. But I think I am going to update once a day, usually in the morning about the day before, not sure yet, I may go on an updating spree…who knows.
Anyways, I’m going to keep myself in check this weekend, and be totally aware, that I DON’T need popcorn at the movies, I DON’T need McDonalds when I’m hungry at midnight, and DON’T need junk food because I’m bored.
Ok, now all I have to do is remember that.
Have a good one folks!
I hate doubting myself, but I’ve failed miserably on diet after diet these past few months that I just want to give up. But I won’t!
I’m only 21 for gods sakes, how does a 21 year old feel trapped in a 45 year old’s body? Its stupid I know, but that’s how I feel today. Like some bored, unsatisfied housewife.
Except it’s with my weight.
I think I’ve fallen into this comfort zone after being with my fiancé for almost 6 years (on the 22nd of September). I decided one day to be completely honest about how much I weighed when I was almost 150 lbs, which was the same day I decided to lose weight.
And the sad thing is I did! I got from 148 to 135 in less than 2 months of hard work, at my own pace, but I still did it, this was back in spring 2008.
I ended up getting down to about 127 just a few months ago, and I have the number saved on my digital scale for reference, although these days it causes more depression and anger towards myself than anything. Although let me be honest, I did it from starving myself. NOT SMART! Which is why I put all this weigh back on, it’s true what they say about not eating, but for some stupid reason I always end up refusing to believe it. I think I’m too used to my old habits, its really hard to let something you’ve known for so long go, and even harder when you know its just as easy to go right back into doing them.
Weekends are always the hardest. McDonalds and junk food! Oh and can’t forget pizza and if we go to the bar than there’s always bar food and alcohol which, I really don’t drink that often, I am happy to say about myself. So I’m thinking of carrying around a journal with me, which is why an iPhone would be handy. I could type away my moods and what not and just update regularly when I felt like it. But I think I am going to update once a day, usually in the morning about the day before, not sure yet, I may go on an updating spree…who knows.
Anyways, I’m going to keep myself in check this weekend, and be totally aware, that I DON’T need popcorn at the movies, I DON’T need McDonalds when I’m hungry at midnight, and DON’T need junk food because I’m bored.
Ok, now all I have to do is remember that.
Have a good one folks!