Alta818
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((I warn you, thinking out loud))) 
I couldn't help but cry tears of GRATITUDE this morning! I was love streaming as I usually do on Agape International online and I just felt overwhelmed with love. I had just got off the phone with a friend/colleague and she had mentioned to me of the passing of her boyfriend's dog and his grandma all in one week.
That's so HARD. Though yes, she had lived a long fruitful life, it's never easy to say goodbye. We actually have a choice as to our health though in regards to weight. We don't have to allow food to be the death of us. For years, I think I just allowed that. I was ok with it.
I realized then as I got off the phone, that this is our very moment. Our very opportunity to make the BEST of everything we do. That means that we take our lives and this second, this minute, and we focus on "peace" and "calmness", because that's the truth. We never know when we are going to go, BUT we do have a say in the choices we make this minute. The choices we make right now. It made me SO aware and grateful, really.
How many years of my life did I not care, not take myself into the acknowledgement that I was and am good enough to actualize the dreams, goals, and hopes that I had for myself. That alone is a HUGE diservice to the spirit of a being that I am walking on this planet. The sad part is we all do it. We all take for granted who we can really become and we allow ourselves to cop out at times and sometimes even completely give up!The truth of the matter is we have a choice. An opening to accept that we have a more rewarding experience in our life on this planet, so should we choose to be aware that what we desire outside of ourselves, can actually be found within ourselves. That brought me to tears this morning.
All these years, I mean... at least 30 years of my life, I continue relearning these lessons. I reach this place of gratitude and that brings everything into alignment including my health, my actions, my belief, my faith, my family... and then,... BOOM. I can fall off just that easy. I constanty work on the fact that, I am just that, human. That helps me forgive myself and work through it. But the truth is, that when I awaken, and I become aware to the deepter truth, I realize with overwhelming love that I am spirit in human manifestation, and that I have a choice as to how I experience my existance. For years, I cared about food so much. It's enwrapped my mind and engrossed it for years on end telling me the lies that "I wasn't good enough" or that "They can do it and not me". I suppose that's where the tears come from when I recognize these revelations in my life. I recognize that I had been believing my own "lies" for years, and those lies build up so many walls that allowed me to be enprisoned in sabotage because the voice of "you can't do this" would take over.
I'm sooooo grateful, two years ago, really I think I had a "SHIFT" in my life. I came back to this forum because really this was the catalyst of the shift and in the years that evolved I overcame. I overcame shitty jobs, I overcame broken relationships, mended relationships, I overcame the ego within me (which I still catch trying to rear it's head at times-Smack down!
), but I overcame the pain of the 45lbs that I carried that I wouldn't allow myself to release. I'm always on a journey. I can't think otherwise considering I've been at this since 6yrs old. I'm at a healthier weight now, 148lbs and 5'3, just turned 30, and grateful. Two years ago I was just 190lbs. I'm over that phase and won't allow myself to go back, because NOW....
I recognize that it's in the gratitude of appreciating the daily tasks that we can awake the Giant that we all have within! Who said, "not me"? Shut that voice up! I know I did. I hear you, smack you down, and RELEASE you out of the existence that I know as "Magnificence"!
God is good, Life is good & our bodies can follow so should we choose!
This morning, I got up early and did my "Les Mills Combat" it was Day 11 or so I believe. I love it! The music made me feel empowered and I was grateful that my boyfriend did it with me. He's so supportive and watching him transform his life in a gradual way over the past two years with me has just left me so humbled. I recognize that his love for us and to not want to be burdens on each other in the future is so divine. That in itself is a blessing. He's taking the Beachbody challenge with me. Go figure, because it's taken me almost 2 years of working out at home for him to finally come to this place and want to join me. Sometimes the ones we have to never lose hope on are the ones cloest to us. He's a new man, as I am a NEW woman. (((Deeeeeep Breath))))
I want to get back to the place where I just allow myself to think on the screen. This makes me feel great! <3 To a NEW me and a NEW you! May we conquer together!
My goal is to maintain and to continue in my health and to help myself through the journey and to take as many caring souls in the world with me and shoot, if I get ripped along the way, well SO BE IT!! haha.
This journey of love is long and support is what we all need. We all need LOVE and UNDERSTANDING. We can do it! I believe in us! Mornings are my workout time! Never underestimate the power of a kick ass 30 mins!
Breakfast Shake:
Shakeology Chocolate
Fresh Kale- bunch
Flaxseeds
Almond Milk
Ice
Water
Cinnamon
almonds
tiny tsp of natural Pb.
I shared it with my, hunnie! <3 He loved it!! It keeps me full so long! Now off to appreciate life and my family and eat in moderated portions. They are having a BBQ and those could be dangerous, but... I'm being mindful and it's awesome! Also they found that my step dad has high cholesterol, so I'm going to have him drink Shakeology that my mom was being lazy to drink herself. Finally they are both ready to get healthier this year, so I'm going to talk to them about it today. My little brother Roman, 7 yrs old, needs a good example and healthy long living parents! Until tomorrow, "Stay with the fight!"
Love and Light~ Ps. It's Nice to meet you, my name is ALTA! I'd love to get to know you and your story? Poke in and say hi if you can. ((Hugs))
I couldn't help but cry tears of GRATITUDE this morning! I was love streaming as I usually do on Agape International online and I just felt overwhelmed with love. I had just got off the phone with a friend/colleague and she had mentioned to me of the passing of her boyfriend's dog and his grandma all in one week.
That's so HARD. Though yes, she had lived a long fruitful life, it's never easy to say goodbye. We actually have a choice as to our health though in regards to weight. We don't have to allow food to be the death of us. For years, I think I just allowed that. I was ok with it.I realized then as I got off the phone, that this is our very moment. Our very opportunity to make the BEST of everything we do. That means that we take our lives and this second, this minute, and we focus on "peace" and "calmness", because that's the truth. We never know when we are going to go, BUT we do have a say in the choices we make this minute. The choices we make right now. It made me SO aware and grateful, really.
How many years of my life did I not care, not take myself into the acknowledgement that I was and am good enough to actualize the dreams, goals, and hopes that I had for myself. That alone is a HUGE diservice to the spirit of a being that I am walking on this planet. The sad part is we all do it. We all take for granted who we can really become and we allow ourselves to cop out at times and sometimes even completely give up!The truth of the matter is we have a choice. An opening to accept that we have a more rewarding experience in our life on this planet, so should we choose to be aware that what we desire outside of ourselves, can actually be found within ourselves. That brought me to tears this morning.
All these years, I mean... at least 30 years of my life, I continue relearning these lessons. I reach this place of gratitude and that brings everything into alignment including my health, my actions, my belief, my faith, my family... and then,... BOOM. I can fall off just that easy. I constanty work on the fact that, I am just that, human. That helps me forgive myself and work through it. But the truth is, that when I awaken, and I become aware to the deepter truth, I realize with overwhelming love that I am spirit in human manifestation, and that I have a choice as to how I experience my existance. For years, I cared about food so much. It's enwrapped my mind and engrossed it for years on end telling me the lies that "I wasn't good enough" or that "They can do it and not me". I suppose that's where the tears come from when I recognize these revelations in my life. I recognize that I had been believing my own "lies" for years, and those lies build up so many walls that allowed me to be enprisoned in sabotage because the voice of "you can't do this" would take over.
I'm sooooo grateful, two years ago, really I think I had a "SHIFT" in my life. I came back to this forum because really this was the catalyst of the shift and in the years that evolved I overcame. I overcame shitty jobs, I overcame broken relationships, mended relationships, I overcame the ego within me (which I still catch trying to rear it's head at times-Smack down!
), but I overcame the pain of the 45lbs that I carried that I wouldn't allow myself to release. I'm always on a journey. I can't think otherwise considering I've been at this since 6yrs old. I'm at a healthier weight now, 148lbs and 5'3, just turned 30, and grateful. Two years ago I was just 190lbs. I'm over that phase and won't allow myself to go back, because NOW....I recognize that it's in the gratitude of appreciating the daily tasks that we can awake the Giant that we all have within! Who said, "not me"? Shut that voice up! I know I did. I hear you, smack you down, and RELEASE you out of the existence that I know as "Magnificence"!
God is good, Life is good & our bodies can follow so should we choose!
This morning, I got up early and did my "Les Mills Combat" it was Day 11 or so I believe. I love it! The music made me feel empowered and I was grateful that my boyfriend did it with me. He's so supportive and watching him transform his life in a gradual way over the past two years with me has just left me so humbled. I recognize that his love for us and to not want to be burdens on each other in the future is so divine. That in itself is a blessing. He's taking the Beachbody challenge with me. Go figure, because it's taken me almost 2 years of working out at home for him to finally come to this place and want to join me. Sometimes the ones we have to never lose hope on are the ones cloest to us. He's a new man, as I am a NEW woman. (((Deeeeeep Breath))))
I want to get back to the place where I just allow myself to think on the screen. This makes me feel great! <3 To a NEW me and a NEW you! May we conquer together!
My goal is to maintain and to continue in my health and to help myself through the journey and to take as many caring souls in the world with me and shoot, if I get ripped along the way, well SO BE IT!! haha.
This journey of love is long and support is what we all need. We all need LOVE and UNDERSTANDING. We can do it! I believe in us! Mornings are my workout time! Never underestimate the power of a kick ass 30 mins! Breakfast Shake:
Shakeology Chocolate
Fresh Kale- bunch
Flaxseeds
Almond Milk
Ice
Water
Cinnamon
almonds
tiny tsp of natural Pb.
I shared it with my, hunnie! <3 He loved it!! It keeps me full so long! Now off to appreciate life and my family and eat in moderated portions. They are having a BBQ and those could be dangerous, but... I'm being mindful and it's awesome! Also they found that my step dad has high cholesterol, so I'm going to have him drink Shakeology that my mom was being lazy to drink herself. Finally they are both ready to get healthier this year, so I'm going to talk to them about it today. My little brother Roman, 7 yrs old, needs a good example and healthy long living parents! Until tomorrow, "Stay with the fight!"
Love and Light~ Ps. It's Nice to meet you, my name is ALTA! I'd love to get to know you and your story? Poke in and say hi if you can. ((Hugs))
