upsidedown
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Hi my name is slicka-slicka-slim shady and I am about to rant. Blow some steam off and generally let it out. I feel the need to do this as I begin this quest for health, beauty and control over my wieght and my life. Please, if you don't like me or what I have to say just move along. I am making this thread primarily as a way to pep-talk myself and blog. I say that only because I need positive people in my life so I really appreciate the sincere, intelligent and positve replies. All others are not appreciated.
About 14 years ago I was a hottie, I was 125 lbs of lean , mean sexual chocolate. I could work all day, run for miles, and everything I set my mind to I did and did it well. I didn't always do the right thing but at least I did something. I took it all for granted, at 21 I had my first child and delivered at a weight of a whopping 235, I got down to 187, had my 2nd child and went right back. I finally got sick and tired of being s & t, and began to Tae-bo, drink lots of water, took vitamins and cut way down on my junk intake. I lost 68 lbs and got back into a 12 dress, then tragedy struck. My newborn son became extremely ill, household calamity followed and 6 years later I was 215,drugging, drinking, my husband after having a nervous breakdown and becoming very abusive ran off with a very smug ex-best friend and left me with the shame, the blame and the guilt for everything. Yes, some of it was my fault but it's never all one-sided. However I have been carrying this now for about 3 years.
I have been clean of all substances for 2 years, now. I am in college. I have a wonderful boyfriend but I weigh 220 lbs. The life I want to live is not in this skin. Inside is the hot, sexy, energy ball I used to be. And today I will begin this journey to reclaim that image and those abilities that belong to me. I am tired of getting no respect because people judge me on the outside, thinking I am lazy and out-of-control, you know what, they are right. I am sick of not having the energy to get down like I want to. I am tired of making excuses to my now almost teenage daughter for why I can't accompany her when she wants to go play! What am I CRAZY? I have a daughter that WANTS to spend time with me and I decline because I am FAT? I am doing something about this today right now.
I have already begun preliminaries. I checked my weight, used the calcs, informed myself of my nutritional needs and intake/ output requirements that I must meet to make my goals a reality. I have made a pact with myself, and I declare now that:
1. I will follow these guidelines. To reduce my intake of junkfood, fast food and other unhealthy eating habits, eat at least every 2 hours, drink water instead of sodas, have a mutivitamin everyday, and exercise every weekday (Tae-Bo MWF& Walking briskly for an hour TR)
2. I will be kind to myself when I slip, and get right on track again.
3. I will weigh in every month.
4. I will visit this forum and speak my mind.
5. I will reward myself with the things I want that are non-food and within my means.
Alright, that said, I have set a goal for 150 lbs. I know that I can do this, but I have not set a time frame, just a strict no-excuses bar for following my declarations above. Let's see how long it takes.
OK, now if I came off edgy, I apologize, sometimes it is important to me to get that way to make my point. To whom??? TO MYSELF. Happy Losing all!!!
About 14 years ago I was a hottie, I was 125 lbs of lean , mean sexual chocolate. I could work all day, run for miles, and everything I set my mind to I did and did it well. I didn't always do the right thing but at least I did something. I took it all for granted, at 21 I had my first child and delivered at a weight of a whopping 235, I got down to 187, had my 2nd child and went right back. I finally got sick and tired of being s & t, and began to Tae-bo, drink lots of water, took vitamins and cut way down on my junk intake. I lost 68 lbs and got back into a 12 dress, then tragedy struck. My newborn son became extremely ill, household calamity followed and 6 years later I was 215,drugging, drinking, my husband after having a nervous breakdown and becoming very abusive ran off with a very smug ex-best friend and left me with the shame, the blame and the guilt for everything. Yes, some of it was my fault but it's never all one-sided. However I have been carrying this now for about 3 years.
I have been clean of all substances for 2 years, now. I am in college. I have a wonderful boyfriend but I weigh 220 lbs. The life I want to live is not in this skin. Inside is the hot, sexy, energy ball I used to be. And today I will begin this journey to reclaim that image and those abilities that belong to me. I am tired of getting no respect because people judge me on the outside, thinking I am lazy and out-of-control, you know what, they are right. I am sick of not having the energy to get down like I want to. I am tired of making excuses to my now almost teenage daughter for why I can't accompany her when she wants to go play! What am I CRAZY? I have a daughter that WANTS to spend time with me and I decline because I am FAT? I am doing something about this today right now.
I have already begun preliminaries. I checked my weight, used the calcs, informed myself of my nutritional needs and intake/ output requirements that I must meet to make my goals a reality. I have made a pact with myself, and I declare now that:
1. I will follow these guidelines. To reduce my intake of junkfood, fast food and other unhealthy eating habits, eat at least every 2 hours, drink water instead of sodas, have a mutivitamin everyday, and exercise every weekday (Tae-Bo MWF& Walking briskly for an hour TR)
2. I will be kind to myself when I slip, and get right on track again.
3. I will weigh in every month.
4. I will visit this forum and speak my mind.
5. I will reward myself with the things I want that are non-food and within my means.
Alright, that said, I have set a goal for 150 lbs. I know that I can do this, but I have not set a time frame, just a strict no-excuses bar for following my declarations above. Let's see how long it takes.
OK, now if I came off edgy, I apologize, sometimes it is important to me to get that way to make my point. To whom??? TO MYSELF. Happy Losing all!!!
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