To happiness...and beyond!

katie0615 said:
i just want to start by saying that you are so strong for posting that about your ex. and strong for what you went through with him and where you are now. i have never been in a situation like yours, but i think it's easier than people realize to get caught up in the cycle of an unhealthy relationship. it starts out good, and then you fall in love, and then each person starts getting comfortable and showing their true colours, but you are still in love, so you justify it to yourself. you got yourself out of that cycle though, and seem to be doing much better.

the anger that you have for him, and the the fact that you still think about him, is normal i think. he hurt you... for years! if you were to just move on and "snap out of it", it would seem un-human. you invested a lot into the relationship, so it makes sense that it will take time to get completely over the pain. i would do what others suggest - use the anger as fuel in the gym. hahaha i would always go for a run when i was pissed, called it my "coping". works wonders. i am sure that you will find in time, if you distance yourself, you will think of it less. again, just a thoguht, as I have never been through it :)

I'm glad you had an awesome weekend. sucks about the flu:( good that you cancelled it though i think.... i read somewhere that you can workout when sick UNLESS you have a fever. :) feel better soon love.
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Thank you! :)

And I think you're right. You get in the cycle of wanting to spend so much time with them...then you end up cutting off your friends, and getting sucked in. And you're soo engrossed in it, that you don't know it's unhealthy! I'm lucky that I recognized it, and we weren't deeper in our relationship - like with kids or a house! While it lasted a long time, I was lucky to get out when I did.

And you're right- I can't just snap out of it! It was 5 years of my life...i think it would be unhealthy for me not to still care...like he does...so I need to accept that it'll be a process! And like you said, it's great for the gym! I think about him, and then think about meeting him someday looking all hot and fab and being like, "yeah, this is what you missed...you should be sad *hair flip*" hehehehehe!! That's what I need to keep doing! :)

Yeah! I think sometimes you shouldn't push yourself when you're not feeling well! there's no point in pushing yourself, and then getting hurt! And taking the day off yesterday ended with me feeling much better! So yay!! :party:
 
Tob said:
two days late I am sorry, I came so check out what was new and found this. Really insightful look into your life, thanks for sharing. I am sorry you had to go through some like that, If its still in your head its because of all the issued and the way he made you feel. I am guessing more then anything your still pissed at his actions and maybe wish revenge on some level? This is just a guess. You are doing amazing now, stay focused and you will go far! i know it. A smart and determined girl can do anything!
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You can be as late as you want!! :biggrinjester:

Thanks for sharing the post with me! I'm like an open book sometimes...a deep, dark, open book, with a sparkly cover! :) I think it's good to be open about your past, as it makes you who you are today..and talking about it helps you learn from it! :)

I use to want revenge...well, who am I kidding? I still want him to be unhappy...I hope that goes away. It's just the break up was really tough, and he was downright mean, immature, and malicious to me during it...well, loooking back, it was no different than the rest of the relationship!

I just have to remember that I am a catch! I'm going far in life! And it's really his loss! :) It's hard to talk like that, but i gotta believe it!! :)

As always Tob- thank you for such amazing and encouraging words :grouphug:
 
AriannaErin said:
Hugs back at ya! :D From what I can see so far you're doing a great job on the positive front - I know that I (and a lot of others here) really appreciate that positive supportive energy :)

Hope you're feeling a little bit better, getting sick sucks and it's hard to keep on track when you feel all icky.

Oh also yay for pita pizzas - I haven't had that in a while but that's one of my fav dinners ever!! so yummy :)
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Thank you! We're both diong great! :)

I LOOOVE pita pizzas! There's something about them that is so much more satisfying than regular pizza! And they're so easy to make! :)

mmm....now I want a pita pizza! hehe :piggy:
 
Food for Feb 21, 2011
10am: 1 egg, piece of ww dry toast, water
1:30pm: 1 egg, piece of ww dry toast, home fries, water
4:30pm: Tea biscut, OJ
8pm: Mussels in tomato/wine sauce, tomato soup, salad - glass of wine, cocktail, coffee


** NO EXERCISE ****

Food for Feb 22, 2011
8am: Bowl of oatmeal, 1 banana, 1 sm OJ, 1 large water
Lunch: apple, 4 strawberries, lentil soup, and blue corned baked nachos chips

** Prediction - NO EXERCISE***


So yesterday I woke up feeling so sick with the flu! I took it easy, and by the afternoon I felt wonderful! :party:

I was able to go to a restaurant opening last night which was AMAZING! It was so much fun- and I did indulge in the cocktails! But I mean, I can't drink water for 5 hours straight in a beautiful restaurant that has special cocktails and wine! That's just torture...and probably really rude to the owners...right? :blush5:

I had a lovely meal -I kept it pretty light, just encase...and had such a great time!

We're having a bit of a hard time in our apartment! Yesterday people came in to redo the bathroom and kitchen floors. We were told it would take 2 days. They would do the bathroom the first day and finish it, and then do the kitchen the second, and finish it....oooooh my! Yesterday morning between puking and wishing I would shrivel up and crawl in a hole, the guy comes...he's an HOUR early in the morning! It's freakin' 7am!!!!! :toetap05: I was all discaboobalated! So I had to rush to get out the door, get my cats packed up to take to my grandparents, and too work...but that's ok! Work is quiet this week as it's break week for all the students! So it's relaxing! I have the office to myself! I can practically nap under my desk!! hehehehe

** aww my poor kitties were so scared being moved! They sat at the door looking at me, just meowing to go home! I felt like a mother on the first day of her child's preschool! I swear if you could translate their meows, they were asking to go home! hehehe *

But the worse thing is we go home at 6pm - and expect the bathroom to be finished...because, well that's what they said! (It's a tiny apartment my mom and I share, with 2 bedrooms, bath, livingroom, dinning room, kitchen ...) ... so we walk in, and our living room is filled with saws, dust, foot prints, tiles, buckets - it's a mess!! Totally unuseable!! THEN...THEN!!!! We walk to our rooms (because we don't need the living room, we're going out, and we'll just come home to bed) ... but then...we walk to our rooms, and the freakin' toilet is sitting in the middle of my mom's room!!!!! :banghead: We have NO toilet, and they're not putting it in until today (hopefully!!) ... so we were left with a destroyed apartment with no toilet!! And they didn't even warn us, or give us a solution!! (I really wanted to take a wee on all their equipment to make a point!!!) ... so we ended up having to use the bathroom down stairs in the laundry room- which is not pleasant at 4am!

So this morning I was up early, packed, and to my grandparents...I hope it's done today! I can't go without peeing in my own home again!!! And I have a feeling we're going to return tonight, and our fridge and over are going to be in our living room too!! What a pain in the butt....seriously!! lol

oh well! it was an adventure! But I will be glad when it's over!! I'm working on 4 hours of sleep for the last two nights! So I am pooped!! Hopefully I'll have enough energy to go to the gym tonight! I would like to go!! But if not, I have a PT appointment tomorrow and Friday! As long as I get in 3 hours of exercise this week, I'll be happy! I would like it to be 6 hours, but I'll live with 3 since it's been a weird week so far (and it's only Tuesday!!)

hehehe

Well, I'm off to be productive today! I have three papers due next week and I'm slowly making progress (opening word is as far as I've gotten so far! :biggrinjester: )

Happy Tuesday all!!
 
Hey Jill :)

Omg you drink 112oz in a day?! I thought I drank a lot with my 64-90oz. Crazy!!!

I'm glad you had a good weekend. You deserve it :) Lol @ being back in HS. I'm glad you recognize that right now you just need "me" time. Very smart for not rushing into anything.

I'm glad you're feeling better! I think you sent a little bit my way =P My throat has been hurting and I'm all congested.

Ughhh sorry about the apartment mess! I can't imagine not having a TOILET?! Especially with all the water I drink (and you drink more than I do)! I hope everything is place when you return.

Get some sleep girl!!! 4 hours is not enough. I'd be crashing. That was me last week and I learned my lesson.

I hope you kick some ass at the gym! :)
 
Hey, Glad your keeping up! Yes you will Find that Mr right some time soon. And think of how jealous your Ex-BF will be when he sees you strutting around all happy! Just remember, he will never change, never go BACK!

Sucks about your bathroom. nothing worse then not having a bathroom to use haha.

everyone always wants revenge on their ex, i am surprised you haven't killed yours with he way he treated you!
 
gohomejes said:
Hey Jill :)

Omg you drink 112oz in a day?! I thought I drank a lot with my 64-90oz. Crazy!!!

I'm glad you had a good weekend. You deserve it :) Lol @ being back in HS. I'm glad you recognize that right now you just need "me" time. Very smart for not rushing into anything.

I'm glad you're feeling better! I think you sent a little bit my way =P My throat has been hurting and I'm all congested.

Ughhh sorry about the apartment mess! I can't imagine not having a TOILET?! Especially with all the water I drink (and you drink more than I do)! I hope everything is place when you return.

Get some sleep girl!!! 4 hours is not enough. I'd be crashing. That was me last week and I learned my lesson.

I hope you kick some ass at the gym! :)
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I've been making a conscious effort to ONLY drink water!! I have a 32oz bottle that I keep with me at all times. I fill it up every meal, and at least 2 times during work, and twice in the evening. I normally end up chugging it to get it in me, and filling it up. I have found though, that my skin is so much nicer since I've been doing it! I never realized how dehydrated I was!

As for the HS thing - O.M.G. ...so I met him through school about 5 years ago, and through him, I met his ex wife...and they're lovely people. They're both my friends, and are friends themselves. But it was a HS flashback! Yesterday I got a Facebook message from her asking if we had been on a date...and I was like, "no!! just hanging out together with him and his roomies"...and she was like, "are you sure, I know it's none of my business" ... and I was like "YES!" ...so crazy!! I don't want to date anyone! Let alone him!!!!!! I'm not into dating ex's of friends! That's just silly! hehehehe :smilielol5: I'm going to distance myself! I don't want to be involved in any kind of triangle of emotions!! hehe

And you're right! i need more sleep! I'm feeling pooped! I am going to take your advice, and nap this afternoon hehehehehe :)
 
Tob said:
Hey, Glad your keeping up! Yes you will Find that Mr right some time soon. And think of how jealous your Ex-BF will be when he sees you strutting around all happy! Just remember, he will never change, never go BACK!

Sucks about your bathroom. nothing worse then not having a bathroom to use haha.

everyone always wants revenge on their ex, i am surprised you haven't killed yours with he way he treated you!
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Hey!!
I keep telling myself a life without me is revenge enough! :smilielol5:

Yeah! being bathroom'less is quite the obstacle! You don't realize what a luxury it is to be able to pee whenever you want!! lol
 
Food for Feb 22, 2011
8am: Bowl of oatmeal, 1 banana, 1 sm OJ, 1 large water
3pm: ww pita w/ tom sauce, mushrooms, green pep, onion, tomatos, celery, and cheese, lrg water
8pm: greek salad, can of diet cola

** NO EXERCISE***

Food for Feb 23, 2011
8am: bowl of oatmeal, 1/2 banana, 1 boiled egg, 1 piece of dry toast, lrg water, sm OJ
12pm: pasta salad on lettuce: ww noodles, almonds, cranberries, carrots, celery, chicken w/ a vinegar dressing


PT for Feb 23, 2011
Set 1 x 3
shoulder press (15lbs, 12r)
upright row w/ barbell (25lbs, 12r)

Set 2 x 3
crunches on stability ball (1min)
plank (1min)
medicine ball side to side (1min)

Set 3 x 3
Standing military press (25lbs, 12r)
Front raise with 2 dumbbells (8lbs each, 12r)

Set 4 x 3
side lateral raises with dumbbells (5lbs, 12r)
Bent Over Dumbbell Rear Delt Raise (5lbs, 12r)

Set 5 x3
side plank (30s/side)
woodchoppers w/ medicine ball (30s/side)
bridges on stability ball (1minute)

Cardio
15min on cross trainer level 5 (112 calories burned)
15mins on treadmill walking a 3.5, running for 45secs at 5.5, 6.5, 7.5, 12 (only because they did it on the Biggest Loser last night - I won't be doing that again!! LOL)


So...yeah...epic fail yesterday! Didn't end up going to the gym. I came home early from work with the intention of going to the gym, and walked into what can only be explained as "a shit storm".

our apartment was just destroyed. Tools, garbage, wires, an oven/fridge, dirt, work clothes were EVERY WHERE- and NOTHING had been done...NOTHING! They were suppose to have finished it all yesterday. To make a long story short- the rest of the afternoon/evening was me with my landlord 'talking' about how inappropriate it was to expect people (who pay rent) to live there for an evening (after being without a toilet the night before). I had to write a letter and then clean the place up...after that I was just pooped!

My workout was great today - and it really relaxed me! it was just what I needed! I'm still running on very little sleep, and I'm feeling pretty much pooped!

Weeeee! :lurk5:
 
i hope you feel better, and are able to get more sleep soon!! sucks about your apartment. you still keep a positive attitude even through those shitty situations.

how is the couch to 5K program going? i was thinking of trying the couch to 10K... there's an app i can get on my phone. lol worth the 3 dollars? :)
 
katie0615 said:
i hope you feel better, and are able to get more sleep soon!! sucks about your apartment. you still keep a positive attitude even through those shitty situations.

how is the couch to 5K program going? i was thinking of trying the couch to 10K... there's an app i can get on my phone. lol worth the 3 dollars? :)
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I really like it! I would recommend it! Although I got a schedule outline off the net for free! So if you don't want to pay, I'm sure you can get a free one :)

Let me know how it goes!!! :hurray:
 
Gahhh! The apartment situation does not sound like fun :( Sorry you have to put up with that! At least you got some exercise in to relieve some stress. Good to see you keeping up with your PT sessions and loving it :D Are you fully recovered from that bug you had? I am starting to feel a little sick, I hope it doesn't get worse! Anyway, keep up the good work! 22 days til March 16th... let's push it to meet our goals!!!! Take care :waving:
 
Oooooo the joy of a peaceful apartment! Like if back to normal! *serenity*

Hehehe...the construction here is almost done- done enough that everything is in it's place, our home is clean, and we have no more visitors until Monday! YAY!

My week ended well! I haven't been as productive as I'd like (I still have a 2 papers to finish and 1 to start- all due next week!), but I'll get it done. It's super stormy here, so I figure I'll have a relaxing weekend in :)

Food for Feb 24, 2011
9am: everything bagel - toasted dry, lrg tea, glass of water
12pm: homemade pasta salad (ww noodles, almonds, raisins, celery, onion, carrots, with a vinegar dressing), water
2:30pm: Handful of pretzels, water
7:00pm: stirfry (grain feed organic beef, bok choy, green pep, mushrooms, chestnuts, spinach, broc, carrots, celery, onion, 2 tbs soy sauce, 1c water, 2 cloves garlic), 2 lrg water
9:30pm: 1 serving backed corn chips, and 1/4 salsa, 2 lrg water

**No exercise :ack2: **

Food for Feb 25, 2011
8am: 2p WW toast, omelet w/ gp, mushroom & onion, water
2pm: left over stir-fry, water
5:30pm: protein shake (1 scoop egg based powder, 1/2 frozen fruit, 1/4c yogurt, 1/3 OJ, water & ice)
7pm: 1 service baked corn chips and 1/4c salsa, lrg water
8pm: 1 lr bowl of homemade pureed leek soup w/ 2 slices of 7 grain bread, 2 lrg water

PT session Feb 25, 2011

smith squats 12r (25lbs/side) X 4
lunges 16r (15lbs/side) X4
Deadlifts 15r (20lbs each side) X 4
Leg press 15r (240lbs) X 4
Tricep pulldowns w/ straight bar 15r (level7) X4
seated bicep curls (15lbs) X 4
Cable bicep curls 12r (level 4) X 4
Tricep dips 20 X 1 (we ran out of time!)

25min on the bike (HR above 60%)
15min on the crosstrainer (HR above 80%)


After my PT appointment I REALLY wanted to run...REALLY REALLY....so i started on the treadmill and my legs were just too wiped to do it! it wasn't that they were sore or anything, I just felt like they would give out on me! hhehehe...so instead I stuck to the bike and then went onto one of the new crosstrainers- which are SOOO cool! I've never used them before, but you can do 3 different things without changing resistance or workouts! Just by changing your stride you can go from steps, to cross country skiing, to running! It was SOOOOOOOO cool! hehehe

I'm excited! My PT mentioned today that this summer she was going to take me out running! Which I'm happy about! I'm excited to have a running partner and feel confident to go outside and do it! :coolgleamA:

Speaking of confidence...I feel a very epic and monumental day coming up soon! I'm am LOVING the way my arms are looking! I've accepted that they're going to be bigger than most as that's my build, but they are getting toned!! They have slimmed down a bit, but they're becoming much more toned...so MONDAY (eeehehehe) I'm going to wear a tank top to the gym. I have NEVER worn a sleeveless top outside without something to cover me up! This is huge!! I think I can be proud of myself! I just hope I don't chicken out hehehe! But I think I'm going to make Monday the day I break that cycle!! :)

I can already see myself this summer in shorts and tanks! I can't wait! I've never had a summer where I wasn't roasting in very inappropriate clothes!! hehehehe, toss out those sweaters and pants - Jill's going to be werkin' her stuff!!! :smilielol5:

Happy Friday all!
And I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!! :) :)
 
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