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Fustrated

I wish I could start the last 4 days all over again. I was thinking that my actions this weekend would not be all that bad. Boy I was wrong. It is taking allot for me to write this but I need to hold myself accountable.

I was so sure that this weekend was going to be a good one. Well I went to work and did fine with my eating. I got out of work and back home and 8:30 pm and my husband says he would like to take me out to eat. My first thought was great I don't want to cook. And in the back of my mind I was saying you fool look what time it is. So we went and I had 2 glasses of wine. We decided to share a couple of apps. So we got a spicy mussel dish it was made with heavy cream. And they gave us toasted dipping bread for all of the sauce. With every bite I knew I was messing up big time. So after that I chose to order a steamed dumpling dish made with pork, ginger and it had a soy dipping sauce with that. I felt really good about those they were the better of all the choices on the late menu. Oh don't let me forget to tell you all the snacks they had out that I could not stay out of.

And then on the way out my husband ordered a grilled Penni to go. Somebody just shoot me. So my husband suggested we swing into a local bar for a night cap. Well that was three beers later.

Sunday we got up and shard the Penni.(we can eat anything in the morning) I just could not keep the bad choices to one day no I had to continue on into the next. We did go for a long hike and I really better about the bad mistakes. But last night I did not control my portions.

I cannot tell you how angry at myself I am. Where is my will power? I now have to live with the scale and my decisions. I really need to get it together. For the last two weeks the scale had not moved and now it did. But in the wrong direction. I am today going to do more research on eating well. I feel that I am not eating enough during the day and when I eat supper I overeat. And that was the way of the old Tina. I get so mad when I fail.

I hope that this week I can stay on track.
Tina
 
Goal setting

So after waking up Monday and facing the bad decisions I have turned this week around. I went for a three and a half mile walk on Monday, a three mile walk Tuesday and a FOUR mile walk today.

I am feeling much better about things now. I also have been making better food choices.

I was thinking today that it really is great hearing all the good comments on my weight loss. But in away now there is a bit of a down side to it. I somehow think it makes you feel like you really have to work harder. I guess what I mean is I am not at my goal and I want to hear the great comments then when I reach them. And will it go unnoticed when I do reach them. I don't know if any of this makes any since. I am going to work just as hard as I have been and the praise is really nice to help get me to my goals. I enjoy every much to hear that I am looking good but I still feel fat.

And if anyone understands what I think I am trying to say I would love to hear from you.

I have set my goals and I hope I will be happy with them. I sometimes feel that I can do better than 150 lbs. But if I had set the goal of say 130 I don't know if that could be reached. So I guess I will set another goal when I reach the lbs. lost mark. Baby steps I feel is the way to go. So help if you can shed some light on these crazy thoughts.

Thanks for listening
Tina:confused:
 
Hello Tina!
Your doing really good, by the way your thinking this through it means you really do want to change your lifestyle for good! and so do I
My name is also Tina..hehe =) now there are two of us
You've gotta show all of then that you will and can do this inspite of it all
Show yourself your stronger than you ever were, not just because of your weight but inspite of it all.
 
Thank you for the kind words 4everSome1else. That is the greatest part about this family (if you will) everybody wants you to win this battle.

I really feel like this week I have done well. I actually tried running it was not all that bad. But to tell the truth speed walking helps more I feel. For two days after speed walking my legs are still feeling it. I was talking with the PA that works in our office and he did say it is more natural to run. So speed walking is a bit harder. I got thinking about how I run and I don't really move my arms but in speed walking I am moving my arms my butt and my legs. And it all hurts today. And I am loving every minute of it! he he So I feel like I really had a good workout

Although on Monday when I step on the scale and there is no loss I may be a bit upset. But I know there will be the next week!

Well bye for now I hope everyone has a safe and fun healthy weekend!
Tina:waving:
 
Well done ...

Hey Tina, isnt it amazing that your body is now where it wants to do what comes naturally... you are almost running, there will be a time when you wont even think about it, you will realise along the FOUR MILES that you are actually running - FANTASTIC indeed.

I know what you mean, but guess what, you are going to push through that 150 and 130 will be so easy. Sometimes my own low goal (at the lowest I should be 53 - 56 is the highest mark of my weight range) makes me feel despondent. It looks so far away and so unreachable ... but if others have been able to do it, so shall we!


Look, if you haven't lost anything, then check your centimetres. One of the things that nevers stops to amaze me is to see the centimetres just dropping off, at least even when you are stagnant on the scale because your whole body is refiguring things and balancing where necessary, the fat is melting and it just cannot hide anywhere.

I am glad you have been really good, at least one of us had to be at the rate that I was going.

Keep up the good work and have a wondeful weekend.

Remember KEEP IT LIGHT!

Ta da, :seeya:
 
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Your very correct
It's a battle we want to win even when we fail at it sometimes.
Once we win the battle we look back and tell ourselves it was all worth it.
When I was at aroud 170-180 I really didn't like the scale at all. I'd dread standing on it
because I knew the numbers would really hurt me. Now I don't feel like that as much
there will be days where I am worried if I've lost anything at all. Then when it shows no change I get upset. It takes time, but time worth waiting for
 
:hurray:This weeks post is so full of excitement! I finally see a change in my scale!!!! I lost two lbs. this week!!! I cannot tell you how happy that makes me. I have been really good about getting my exercise in. I walk/jogged 5 days this week. The weather has gotten really nice here and there is not one reason why I should not be outside.

Just a little side note my new pictures are only 3 weeks difference in time. One week we are snowshoeing and 3 weeks later the tank tops are out and we are hiking.

My husband and I went for a long hike on Sunday. We hiked two mountains in one day. I found it not all that hard due to the fact that I have been walking for a while. I found that if I got winded it did not take me long to recover so I could go on. I mean like a minute or two. The first mountain was 1069 ft and the second one was over 1200 not sure on that one. But I felt so good about what I was able to do. I really want to get in better shape for when my sister visits this summer. She wants to go for a hike in our beautiful Acadia Park. My sister is very fit and I want to show her that I can do this. It may not be so easy for her she is from Florida and runs on flat ground. In Maine there is really nothing flat about the area I live in.

So like I said I am feeling really great right now. I feel like I am finally in control. I still need help with my portion size. I have a hard time when something really taste good I have to have more of it. But last night my husband grilled a rib eye steak and we shared it. And the piece I took was smaller and I left half of that piece as well. Something very hard for me because that steak was great! But I knew I would hate myself if I had eaten the whole thing. So I am very proud of that.

And I am also very excited to have joined in a support group of lovely people. I feel that we are going to have such success. There is so much positive words spoken so far and it really brings it home that we all are not alone in this fight.

Thanks
Tina:jump:
 
Hello Tina,
I am really, really happy that you've lost 2 lbs already wow!!
I have those moments where I'd see my friends for family eating frise, or Pizza (that use to be my weakness) and before I'd say why not..just one piece. Now (Thank God) I can stand beside them without feeling the desire to want it.
It's wonderful I can look at chocolate and Ice Cream (both a big weakness)
and I don't look twice at it. I'm real happy that I've come this far.
I don't allow myself to eat food high in fat/cals because I know the second I do, I'll feel really bad.
I was watching something on the computer yesterday and really cought my eyes.
This lady lost a lot of pounds in about a year or so. She was asked how she did it so fast.
She said what you do is you take baby steps. If you crave chocolate, Ice Cream, Pizza..
You have to fisrt work with them one by one, take a bit two bites on the chocolate and put it aside, the next time you crave chocolate take only one bite, then avoid it as much as possible.
Then the next step is the Ice Cream.. and so on
I find that really helpful. and I hope it can help you with your grilled a rib the next time you decide to have it.
If you do eat out, tell yourself "I can do this, I'm stronger than this..I've come this far"
I tend to vision myself in a nicer body. The tough part is jogging, right when I face that road back home is my challenge, it's always been. I look up at the sky and push myself
I've gotta say From one Tina(me) to another Tina(you) I'm really proud of you for going so far and keeping this going.
Our group is very blessed to have you in our little weight loss gang! I'm sure I speak for all the wonderful women we are joined with. It's great that I've met you
All of us can do it, if not alone than together.
 
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Thank you so much. I for some reason have slipped from my morning high and really needed to hear what you have said. I feel really blessed to have found this great place. And even more blessed at the friends I have made along the way.

The hardest part I think is not so much the food that my friends eat its that I am the different one. I have not seen them for going on 3 weeks now and I hope that they see a different Tina the next time I see them. The old one would have looked at the mountain and ask can't we drive it? But not now I want to hike it. I am really lucky that my husband has been such a great source of positive support. I am very lucky! If we all could just surround ourselves with positive people 24/7 this would be a walk in the park. But we can't do that and for that reason I love being able to log on and have such great people to give you that push you need.

I felt earlier that I am to tired to go for my walk today but now after reading your post I am headed out and doing it. I am even going to drag my dog who has been just sleeping today. I think the hike did her in from yesterday.

Thank you and have a great week. I am sure that I will be back on before the end of the day.

Thanks I really needed that!
Tina:waving:
 
I had a great day today. My eating up to this point has been great! I of course have not eaten yet tonight. And this meal is my worse by far. But what should keep my on track is the fact that I worked out very hard today. After work I went to our local High School track and I would walk a lap then jog a lap. And I did this until I reached 4 miles. So I ended up jogging 2 miles and walking 2 miles. I also walked one more for cool down. One lap is 1/4 of a mile. I felt really good doing this. Not good like I was in shape but good that I accomplished it. I did find that it did not take my breathing long to recover. I am hoping that soon I will be able to jog the whole way but baby steps for now.
I am very proud of myself!
Talk again soon,
Tina:rotflmao:
 
Trying very hard to stay focused today. I really don't feel all the well and I should not hold that against myself. But I do.
Talk again soon
Tina
 
I had a great day! We went for a 4.5 mile hike today and it was great. I was not good this weekend and it really feels good to be back on track! I will write more on Monday. I have my new measurements! Stay tuned.
Tina:waving:
 
I had a pretty good day. I felt hungry all day and I feel I did pretty good with not going overboard. I have not been all that great this week it rained really hard yesterday and I could not walk/jog. So today I tried really hard to stay focused. I jogged one mile without stopping. I am very proud of that I know that this is just a start soon it will be 2 miles then 3 miles.

My husband and I are planning another big hike for this weekend. I will have more pics. My pics have been from outings where my husband and I either snowshoeing or hiking. I find posting them helps keep me on track. I can see changes in my body. I guess I should do before and after pics. Well I rambled enough. Have a great week all! Tina:seeya:
 
Wow, this is amazing indeed, I have been reading your posts since the 21st and my friend, I must say, you are inspirational - soon you will be doing more than the 2 miles. I now only have 5 kgs to go before I seriously introduce proper excercise to my regimen. I am considering taking membership of a gym close to my house for three months, this will help me through the cold winter months and get me started slowly.

Anyways, keep on keeping on and soon, everybody will see the amazing difference - but more than that, you will feel spectacular knowing that you can do anything you put your mind to!

See ya!
 
I am having a great weekend so far! For the last couple of weeks I have been working 3 jobs and it really really sucks. But now I am down to only 2 so I am hoping that I will have more energy. I truly love my 1st job it is just that it is in a medical office with a surgeon and I don't move that much. And the 2nd job I had Thru the winter was at a department store on my feet all day but not much of a workout. But now I am back at a greenhouse/farm a place that I worked last summer. And there is allot of moving and carrying heavy things. The great part about this is this year I will be more productive now that I am getting into shape. I really love all things that have to do with growing plants so this is a great fit for me. I feel full of life today from being there and my new lifestyle.

I am doing well with eating also eating when I should and not too much! That is the hard part with me eating because it taste good. Not for the need of food just because it taste good.

The weather here is not that great today chilly and rainy so walking or running may not happen today. But we plan on a big hike tomorrow! I so look forward to Sundays and hiking. Well need to run for now.

Have a great weekend everybody.
Tina:hurray:
 
I am feeling pretty good this week so far. I have been doing well with eating and the new (2nd) job I feel is helping me. I am moving more during the days that I am there. Not to mention that it gets really warm in the greenhouses. Although on Monday I was way to tired to exercise after work. I will plan on walking before going in to make sure that I am exercising. I felt like crap because I did not push myself after work. I have walked/run each day after my office job. And if the weather is good tomorrow I will run again. I hate depending upon the weather. This past Sunday we could not hike and I really hated that. And it sounds like the weather is not going to be good enough for hiking again this weekend.:mad:

But I will make up for the days it is. It is so very hard to stay focused when you can't exercise. I feel like each day that I can't that I am fat and disgusting.

Well need to run for now take care. Tina
 
Hi all I had a good day today. My husband and I went for a 6+ mile hike today up and over 2 mountains! The weather was great we have been waiting for a sunny day and today we got it. I enjoy the outside so much it really affects me when I can't get out. Maybe that was the reason for my bad mood last week. I just get plain sick and tired of cold rain. So today I took advantage. Once I was home I did allot of yard work as well. It is funny how exercising gives you energy. Well all for now very tired going to take my book and head for bed. Take care all! Tina:blush5:
 
I am staying the course. I am having a great week. I am not beating myself up for being human anymore. I feel I am at a point where I do not want to turn around. I have found a good place and I hope that I can stay here and enjoy it. It is funny how sometimes we get down but if we keep going it does turn around for us. I hope to have a better entry later this week.
Tina
 
I was so excited to get on the scale Sunday. I have reached 20 lbs!!! I feel so good about myself and I really don't feel like I am doing without. That is the great part! I am rethinking my goal weight maybe it is too soon to do that. I guess reach it because it is still 10 lbs away. I hope my busy lifestyle is going to slow down a bit I don't have time to put into my post. It will happen soon I am sure. I have to fight for computer time so by the time dindin is out of the way it is really late. But anyway I hope everyone is having a good week so far.
Tina
 
Well hello everyone.
I made it thru the camping trip we went on. I fell a little off my plan but I am not going to let it get me down. I hiked like I said I was planning and it was great we did the whole hike on Saturday and then we hike just the mountain again on Sunday. So that is why I don't feel so bad about eating more than I should and drinking more than I really needed to. All in all it was a great time and I am proud that I can start over this week. So many time in the past I would just continue on with the bad habits but not this time. I feel great about being in this place with my thoughts that I don't want to turn around and be that person again. I feel like I can finally live! And that is what I am going to do LIVE life to the fullest! I hope you all have a great week. xoxo Tina
 
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