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tj40less

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Since the 3rd grade I have gradually gotten heavier and heavier.

I just turned 30 years old and I'm the largest I have ever been, tipping the scales at 341 pounds. 3rd grade is when I first remember being self-conscious about my weight. I really wasn’t that much overweight, but schoolmates made me aware of it. It's kind of funny that as the years have gone by I look back at pictures and think, man I really wasn’t that big. This is the same mentality I have had for probably 16 years.

Luckily in school I was still pretty popular so I wasn’t teased very much, but I was also very good at hiding and avoiding my weight. While hiding and avoiding my weight helped, it also came at a price. Since 3rd grade I have lived a limited life, avoiding things that would spotlight my weight. No swimming at the public pools or water parks which meant not hanging out with friends all summer. I played sports and was actually a really good athlete but I didn't go out for high school teams because I knew the running and my weight would be an issue. I wonder what would have been had I not been overweight. Even today I don't play adult softball or basketball because my weight, running around the bases with this weight would draw too much attention.

At 341 pounds I have come to the realization that I can no longer hide or avoid my weight. I'm at the point where someone my size draws attention because, well, I'm 341 pounds! Secondly, I just turned 30 years old and I'm having somewhat of a 1/3 life crisis. There are so many things I have missed out on because of my weight and I'm tired of it. I still have youthful years left and I don’t want to be held back.

There is nobody to blame but myself for my current situation. I have to find a way to muster the self discipline to rid myself of living this limited life. I have a plan and I’m hoping this blog will help to keep my will.

I plan on losing 40% of my body weight and gain the 40% of my life I haven’t been living. 40% less.

Much more to come.
 
Being overweight my entire life has made me miss out on the best things of life too. Just eat healthy and exercise. Post in your diary everyday, it keeps you motivated seriously:)

best of luck, i have every faith that you can do this:)
 
Welcome! I too started getting fat in third grade, and getting made fun of. I look forward to hearing more about your plans for WL and reading about your journy.
 
From my blog


I feel bad I did not post anything today. I really wanted to get into my plan, but it didn't happen. I won't go through my whole plan, but I'll catch everyone up with my current status. I started my diet on Monday (8/1). I have been forcing myself to eat yogurt for breakfast (6:30am), having a few raw almonds for a snack, eating a healthy salad for lunch and chicken breast and grilled veggies for dinner. I'm trying to eat no later than 7:00. I'm 4 days in and I think I'm starting to get past the starving phase. Yesterday was the worst and I was in a bad mood. I know its just water weight, but it still feels good to step on the scale and see 5 pounds missing in action. Tomorrow I'll lay out my plan! Excited?

Weight: 336
Will: 10 of 10
 
From my blog

The Plan, Stan

Ok, so here is my plan.

I ordered Power 90 from amazon, it's a 90 day home boot camp.

Power 90 is done by the same people who do p90x, but it's not as extreme. I havent worked out in a long time and I'm way out of shape. I was really intrigued by p90x, but there is no way I'm ready to even attempt to keep up with those videos. I think Power 90 is going to be a challenge to be quite honest. I like the fact that it's very structed and planned out for me. I simply have to keep pressing play. The plan is to start my 90 days this coming Monday (8/8). This will give me a week on my diet and hopfully I'll be over the hunger pains. I'm not sure I'd be able to handle being hungry and being sore!

I have a wedding this weekend, so this will be the first real challenge to my diet. My rules....no alcohol, I'm going to eat my meal, but no rolls or cake. Again, I know it's just water weight, but this morning I stepped on the scale to see 333 and I really do feel good.

Weight: 333
Will: 10 of 10
 
tj40less said:
From my blog

The Plan, Stan

Ok, so here is my plan.

I ordered Power 90 from amazon, it's a 90 day home boot camp.

Power 90 is done by the same people who do p90x, but it's not as extreme. I havent worked out in a long time and I'm way out of shape. I was really intrigued by p90x, but there is no way I'm ready to even attempt to keep up with those videos. I think Power 90 is going to be a challenge to be quite honest. I like the fact that it's very structed and planned out for me. I simply have to keep pressing play. The plan is to start my 90 days this coming Monday (8/8). This will give me a week on my diet and hopfully I'll be over the hunger pains. I'm not sure I'd be able to handle being hungry and being sore!

I have a wedding this weekend, so this will be the first real challenge to my diet. My rules....no alcohol, I'm going to eat my meal, but no rolls or cake. Again, I know it's just water weight, but this morning I stepped on the scale to see 333 and I really do feel good.

Weight: 333
Will: 10 of 10
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omg i have that 90x xtreme workout dvd at home. I have yet to use it though. Let me know how the Power 90 goes for you. I heard 90x xtreme is extremely tough though also, might start it tonight!!

Hope you have a great time at the wedding:)
 
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Wedding Results!
Well, honesty is the best policy I suppose. The wedding didn't go as planned, but come on, I didn't know about the gourmet cheeses and scallops (yes, they were bacon wrapped). So here is the deal. I had a couple of crackers for breakfast, knowing that the calories would be coming later in the day. For lunch I had a small salad, then it was onto the wedding.

After the long Catholic ceremony, I headed to the recption at the country club, where apps and an open bar were waiting for everyone. Waiters were walking around with hot apps (remember those bacon wrapped scallops?) and there was a huge cheese, veggie and fruit tray. I was pretty much starving by this time - nothing new the past week however. I went for the veggies first and then I found myself in front of the cheese platter and wow, it was an impressive lineup. So I ate some cheese and also picked out a few nice pieces of fruit as well. I got myself a nice cold water instead of the even nicer cold beer.

Finally we were seated and served our meal. A tasty filet with veggies and mashed potatoes. I ate it all and yes I ate a roll, dang. Later on, I ate cake.

So, I cheated a little, but nothing crazy. I danced some and was on my feet the whole day and made my 5:00pm dinner the last thing I ate for the day. I cheated, but I feel good I didn't go crazy, it felt controlled, not the kind of cheating that spills over to the next day or even meal. In the past even slightly going off my diet would have thrown me off, this time around it feels different.

Today I was right back on track. Back to yogurt for breakfast then off to my moms to play in the pool with my two sons (yes - more about them in time). I made a point to swim some laps and tread water to burn some calories. For lunch we went to sweetfrog and I had some non fat yogurt topped with some fresh fruit, it was amazing. For dinner I grilled salmon to go with squash and rice. Awesome dinner!

Tomorrow is the big day! I have been on many diets, but never really included exercise. Power 90 starts tomorrow! I'm doing measurements and taking pictures so I can see the change. I will post them up sometime this week.

Wish me luck!


Weight: 333
Will: 10 of 10
 
Today I start P90. My Blog


I have to say that I'm a bit worried. I had been thinking about adding some light cardio first thing in the morning before I eat breakfast to get my body moving. So last night I was on youtube looking for a 10-20 minute work out. I have to be out the door by 5:45am, so I don't have too much time to give. I found a 10 minute workout so I thought I would try it out. I'm embarrassed to say that I was heavily winded only 5 minutes through! I did push through and finished the workout, but it wasn’t pretty. Afterwards I had a cough and even felt some wheezing. I don’t know if it’s because I’m completely out of shape or perhaps I have some sort of asthmas. I’m going to monitor it. The P90 workout is like 45 minutes long! I’m going to do my best and try not to get discouraged.

I also made some purchases last night.

It’s a pain to eat healthy at work. Dragging a healthy lunch to work on the metro is such a pain and I refuse to spend $9.00 for a salad every day. I started looking at some of the meal replacement shakes to make things easier, plus I’ll know exactly what type of nutrition I’m getting. So I bought a 40 pack of MET-RX Meal Replacement Shake.

I will try to write tonight, post Tony Horton ass whopping, but I may be dead.
 
Well, yesterday was a really good day, but don't tell that to my body. It's sore, real sore.

So yesterday I ate my yogurt for breakfast, had some sushi for lunch and an amazing fresh ahi tuna steak with a caesar salad for dinner. I had a half dozen raw almonds between meals as a snack. The tuna was so amazing. It's on sale this week at harris teeter for 4.99 a pound! Slightly seasoned it (not too much salt), put just a couple drops of olive oil on it and threw that bad boy on the grill. I seared both sides for about 2 minutes and it was ready, so good!

Yesterday was also my first day of p90 and it was a success. Yesterday was circuit, meaning more lifting with resistance bands. Today is my first cardio and ab ripper day, this is the one I’m a bit worried about, especially since I’m so sore today. I’m going to push myself, but not go crazy. I have a long way to go and don’t want to burn myself out.

I can’t tell you how good it felt when my workout was over. I really felt like I had started my journey to a new life. I have been on many diets, but never have I combined it with exercise. Not only did I feel good about myself, but that hard work did a great job of curbing the cravings. I’m looking forward to this afternoon.

And oh yeah! I lost another 1.5 pounds!

Weight: 330.5 (10.5 lost = 3%)
Will: 10 of 10
 
That tuna sounded super yummy!!

Im delighted the p90 workout went great:) I have yet to start mine...eeek

well done also on the 1.5 pound weight loss:)
 
Ready, Set, Cardio!
Well my much anticipated match with cardio finally went down yesterday and I’m going to call it a slight win for me, however, cardio had its moments. Seriously though, I made it through the cardio and ab ripper day without too much trouble. There was really only one time I needed to slow off the pace for a minute or so.

I was really impressed with P90 yesterday. They do a good job of moving around your body with different exercises. Right at the point where your muscles felt almost too tired to keep going, he would move onto another group. My heart rate stayed high and I was working hard, but the new muscle group didn’t feel tired so I was able to keep going.

After doing the video (~35 minutes), I felt pretty proud of myself, I jumped on the elliptical machine for 10 minutes. 10 minutes at a pretty good pace pretty much put me in spent mode.

Yesterday was another good eating day. I had my yogurt for breakfast, a salad for lunch, some more yogurt shortly after my workout (greek yogurt = 12 grams of protein and only 140 calories and tastes great) and another salad for dinner with a can of tuna on top.

Yesterday was probably my best day so far and what did I see when I got on the scale this morning? 1.5 pound gain. I had to laugh a little, but secretly I was hoping to see something under 330. I think I need to cut back on the daily weight-ins and do it once a week. Any opinions on that? I just don’t want to get discouraged.

Weight: 331.5
Will:9.9/10
 
Slow
The last two days have gone great. I have stuck to my diet and continued my power 90 workouts as planned.

After my first week of only dieting, I was down 11 pounds. I was so excited to see how fast it would fly off once I started to exercise. Well, to put it short, it hasn't. I'm actually a pound heavier than I was last Sunday. I have to be honest and say this is frustrating me a bit. I'm hoping once I pass this hump I will see another span of quick weight loss.

I have a birthday party to attend this weekend. I'm going to stick to my guns and stay strictly on my diet. No cake this time either! Wish me luck

Weight 331
Will 10 of 10
 
Weekend End
Well it's been a really productive weekend.

I did great this weekend. I kept to my diet and workout scheduled as planned. I even made it to a birthday party and two kinds of cake without stepping out of line. I hope I can keep this focus up.

I added a couple of supplements to my diet. I am taking green tea extract pills (400mg) before breakfast and lunch. I also moved away from the plain old multi-vitamin to optimum nutrition opti-men multivitamins, I take these 3 times a day.

Last week my weight loss was running idle, but it seems like maybe these new supplements kick started everything. Since Friday I am down 4 pounds, at this pace I could hit 20 pounds by this weekend. I'm going hard this week!

Weight: 328
Will:10/10
 
That's why some people only weigh once a week. It can go up and down between days, and you have to count in the exercise as well. Don't get discouraged by the scale! Keep your chin up, and wait for weigh in day before making any big changes.

I went up 3lbs once, after going to the gym for two weeks. I gave up...I shouldn't have. This time, I went up 5lbs even though I was doing so good! Turns out it was just water weight. I waited, and as I thought, it went down and I'm so happy.

I'm glad you're sticking to it, and now I want to check that DVD out! Sounds like you're doing really well, keep it up :).
 
Holding Formation:


It’s been almost a week since my last entry; I will try to do better. I know this is good therapy for me.


This has been a so-so week for me. On the good side, I have continued to stick to my diet. On the other hand, early on this week I went through a tough couple of days. I was STARVING and in a really crappy mood early on this week. I went from being hungry to feelings of nausea all day long, even right after I ate. The diet and exercise was really starting to get old.


Tuesday was my wife’s birthday and we went to the cheesecake factory to celebrate. They actually have a great menu for those of us counting calories. We split a mushroom lettuce wrap (450 callories/2) and I ate a delicious flatbread with tomatoes, basil and mozzarella (490 calories). I gave her a free pass since it was her 30th birthday to eat what ever she wanted, but she stuck to her diet. An angel food cake was waiting at home. So I did really well, but I am sad to say that we didn’t work out.


The next day, was the worst, I was really feeling crappy. I left work a little early and when I got home I went straight to bed. I had pretty much resigned to the fact that I wasn’t going to work out again. However, when I woke up I mustered up enough energy to workout and afterwards I actually felt great. Since then I have been back in the right frame of mind.


Unfortunately, I have been stuck at 328 since Saturday and I have to say it’s a little confusing. I will say that I feel lighter and my shirts seem a little bigger on me, but it could be my mind playing tricks on me. My water consumption has been down and I really need to work on that. Oh, well the weekends have been good to me so maybe I’ll drop a few pounds soon!
 
Sometimes when the scale won't budge I find that I have still lost inches. Do you track your measurements as well as your weight? The areas I track are: neck, upper arm, chest, waist, hips and thigh. Some people do other areas too - just depends what you want to do.
 
When I started my diet and p90 I did take measurements, but havent done it since. The good news is it seems like I'm losing weight on the weekends, it's kind of odd. Last week I was at 328 until Friday and by Monday morning, I was at 324 and this morning I was 323. I seems to lose in spurts. Sometimes it's frustrating, but I know if I keep to my plan I will lose it. My shirts are already starting to look a little big on me.



Originally Posted by ijustwannabefit


Sometimes when the scale won't budge I find that I have still lost inches. Do you track your measurements as well as your weight? The areas I track are: neck, upper arm, chest, waist, hips and thigh. Some people do other areas too - just depends what you want to do.
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Originally Posted by tj40less


When I started my diet and p90 I did take measurements, but havent done it since. The good news is it seems like I'm losing weight on the weekends, it's kind of odd. Last week I was at 328 until Friday and by Monday morning, I was at 324 and this morning I was 323. I seems to lose in spurts. Sometimes it's frustrating, but I know if I keep to my plan I will lose it. My shirts are already starting to look a little big on me.
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Yay thats so great that your losing weight and the p90 programme is going great for ya!! Well done on sticking to this and its a great feeling when close feel loose on you!!!:):)
 
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