Hi all. I am overdue for an intro since I lurk and read and love this site.
Last year after a Christmas party I saw pictures of myself that I hated. It was then that I knew I had to commit to being healthier. I was 40 then @ 180pounds and 25% body fat. Today I am 41 @ 145 pounds with 14% body fat. Exercise and eating right has become a regular part of my life and I am grateful.
I work with a trainer 2x a week and do cardio 3-4x a week. I am very humble when it comes to knowing what is right (diet and exercise wise) and absorb what I read and learn from the trainers. So the info posted on here really helps me.
I have to tell you though; I didn't expect body image to be such an issue during all this. First off, nobody ever told me to have a going away party for my breasts because they would never be seen again (LOL but true). Second, as I have developed muscles, I fear losing the look of being feminine. Is it me or is that normal? I recently saw a picture of myself (my back) and was blown away at how it looked. Part of me was SOOOO proud of myself but the other part harbored that fear. I don't have any before pictures to compare it to in the same type stance so I wasn't sure if posting it would be fair.
I am FAR from perfect but after 10 months of this I think I am where my body is comfortable. My bottom half continues to be bigger than my top half. I wish I could rejoice how far I have come rather than be sad at where I am not more often. Anybody else?
Last year after a Christmas party I saw pictures of myself that I hated. It was then that I knew I had to commit to being healthier. I was 40 then @ 180pounds and 25% body fat. Today I am 41 @ 145 pounds with 14% body fat. Exercise and eating right has become a regular part of my life and I am grateful.
I work with a trainer 2x a week and do cardio 3-4x a week. I am very humble when it comes to knowing what is right (diet and exercise wise) and absorb what I read and learn from the trainers. So the info posted on here really helps me.
I have to tell you though; I didn't expect body image to be such an issue during all this. First off, nobody ever told me to have a going away party for my breasts because they would never be seen again (LOL but true). Second, as I have developed muscles, I fear losing the look of being feminine. Is it me or is that normal? I recently saw a picture of myself (my back) and was blown away at how it looked. Part of me was SOOOO proud of myself but the other part harbored that fear. I don't have any before pictures to compare it to in the same type stance so I wasn't sure if posting it would be fair.
I am FAR from perfect but after 10 months of this I think I am where my body is comfortable. My bottom half continues to be bigger than my top half. I wish I could rejoice how far I have come rather than be sad at where I am not more often. Anybody else?
