chubbygirl
New member
Hello,
I got my inspiration from reading "Rock you like a Hurricane's" journal and have decided to start my own and hopefully get some great results like the rest of you.
A little about me...I have struggled with weight loss my whole life. I've tried everything...herbal magic, WW, counting calories, diet pills, etc which has lead to years of yo-yo dieting. I eat out of bordom, emotional stress and it's usually closet eating where I'm alone and no one else needs to know what I'm eating. If there's bad food in the house I will eat it.
I was heavy in public school and it got worse it high school. My mom could tell it was making me depressed so she offered to pay for me to go to herbal magic in Gr. 11. It was really expensive and the diet was very strict. I lost 30 pounds and got down to somewhere around 160 pounds but as soon as I stopped taking the pills and tracking my diet I gained all the weight back plus more.
In University I moved in with four friends who could all eat whatever they wanted and still stay a size 0 so the weight kept on piling on. We would go out drinking 3 days a week and hit up McDonald's on the way home. By my third year in University I hit my all time high of 224 pounds and had to start shopping in plus size stores and hated everything about myself. The end of a bad relationship made me want to change. I joined WW and lost over 30 pounds (2003). The fact that I had to be accountable for my weight once a week at weigh in really worked for me. I would hate to go there and have them say "you stayed the same" or "you were up one" so I worked really hard and got down to 182. Again once I stopped attending, my weight kept creaping back.
Once I finished University I needed to start looking for a job and the small town I grew up in wasn't offering what I was looking for so I decided to move to Alberta and live with my sister while I found a job. I weighed 207 at this time (June 2006). She asked if I wanted to join her gym and she could pick me up after work and we could work out together. It was perfect - one of us wouldn't want to go but the other would so we would encourage eachother. I got down to around 182 by December 2006. On that New Year's I met the man of my dreams.
I fluctuated for the next year from 190 - 180 and was still going to the gym with my sister. In April 2007 she got engaged and asked me to be in the wedding party. I was so scared because I have seen lots of bridesmaid dresses and they are always form fitting and usually sleeveless or tank top sleeves. I have never worn a tank top in my life, never mind something sleeveless. I have huge stretch marks all over my body -especially my arms from being so big so many years - plus I have very sensitive skin.
Me being crazy like I am ordered my bridesmaid dress two sizes smaller than what I was hoping that would be my inspiration to lose the weight. The dresses took 16 weeks to arrive and when they did mine didn't fit at all!!
By this time I had moved back home to my small town as my employer was able to transfer me and was doing long distance with my hunny and living with my parents. My mom kept making me try on the dress to motivate me and it actually worked. I hung it in my room and looked at it everytime I went to bed and every morning I woke up. By the time her wedding came (August 2008) I got down to 160 pounds and the dress fit. We had a friend who made me a little shrug to wear with the dress so I didn't have to bare my arms - my other sister wore one too so I didn't stick out.
It was a great day and everyone said I looked great but I still wasn't happy and wanted to lose more. I'm 5"6 by the way - woo this is getting long, sorry guys.
I wanted to lose more but I just didn't have the motivation anymore. I didn't have a work out buddy, my hunny was moving home to be with me and work had me sitting in front of a computer all day on my butt.
I'm currently 168.6 and just joined WW again the beginning of Sugust and was 173 on my first weigh in. My mom is going with me and it helps me to be accountable. My motivation now - my wedding! The date is set for Aug. 2010 and I would love to get down to 140 pounds - my all time lowest ever! That is my goal!! I will keep you posted on my process! I know I can do it. I have to really because believe me I want to be a hot bride and I want to be able to show my arms for the first time ever - they really don't make very nice wedding dresses with sleeves. I haven't seen any anyway.
Ok guys so here I go!! I will post again soon what I am doing for exercise and what my food journal looks like. I'm so excited!
Thanks for the motivation Mel! I love your journal!
I got my inspiration from reading "Rock you like a Hurricane's" journal and have decided to start my own and hopefully get some great results like the rest of you.
A little about me...I have struggled with weight loss my whole life. I've tried everything...herbal magic, WW, counting calories, diet pills, etc which has lead to years of yo-yo dieting. I eat out of bordom, emotional stress and it's usually closet eating where I'm alone and no one else needs to know what I'm eating. If there's bad food in the house I will eat it.
I was heavy in public school and it got worse it high school. My mom could tell it was making me depressed so she offered to pay for me to go to herbal magic in Gr. 11. It was really expensive and the diet was very strict. I lost 30 pounds and got down to somewhere around 160 pounds but as soon as I stopped taking the pills and tracking my diet I gained all the weight back plus more.
In University I moved in with four friends who could all eat whatever they wanted and still stay a size 0 so the weight kept on piling on. We would go out drinking 3 days a week and hit up McDonald's on the way home. By my third year in University I hit my all time high of 224 pounds and had to start shopping in plus size stores and hated everything about myself. The end of a bad relationship made me want to change. I joined WW and lost over 30 pounds (2003). The fact that I had to be accountable for my weight once a week at weigh in really worked for me. I would hate to go there and have them say "you stayed the same" or "you were up one" so I worked really hard and got down to 182. Again once I stopped attending, my weight kept creaping back.
Once I finished University I needed to start looking for a job and the small town I grew up in wasn't offering what I was looking for so I decided to move to Alberta and live with my sister while I found a job. I weighed 207 at this time (June 2006). She asked if I wanted to join her gym and she could pick me up after work and we could work out together. It was perfect - one of us wouldn't want to go but the other would so we would encourage eachother. I got down to around 182 by December 2006. On that New Year's I met the man of my dreams.
I fluctuated for the next year from 190 - 180 and was still going to the gym with my sister. In April 2007 she got engaged and asked me to be in the wedding party. I was so scared because I have seen lots of bridesmaid dresses and they are always form fitting and usually sleeveless or tank top sleeves. I have never worn a tank top in my life, never mind something sleeveless. I have huge stretch marks all over my body -especially my arms from being so big so many years - plus I have very sensitive skin.
Me being crazy like I am ordered my bridesmaid dress two sizes smaller than what I was hoping that would be my inspiration to lose the weight. The dresses took 16 weeks to arrive and when they did mine didn't fit at all!!
By this time I had moved back home to my small town as my employer was able to transfer me and was doing long distance with my hunny and living with my parents. My mom kept making me try on the dress to motivate me and it actually worked. I hung it in my room and looked at it everytime I went to bed and every morning I woke up. By the time her wedding came (August 2008) I got down to 160 pounds and the dress fit. We had a friend who made me a little shrug to wear with the dress so I didn't have to bare my arms - my other sister wore one too so I didn't stick out.
It was a great day and everyone said I looked great but I still wasn't happy and wanted to lose more. I'm 5"6 by the way - woo this is getting long, sorry guys.
I wanted to lose more but I just didn't have the motivation anymore. I didn't have a work out buddy, my hunny was moving home to be with me and work had me sitting in front of a computer all day on my butt.
I'm currently 168.6 and just joined WW again the beginning of Sugust and was 173 on my first weigh in. My mom is going with me and it helps me to be accountable. My motivation now - my wedding! The date is set for Aug. 2010 and I would love to get down to 140 pounds - my all time lowest ever! That is my goal!! I will keep you posted on my process! I know I can do it. I have to really because believe me I want to be a hot bride and I want to be able to show my arms for the first time ever - they really don't make very nice wedding dresses with sleeves. I haven't seen any anyway.
Ok guys so here I go!! I will post again soon what I am doing for exercise and what my food journal looks like. I'm so excited!
Thanks for the motivation Mel! I love your journal!
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