Because I still haven't had that 'talk' with Reba, yet...
Funny you should say that. And this will segue into Beth's post - kinda.
I'm sure we've all taken Google trips. You know, went into a search of one thing and ended up chasing link after link only to be helplessly captivated by the alluring underbelly of the dark side of the interwebs.
Our dirt racing forum has an off-topic 'tailgate' section. It's a rangy place; from 'babe of the day' to neo-conservatism and scads in between. Pretty much anything goes.
I took aim at an established thread about the death penalty. The nucleus was prose positioning that states are dropping executions due to excessive cost. One successful execution runs roughly 37 million dollars (many mitigating and exhaustive factors at play here). So I lurked to poll my colleagues. Thus being an extremely pro death penalty proponent, (yes, I can sense your jeers) I wondered how opposed I was. As predicted, I was vastly out-numbered.
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The search of "Pennsylvania Death Penalty" spun out of control. Though I had a special interest in one, Mark Spotz, condemned to death three (redundant) times (and an additional life sentence) for his four heinous murders a la 'Natural Born Killers" [by Oliver Stone (1994)] copycat-style.
Mark's mom was our family babysitter for three, maybe four years back in the mid-to-late 60's. She lived three houses up from us. To say I knew Mark, well, I didn't at all, really. But his mom, Jeanie Newton, seemed like a nice enough babysitter. I can't recall any improprieties under her watch.
I was curious to see if he had another date with lethal injection, yet. Sure to be stayed regardless of date. Our state is fairly conservative with its executions and stays are extremely common. Since 1976, we've only made good on the privilege to terminate society's ogres three times - and that was during a quasi-conservative administration.
As Google goes, I get sidetracked with 'Pennsylvania Women on Death Row'. Well damn me for that. I spent the next four hours transfixed - sickeningly albeit - case reading a story and court manuscripts about one Michelle Sue Tharp and her willful starvation of her daughter, Tausha Lee Lanham.
The deeper I delved into the story of the 7 year old girl weighing 12.5 lbs at death launched me into mindless reaches of my rum drinks. I read, I drank. Horrified, yet unable to stop the quest for more reading material until I exhausted my sources.
But yanno, somehow, perhaps subliminally, I set out to have a disturbing night last Friday. I just know that about myself. I will sit at home and hide behind things I don't want to face. I don't know if pre-weight loss was worse than post-weight loss but it is a reoccurring theme for me. I get locked in a world I can control by not controlling anything, just to benefit myself. These issues haven't pirouetted me into an obese state. I'm still very cognizant of that, and blessed I still make it a priority to keep after it. I just don't deal with boredom and isolation well - at times. Sometimes I rather enjoy it, too. After all, it is a product of my environment.
I find that alcohol is a common dietary roadblock with me too...it used to be sweets, but not so much anymore.
I make a "diet margarita" using crystal light lemonade mix (1 mini packet mixed with 12 oz of water to make a low cal mix) instead of mix and I try to limit the number of alcohols I put in my margarita (thus limiting the number of calories I take in). I add some fresh lime or orange to add to the flavor.
Bruce and I also came up with what we call our "summer drink"...using diet lemon brisk iced tea, and vodka and a splash or two of OJ. Again mostly low calorie.
But usually a small glass of wine is my standard drink.
By my math, my rum and coke zero is about 220 cals a glass but what messes me up is finding the stop button. I can drink 9 to 12 hours easily.
My fattest years, say 1998 to 2006, I hardly drank it all. Now it's getting hard not to want to drink on weekends. I think it's an extension of having a social body type now and not really wanting to go out all the time. I would (and do) drink less if I was 'out and about'. Home has no boundaries, DUI risk nor time limits. I can drink until sun-up if I like and sometimes I do just that.
But what good is all this doing 6 days perfect and tossing it all away for 'one night in Bangkok' ? *shrugs* I need to get a grip.
And rum. I luv the rums. Rum is forbidden presently, however 
Wow.. What you gonna do when it comes to that situation? keep us updated. All I gotta say is "Follow your heart", "You only live once", "live in the moment".. Okay I think that's it. Have a good day and dont forget to drink your WATER!!