This Trucker Fights Back

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Korrie said:
sorry to hear your still not doing well w/ christmas...maybe you could try to find a way to rise above the issues so you can begin to like it again?
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I'm sure you're trying to be helpful here.

Curvie Girlie said:
top party school
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Wiki never lets me down :D



A reasonable effort this morning. I awoke to our first snow event of the season. It felt good to extend an hour of manual labor, again. And to still be in the position to do so.

Does anyone sense the boredom in my life ?? Fucking pathetic. I'm not sure how many more days of P/T job no-callbacks I can take.

:rant:
 
thanx for the stickies info :) i'm sure i'll be able to impress some american from penn state uni i come across hehe

sorry to hear you feel bored. i'm sure its just a phase. it won't last. it will pass when i say...stickies :D

usually when i'm bored i start playing those incredibly long and addictive computer games. i lose couple of days like that.

and off course i exercise, do research for articles that i will eventually write, so i seem very busy to myself, read books, stare at myself in the mirror and feel sorry for myself for about a minute.

oh and speaking of looking in the mirror there's this trick my psychology professor told us once. and it works. so you have to look at yourself in the mirror, but with a huge smile on your face. and just keep looking. after about 30secs or a minute you will look so stupid to yourself that you will start laughing your ass off. laughing=better mood :)

and off course you can start cooking very nice healthy dishes that you can freeze up for next few weeks.

the ultimate boredom killer for me: i just start calling all the people i know hehe :) someone is bound to be happy to hear from me :)

ok *stickies* :D
 
ali said:
You really have a way of putting things in perspective, Randy. Well said.

:)
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Thanks ali. That line was written while watching BL - a show I use to champion. Only the third time I watched it this season and for some reason, it hit me like a lightning bolt how conceptually ignorant the show's format is.

Sending people home whether they did too good or not good enough seemed unproductive. I calmed down later and surmised they're pretty much there for the money anyway. Yeah, I know good things happen in that show but all the sudden it was a huge turn off to me. Maybe watching a girl cry for a job well done only to be admonished by her peers... IDK...

Curvie Girlie said:
boredom? Come over to my turf, I'll show you what it is! :D
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I get winded reading your diary. You're always on the go - as you should be.

Cali/hottie/rocker/vivacious ? Boredom

lena410 said:
thanx for the stickies info :) i'm sure i'll be able to impress some american from penn state uni i come across hehe

sorry to hear you feel bored. i'm sure its just a phase. it won't last. it will pass when i say...stickies :D

usually when i'm bored i start playing those incredibly long and addictive computer games. i lose couple of days like that.

and off course i exercise, do research for articles that i will eventually write, so i seem very busy to myself, read books, stare at myself in the mirror and feel sorry for myself for about a minute.

oh and speaking of looking in the mirror there's this trick my psychology professor told us once. and it works. so you have to look at yourself in the mirror, but with a huge smile on your face. and just keep looking. after about 30secs or a minute you will look so stupid to yourself that you will start laughing your ass off. laughing=better mood :)

and off course you can start cooking very nice healthy dishes that you can freeze up for next few weeks.

the ultimate boredom killer for me: i just start calling all the people i know hehe :) someone is bound to be happy to hear from me :)

ok *stickies* :D
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Thanks for the suggestions, dear. A phone call to Croatia would break me :( Maybe I can mail you a 'stickie' for the holidays, instead :D
 
***Kim Whistles............****** Wooo-Hooooo Randy, where are you???????????????????????


Hey, whatcha doing??????????? Probably out having some fun! I'm waiting for the OU game to start and wanted to spend a few minutes first checking out some diary's as I know I won't have time after the game.

I hope your weather isn't to bad there and your able to get out and enjoy it. Today was cold, but the sunshine made it seem about 10 degrees warmer and it was actually decent. I did some last minute shopping, as you know how much I dread doing that. But I got what I needed and headed back home.

Hope all is well, I'll check in later to see how you fared this week.
Hugs and love
Mrs Crown
 
Hugs to Beth and Crowny - Handshake to Trops

Hi there. Just sitting here in the early makings of an ice storm, which kinda blows but wtfu gonna do ??

My weekend eating was fairly strong towards the victory side. Nipping carbs in the bud and showing due diligence towards low-to-no fat products in my diet. If I can get through this week on my stayed course, I should leave November 2-3, maybe 4 lbs. lighter than what I entered it.


Stress levels way down. Exercise coulda been a bit more aggressive, I reckon. 5 miles treadmill and 3 miles on the stat. bike isn't anything to brag about. Honestly, all the shoveling last week left me sore through the weekend. It's time to put the diet and exercise together daily without anymore interruptions. If I had to critique myself, I'd openly admit I had too many days where one part was good but maybe not enough effort on the other. For some reason, my exercise has lacked more than food choices.

I'm trying people.
 
Hey Randy -

I am going through the same thing - I get one part of this pulled together and I realize that I am lacking in another part. I want to get all of the parts - eating, exercise and the mental component firing all at the same time b/c I am pretty sure the results will be spectacular...
 
but what's good is you are recognizing where you need to work at more... a lot of people don't.

Looks like there's a lot of people kicking ass this month!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
You're kicking ass! :hurray:
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I'm so fucking focused, it's scary.

Korrie said:
wow, your really doing great Randy, can't tell you how proud I am of you :D
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Tell me, please. We all have egos, no ?? hehe, kidding.

ali said:
Hey Randy -

I am going through the same thing - I get one part of this pulled together and I realize that I am lacking in another part. I want to get all of the parts - eating, exercise and the mental component firing all at the same time b/c I am pretty sure the results will be spectacular...
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Beyond me where my components broke down. Burn out ?? gave up ?? needed a break ?? I dunno but I'm not willing to risk what I've worked oh-so hard for.

It's so cool that we keep each other honest. You may already be 'spectacular' to some but I totally can absorb the 'it's not done yet and on my own terms'. I truly do. I still think you're awesome even if you're not fulfilled yet.

Phoenyx said:
but what's good is you are recognizing where you need to work at more... a lot of people don't.

Looks like there's a lot of people kicking ass this month!
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Fuckin' -A. This is only the beginning of a kick ass winter for those of us that have the ambition. Take no prisoners !!
 
T2 Trucker said:
Beyond me where my components broke down. Burn out ?? gave up ?? needed a break ?? I dunno but I'm not willing to risk what I've worked oh-so hard for.

It's so cool that we keep each other honest. You may already be 'spectacular' to some but I totally can absorb the 'it's not done yet and on my own terms'. I truly do. I still think you're awesome even if you're not fulfilled yet.
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You need other people to help keep you honest - at least I do. I got someone in my life who helps me with this shit on a daily frickin basis. Without that and everyone else I have come to know here I have no idea where I would be. Not here, dat's fo so.

I went through the same thing over the summer. I just stopped. I maintained, which is a lesson I need to learn for later, but whatever had driven me to that point, just quit. It took some real honest looking at myself and some hard conversations with someone who knows me real well to find the want again. Its a process. The sooner I got that through my head, the happier a camper I was. I am happy you found the want again Randy, I really am.

Not many people get the 'it's not done' attitude I have. I didn't do this to be a less fat version of myself. I did this to change myself. That is so much more than just losing weight. It is losing the person I was and becoming the person I was meant to be. Maybe it isn't like that for a lot of people but the person I was before was not someone I was proud to be in a lot of respects and I think that I have done a lot of growing since I have started this thing.

It isn't even being negative or unhappy with what I have done but the most simple reality is this - right now, I'm average. I didn't go through all of this before and after to just be average. I want to know the true depth of my potential here. Plain and simple.
 
ali said:
Plain and simple.
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Sweet blog, Ali. Hard for me to add much to that since it's a rather compelling read about yourself. I like your identity.

I beat myself up just because it's my way of motivating myself. I'm glad I have no followers that way. I just demand more of myself than maybe I should, at times.

I wouldn't change a thing on this journey - save staying on WLF during my slump. Probably talking it out here woulda been more beneficial than I gave this place credit for.

Korrie said:
lol, i'll tell ya later ;)
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o rly ?? :confused:

You watching BL tonight ??
 
Trops said:
I give this place a lot of credit. I really don't think I'd be where I am if I didn't have all this support. :grouphug:
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No doubt, WLF is cred vault. But when I went bad, it went with it. Even tho I was busy this summer, I still had time to post here in between bike rides. I guess I just didn't want to fess up how I was a being a traveling shitbag on the weekends and trying to grind it off during the week. I lacked a better plan. Very unhappy I was. Getting unfucked wasn't easy for me.

And so it goes.
 
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