This Trucker Fights Back

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Why hello my perverted bowl of hotness,

So I read this little quote here.... ummm, you know, if you ever need some boob and ass endowed Asian dominatrix hovering about you to get your ass motivated/ in gear... you know where to reach me. ;) HA! Btw... I'm all moved in and I'll start getting back to writing in my diary, Sir! Love yas, Randy!

-HHB

Me luv you long time. What more can I say ?? I can't wait to see you new dungeon, er, house !! Know any good tricks involving bicycle spokes ??

xos&m

-BBB

The longer I do this, the more I realize how much the mental component affects things. That is harder for me than dragging my ass outta bed every morning to go to the gym.

It is a stuggle some days but I am working on it. Good to know I am not alone.

Hench the congregation ;) At least you got the 'honest with yourself' part down. I don't know how anyone could advance without it ??

Great people do great things; but I don't think anyone can obtain that level without struggles.

Yup, *nod, nod* right there with ya both...that is the hardest part for me as well, cause if my mind ain't in the game, my body will not do it by itself.

That has been a HUGE struggle for me thus far in 2008. I am (dare I write this?) finally slipping back into the mindset of dedication and desire to see this through.

I kept reaching, searching, praying for the mental catalyst that would re-ignite the fire that helped me reach the goals that I did last year. It has been so frustrating to not be able to grasp it and run. But I believe I finally have it by the tail. :)

Oh, gee, where are my manners?......hi ya Randy! ;)

haha, manners in this diary ?? you trying to upgrade me ?? :p

I'm not surprised you're turning things around. You've been posting more often, leaving those subliminal daily reminders inside your grey matter. It's working :)

Hey Trucka! Great job getting off 3 lbs so far. Cheers to your next 3 gone!! ooouuiii

Hi MJB :) thx for the forum love !! *smooches*
 
Bad Math :(

Mornin' Randy... what an icky rainy day here.

Yeah and what an adventure it caused me :p I got pinned down twice for over an hour each in pavilions during my ride. What a way to make a day out of it :smilielol5:

I'll miss you next Tuesday for the finale :-(
The way the weather is looking, the races don't look near as good now. I guess we'll do the 'wait-n-see' thing.

Hope you have a good weekend, Nicole :)
 
Hey Randy - Just wanted to stop in and say hello...hope all is well and you have managed to dry off a little :)
 
Just wrapping up a decent weekend considering the weather sucked for the most part. I'm confident today is/was the very last of all things in the form of frozen moisture pelting me for the next 6 months.

I mixed it up a bit with different rides and walks this weekend. It's part of my best laid plan to continue to find different routes and challenges not to mention increasing elevation.

No boo boo(ze) this weekend .:mixed emotion face:. Eating was very disciplined. Lord knows I'm being ambushed with dramabombs IRL right now but I gotta step past all this. All I can do is take care of the things I can control, I'll be damned if I'm gonna let the things I can't do me in.
 
All I can do is take care of the things I can control, I'll be damned if I'm gonna let the things I can't do me in.

All part of that oh-so-fun mental struggle. Hope things are going well for you :)
 
A dramabomb explodes:


For sometime now, I've intentionally discontinued family matters from my diary. Largely they're personal, distracting and really not diary-worthy. I get it we all have problems. I further relate that the make up of these events can make or break our efforts.

Again, it all comes down to how we respond said events, I suppose. If you're locked into the 'nothing but weight loss 24/7 mentality' I reckon you won't lose your place in line. If you're faced with critical mass, there's no promise you won't go on weight loss tilt - be it not eating at all or binge-fest. I'm not an emotional eater per se but I am an emotional thinker. Connective ?? We'll see..

I'll fall short of capturing my last 36 hours aptly with detailed prose as I'm exhausted. I'm basically winding down, decompressing a bit and administering my own mental delete button of select segments from yesterday. A true 'made-for-TV epic minus the film crew.

In brief, my morbidly obese brother stubbornly home-treated an unknown infection over the weekend and nearly paid for it with his life on Monday.

I'm not going to painstakingly type out the minute-by-minute details. Trust me when I tell you I stayed by my brother for several hours begging and pleading for his cooperation to get him to the hospital. His delirium ever-present, a body mass unmovable left us frustrated and scared.

Before the paramedics arrived, we had an episode where he had fallen part way on the steps landing in a way where his head and upper torso were lower than waist and feet, Trapped and now fat mass transferred - almost defying gravity - heaved up on the lung cavity crushing his infected, laboring pneumonic region. My father and I with mad amounts of adrenalin somehow got him on his side and took all the weight and pressure off. We saved his life however we weren't out of the woods yet.

We still had a near-500 lb. body stuck on the second floor. He could no longer walk, think or understand, let alone respond. Pure dead weight with only a little more of pulse than dead. The 4 paramedics arrive and vitals dictate we have little time to lose. BP is 58/25, Temp is 105.8. In an abrupt and correct decision, the medics literally drug him down the steps with 8 of us lifting him on the crash cart and successfully wisked away to the first hospital.

Several hours later and much medical discussion, it was decided he be transferred to Geisinger Medical Center in Danville, Pa. He was refused medvac via lifeflight due to weight restrictions. That was a first I ever heard such a thing.

As of right now we know several operations will be done in the next several days for a stomach abscess, gall bladder excision, intestinal blockage and abscess. He still wasn't operation-worthy with a BP of 101/46 as this evening when I left. He's basically living off of tenacious antibiotics and morphine until vitals support surgeries.

I foresee many 200 mile trips for awhile. Anyway, I've said enough for now. More later. Thanks for listening, it means a lot.
 
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Randy - I am so sorry about what is happening to you and your family. I know everyone has their own belief system and all but I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, ok?

If you need to vent, you know where to find me...
 
Randy, just checking in on you today. I hope it was a better trip today and your brother's much improved since you left him last night. I'm saying extra prayers for him and your entire family today. Keeping good thoughts only does help... I highly recommend it. Please check in with an update on his status when you can. And remember to take care of yourself, too!
 
Thanks Ali and Nicole :)

Quick notes: Brother is stable and not operable yet. Infection appears to be controlled so I'm told. No travel today and none planned tomorrow.

Back on task here. Went riding today and shredded the back tire on my bike while I was 10 miles from home. What a pain in the ass that was. I retired the old bike. I had been stalling on buying my new one and this was just enough incentive (anger) to take the leap. All told, I spent about 6 hours walking/riding today.

I rode the new bike tonight for an hour or so. I'm kinda reserving comments till I get use to it. Some likes, some dislikes.

I'm eating smart, too. Other than that, I'm just eyes without a face.

*yawns*
 
I got the Schwinn Sidewinder. Seriously a mistake in choices but I'm stuck with it now. Perhaps a decent college student commuter going short ditances and doesn't really care about performance but it's way too heavy for my 26 mile rides. I'm probably going to blow my stimulus bux on the Trek or Giant and keep the Schwinn for a spare or sell it for a loss. I had no idea how a 42 lb. bike (after coming off a 24 lb.'er) would be beating the shit out of me like this. Today was the most agonizing ride I ever had.

Schwinn really forgot about quality when they wanted to be a Walmart typical mass producer. I should have known to avoid China junk. The grip shifters aren't tuned in. The rear derailer hangs up in 4th gear no matter which front sprocket you're on. By the time I got home the handlebars were loose. My only cycle shop won't work on a Walmart bike as their own way to say 'fuck you for not buying a bike here'. I know it's simple adjustment shit but the assembly pride must not be part of the new Schwinn QA checklist. I'm really disappointed.
 
schwinn make beach front riding bikes, not race bikes. of course they are super duper heavy pretty looking bike, and thats about it. only thing going for them is looks and an old school name :)

Surely you can take it back if not satisfied within the first week of owning it? Trek and Giant are good bikes, cant go wrong with those.

So when all that crap happened to your brother, did you sit back afterwards and think how close you came to something similar to that? i dont think you realize how close to death you are ,with even something minor, until you loose the weight and look back.

I think the thing i remember most was dreading getting a cold because i would end up with a chest infection every time that knocked me out for about 3 weeks to a month.
 
Sorry to hear your brother is sick. I hope he gets better soon. You must be so worried.

You weren't playing around yesterday, 6hours of walking and riding? What stamina you have. You go Trucka!
 
schwinn make beach front riding bikes, not race bikes. of course they are super duper heavy pretty looking bike, and thats about it. only thing going for them is looks and an old school name :)

Agree with all that. Actually my first bike was a 20" Schwinn Spyder bike damn near 40 years ago then I had a Sunday paper route I work for 2 years to upgrade to a Schwinn Orange Crate. Yeah, there was a time when Schwinn was primo cycling for all ages. I rolled the dice on my first China doll Schwinn. Ya get what ya pay for, I guess .:screwy face:.



Surely you can take it back if not satisfied within the first week of owning it? Trek and Giant are good bikes, cant go wrong with those.

I reckon Walmart would let me but I went crazy taking off all the safety/warning/reflector paraphernalia. I don't even wanna deal with hauling back out there and have them give me a raft of shit. My bad. Now I have to eat it.

How fucking stupid am I for changing my mind about the Trek. I spent months daydreaming about it, was convinced I was buying it, then... I dunno wtf I did that for.

So when all that crap happened to your brother, did you sit back afterwards and think how close you came to something similar to that? i dont think you realize how close to death you are ,with even something minor, until you loose the weight and look back.

I think the thing i remember most was dreading getting a cold because i would end up with a chest infection every time that knocked me out for about 3 weeks to a month.

omg Liz, like you wouldn't believe !! well yeah ya would, you just said it in your own words.

It was nothing for me to be antibiotics 6 months out of the year not to mention 2-3 pneumonias annually. Never a day goes by where I don't get reminded how the health improvements were the best part of this deal. It's beyond wildest dreams.

Sorry to hear your brother is sick. I hope he gets better soon. You must be so worried.

You weren't playing around yesterday, 6hours of walking and riding? What stamina you have. You go Trucka!

hey hey chickacherrycola !! thanks for the brother love. I'm sure he'd appreciate that :)

I'm going back to visit tomorrow after 3 days off. No shortage of family rotation making the trip, though. Short term worries have diminished a bit, long term is still up on my list.

His speech is still showing signs he may have stroked out a lil during all this. He still seems a bit confused. Ah well, give it time, I guess. We're all crossing our fingers he approaches a weight loss change. Without it, I'm not sure what kind of future awaits him.

heh. Stamina eh. Trust me when I tell you more than one bench rest was used on that day. I was pretty wore out.

*huggs MJB*






Rode the trail today -26 miles. I only like the new bike slightly better. Since I had pasta for supper, I went out afterwards for an hour spin - maybe about 7-8 miles. I mowed my yard and my brother's yard, too. I also washed his car.

Pretty busy day. Sucks our summer-like weather is about take leave from my region :(
 
yeah, i lost weight so i looked good in clothes. I lost weight to be vain and for all the wrong reasons.
And now ive lost the weight i appreciate all the right reasons that i didnt realize until i lost it. Health being a major one.
Hope ya brother comes right, maybe its time to have a heart to heart with him about his weight. Be caring but firm, tell him you love him and dont want to ever go through what you went through again and will do anything to help him loose the weight if hes willing to give it a go.
 
hey T, I did the same thing last year. Bought a wallly world Schwinn, brought it home, rode it about 5 minutes, threw it back in the car and returned it. Thankfully it was so poorly set-up/assembled that it made my disicion easy and quick. I then went straight to the local bike shop and bought a lower end Trek that i have been happy with.
 
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