Hey kids, I'm taking a waiver on multi replies temporarily.
I had another carbuncle lanced yesterday, only this was a first-timer in reference to region. I had a fast mover developing in the right axillary that needed cut open.
Sparing details, I'm not at all happy in several different ways, obviously these things are painful and I'm out of the skipping and walking loop for a spell. The more obvious is a replay in my mind that this weight loss was 'suppose' to end these recurrences but I guess it's not etched in stone anywhere so I have to suck it up and just accept this is just the way it is for me.
I've been thrashing with career/school choices based on what to do based on these inflictions alone, I know realize that there is no need to equate that into my return to work/further education process. They're simply going to happen no matter where I end up. At this point about all I can do is hope for longer spans in between occurrences so I don't inconvenience or jeopardize any employer or disrupt my schooling.
Some days ya just throw your hands up - today is one of those days.
The only good news is I weighed at the hospital yesterday and I lost 3 lbs since last weigh in (about 2 weeks ago I think) which I'm not surprised. I have worked extremely hard at fixing my leaks. I know that approaching the 14 month mark now I see the long term dedication this is going to take, it really is a lifetime event. I've pushed the envelop, let my guard down, 'rewarded' myself socially, etc.. all to find out that these things can wreck even the best laid plans. I also know idle time is my worst enemy.
It does feel great to be back under 220 and a well-earned 220 at that. So for now I'll just work off of that and see what happens, as for loading up my plate with future dreams about work/school, it's just one day at a time. I'm really tired of fighting that right now. I'm tired of a lot of things actually.