This Trucker Fights Back

[Curvie Girlie]

Phoenyx is a brilliant read as the Mistress of Culture. That girl is awesome in every way, shape and form - and as always, married I could luv her infinite.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww How sweet!!!!

 

[Phoenyx]

Phoenyx is a brilliant read as the Mistress of Culture. That girl is awesome in every way, shape and form - and as always, married I could luv her infinite.

Aw, shucks!

I'm glad you enjoy the read.

 

[T2 Trucker]

Aw, shucks!

I'm glad you enjoy the read.

You had me at 'Harley Earl' Thanks for not blow torching my fingertips over that diary hijacking









I went for drinks with Reba last night, quite bar and we didn't go out until 11:00 and I was home at 3ish. No power drinking, the one-drink-per-hour rule was in affect. I had to do almost all the listening. 10% was her trip stuff, 90% divorce stories. I tried to be a good listener but I got a bit ADD'd at some point. When someone is no longer asking things about yourself, you wonder why.

I had a dead read on the lack of sexual synergy, almost from jump street. 'Send off' sex would have been a true compliment to any progress we've made but this is still a tender woman whom I doubt I've wowed yet. Don't get me wrong, it's all good. And she definitely needs this vacation and for that, I'm happy for her. I was just happy she took the time to join me especially with an early and sure to be exhaustive day ahead for her. I think I'll ask Sherri out tonight. I know I can knock the back out of her I can't wait 3 weeks for sex, yanno?

 

[lena410]

off course you can't wait...three weeks is forever at your age hehehehe

but wait i lost track. with which one you had sex the other day?

 

[i_love_muscle]

Well ... Randy, I wasn't aware you were juggling two ladies at once

You horndog

 

[T2 Trucker]

off course you can't wait...three weeks is forever at your age hehehehe

Ouch! When I was your age, 3 hours was a long time to wait

Well ... Randy, I wasn't aware you were juggling two ladies at once

You horndog

Now if I could just borrow a page out of your life and get 'em both here at the same time...

haha.

Well, I've scaled way back in here on personals (mainly my direct family). The Reba story, I thought was worth telling. The recent long gaps in between Sherri and I, not so much.

The cliff notes on Sherri is she's a plain-jane (which suits me just fine). We dated exclusively in '07 with it becoming a little more constricting than I wanted. I actually moved my clothes there one day with the intent of living with her. I never unpacked and after one night went back home to live.

It did its own set of damage and the dates were less frequent thereafter. Though Sherri is fairly unavoidable, luckily I remained in her good graces. Up until last night, I'd say we only went out 3, maybe 4 times in '08. Since 'future building' has been squashed, I knocked my own legs out from under me for sex on a consistent basis However, I'll accept it as fair trade to have my own day-to-day life in the non-committal fashion I've grown accustomed to. Ten years of living alone will do that to a fella, I suppose. I'm ok with that. It's a very uncomplicated life I live here. It's really become my 'favorite pair of jeans', so to speak.

 

[wishes]

fuck i had all quoted and pretty fucken yada yada yada catchup and closed the tab before it submitted.

Cock face!

Hope you are freezing all solid, because im hot and melting here

 

[T2 Trucker]

fuck fucken Cock face! Hope you are freezing all solid

You're trying to polarize me. Stop that. Shitty Monday at work or what ??

 

[Curvie Girlie]

I had to do almost all the listening. 10% was her trip stuff, 90% divorce stories. I tried to be a good listener but I got a bit ADD'd at some point. When someone is no longer asking things about yourself, you wonder why.

I had a dead read on the lack of sexual synergy, almost from jump street.

*Bunny sat in disappointed silence and wondered at the fate of Randy and Reba*

However, I'll accept it as fair trade to have my own day-to-day life in the non-committal fashion I've grown accustomed to. Ten years of living alone will do that to a fella, I suppose. I'm ok with that. It's a very uncomplicated life I live here. It's really become my 'favorite pair of jeans', so to speak.

Well it only took 11 months for ME to be happiest sleeping alone and with my own space and life uninterrupted by a S.O. The BF sort of hints without really saying it, that he wants me around more or maybe wants me to sleep over more nights--but with all my clothes at my house and my cat, and the fact that I like my house and bed better and live 45 minutes away, I go about my business anyway. I feel like we spend plenty of time together. Funny how things flip flop on me--now I feel like my ex must have felt when I wanted more time with him and HE was fine with out set-up. Huh.

 

[i_love_muscle]

I had to do almost all the listening. 10% was her trip stuff, 90% divorce stories. I tried to be a good listener but I got a bit ADD'd at some point. When someone is no longer asking things about yourself, you wonder why.

I had a dead read on the lack of sexual synergy, almost from jump street. 'Send off' sex would have been a true compliment to any progress we've made but this is still a tender woman whom I doubt I've wowed yet. Don't get me wrong, it's all good. And she definitely needs this vacation and for that, I'm happy for her. I was just happy she took the time to join me especially with an early and sure to be exhaustive day ahead for her. I think I'll ask Sherri out tonight. I know I can knock the back out of her I can't wait 3 weeks for sex, yanno?

Hmmm ... 90% divorce stories? I don't like that. Maybe she feels comfortable with you, but if that had been me, I would have kept the divorce out of the convo. This is supposed to be about you and her ... not you, her and the ex.

But not knowing what was said puts me at a distinct disadvantage.

As for the lack of sexual synergy, that's not a good sign. I am a firm believer in chemistry between two people, and that's something you can't get. It's either there or it isn't.

Since you seem to think this is all fine and dandy, then I'm assuming you're OK with this.

Let's see what happens when she gets back from her vacation Hopefully things will take a turn for the better!!!!

 

[Curvie Girlie]

This is supposed to be about you and her ... not you, her and the ex.

As for the lack of sexual synergy, that's not a good sign. I am a firm believer in chemistry between two people, and that's something you can't get. It's either there or it isn't.

Since you seem to think this is all fine and dandy, then I'm assuming you're OK with this.

M's a genius, through and through. Although I must say I have brought up the ex to my current probably a little too much--although it's only for a moment like, "whoa, you are SO MUCH COOLER than my ex!" Heh.

Don't "settle" Randy!

 

[T2 Trucker]

*Bunny sat in disappointed silence and wondered at the fate of Randy and Reba*



Well it only took 11 months for ME to be happiest sleeping alone and with my own space and life uninterrupted by a S.O. The BF sort of hints without really saying it, that he wants me around more or maybe wants me to sleep over more nights--but with all my clothes at my house and my cat, and the fact that I like my house and bed better and live 45 minutes away, I go about my business anyway. I feel like we spend plenty of time together. Funny how things flip flop on me--now I feel like my ex must have felt when I wanted more time with him and HE was fine with out set-up. Huh.

hmmm, 10 years now, well, I don't know if I've reclined to the position of 'happiest' when it comes to sleeping alone but I have certainly mastered the thought process to not even think about it.

I'll hang my hat until the song "You're Nobody 'Til Somebody Loves You" comes to fruition

Your 'more overnights', it's bound to happen, I think. You and the PZ seem to be on the high road. I respekt that reservedness in you, tho. That's a sexy quality.

Hmmm ... 90% divorce stories? I don't like that. Maybe she feels comfortable with you, but if that had been me, I would have kept the divorce out of the convo. This is supposed to be about you and her ... not you, her and the ex.

Of course you'd know your role I'll opt for the 'comfortable' stance. I think I've had that affect on her up to this point.

But not knowing what was said puts me at a distinct disadvantage.

My cliff notes would be: She's not over him nor the divorce. Bitter, I'd say.

I allowed myself to vacillate. I should have took sway of the topics, in retrospect, of course.

As for the lack of sexual synergy, that's not a good sign. I am a firm believer in chemistry between two people, and that's something you can't get. It's either there or it isn't.

Polar opposite from the previous week. I think subject matter was so one directional, it stayed that way all night. It was a real dick kill.

Since you seem to think this is all fine and dandy, then I'm assuming you're OK with this.

oh, I am. All I know at this stage in life is just take one day at a time. I can't think of any scenario where a woman could get me to come unglued. I'm very much a realist.

I'm capable of love, just incapable of falling in love.

Let's see what happens when she gets back from her vacation Hopefully things will take a turn for the better!!!!

We will dance beneath the sheets, again. oh yes, we will *beams*

M's a genius, through and through. Although I must say I have brought up the ex to my current probably a little too much--although it's only for a moment like, "whoa, you are SO MUCH COOLER than my ex!" Heh.

Don't "settle" Randy!

M is the M in Muthafuckin Cool.

Yanno, Val, I dunno if I'm for a rating, yet. It better be a good one like you laid down on PZ if I do get rated.

 

[i_love_muscle]

Of course you'd know your role I'll opt for the 'comfortable' stance. I think I've had that affect on her up to this point.

OK, we'll go with "comfortable"

My cliff notes would be: She's not over him nor the divorce. Bitter, I'd say.

If she's not over him, don't get unglued. PLEASE. If she's not over the divorce, steer clear. Moreover, bitter is DEFINITELY not something you want to be around. Period. Think about what you're doing ... are you going to be her friend or her lover? At this point in her life, there is no way you can be both.

Polar opposite from the previous week. I think subject matter was so one directional, it stayed that way all night. It was a real dick kill.

Dick kill isn't a good sign after 2-3 dates.

I'm capable of love, just incapable of falling in love.

Everybody is capable of falling in love if they let themselves

M is the M in Muthafuckin Cool.

Oh yeah ... I'm definitely the "M" in Muthafuckin Cool

 

[lena410]

yes i can't keep track!!!!

well while you wait for sex how are things? are you good with food and stuff hehe.
btw about the chemistry thing. it happened to me several times that chemistry increased with some people...or decreased for that matter with others. so who knows maybe dancing under the sheets (that should be the sight lol) might get more chemical.
a big hug to you

 

[Steve]

Damn Randy, your life sounds half complicated/half not. I assume finding 'the right woman' is your goal?

Big weekend for them there Steelers!

 

[T2 Trucker]

If she's not over him, don't get unglued. PLEASE. If she's not over the divorce, steer clear. Moreover, bitter is DEFINITELY not something you want to be around. Period. Think about what you're doing ... are you going to be her friend or her lover? At this point in her life, there is no way you can be both.

I'm not a mental waif (and not implying you thought I was) when it comes to emotions where the opposite sex is concerned. I've been rightly primed and conditioned that way.

What one would consider a hindrance is actually my better attribute, least way as a defense mechanism. My weak points work to my advantage. As conversationalist, I'm fairly skilled at. I try to pay attention to the little things, blah blah blah. I can usually smooth my way in, given the chance. 'Post-smooth' is the slippery slope for me.

I know eventually I have to address my misgivings of my current life status. This is very difficult. It's very unattractive. I generally lose my steam.

Now don't get all downturned over this. Self-worth is measured on several different levels. Failing to recapture my working pride in '07 was devastating for me. It wasn't due to lack of effort, either. However, it's still my 'here and now'. My day-to-day life has adjusted to its limits but it offers up nothing to a woman of possible futures. It's a separate confidence issue for me and me alone.

So how is it an attribute? Well knowing the atypical results, I never get my hopes too high. It makes for a much safer landing. I'll give Sherri credit. She was ok with my situation. That's when I pulled back, tho. I don't 'love' her and I don't want to merge two incomes just for the sake of pattern sex. I love being around her and I love her sex but I love coming home and not answering to anyone much more.

Oh, I know, I can almost hear your fingertip flurry on the keyboard now. "Fuck the superficial bitches" "You don't need them or that". I would digress, tho. You and I both know a loving couple can 'get through anything' on paper and verse but the reality is the implements of security is a very fair part of the equation.

I could never respect myself to be just a penis laid across the back in exchange for a comfortable life at my lady's expense. If Reba (or any other secure woman) and I progress and offered to send me to go to school to be a paralegal to gain employ within her firm, that I could except. A house boy, never. This wouldn't create a binder of my affection, only insult it.

Dick kill isn't a good sign after 2-3 dates.

And an epic waste of a little blue pill

Everybody is capable of falling in love if they let themselves

I suppose so *sigh*

Oh yeah ... I'm definitely the "M" in Muthafuckin Cool

And no one shall unseat that 'M"

how are things? are you good with food and stuff hehe.

I did terrible yesterday. Way over in calories. I was so happy I got in two 90 minute outdoor walks last week when the weather got up, since then, I've been just fucking up royally.

I'm such an assclown for staring at that treadmill and not using it. I'm so fucking weak right now.

I assume finding 'the right woman' is your goal?

She better find me. I don't go out of my way to find them, that's for sure. It would be a pleasure but not really a goal. But I have low standards, anyway Nothing like broadening the 'right' criteria to expedite the process *grins*

Big weekend for them there Steelers!

I trust we have your Keystone allegiance ?? At the very least, I hope you knock down a few brews amongst good friends and family and enjoy the game.

 

[wishes]

Hey T2, i left a pic here of my tan lines right after the Taupo cycle race (im sure i posted em in your diary). But they seem to have disappeared, can you or anyone else find them? Would have been after 28th Nov, and before xmas :/

 

[Steve]

She better find me. I don't go out of my way to find them, that's for sure. It would be a pleasure but not really a goal. But I have low standards, anyway Nothing like broadening the 'right' criteria to expedite the process *grins*

Haha, gold classic right there!

I trust we have your Keystone allegiance ?? At the very least, I hope you knock down a few brews amongst good friends and family and enjoy the game.

Keystone allegiance it is, and a few beers will certainly be kicked back.

Enjoy the game!

 

[Curvie Girlie]

Your 'more overnights', it's bound to happen, I think. You and the PZ seem to be on the high road. I respect that reservedness in you, tho. That's a sexy quality.

Once (or twice or continuously for a year) bitten, twice shy.

I didn't call him or see him at all yesterday, not on purpose, I just felt no need. I DO hope he doesn't expect daily contact.

I think subject matter was so one directional, it stayed that way all night. It was a real dick kill.

No shit, huh?

I'm capable of love, just incapable of falling in love.

Bullshit--you fell for Kerri, haha!

It better be a good one like you laid down on PZ if I do get rated.

Somehow I doubt Reba will be calling you a "Down Ass Beezey, fah sheezey."

 

[Curvie Girlie]

Damn Randy, your life sounds half complicated/half not.

That's a very good way of putting it!

I know eventually I have to address my misgivings of my current life status. This is very difficult. It's very unattractive.

I never get my hopes too high. It makes for a much safer landing.

And an epic waste of a little blue pill

I've been just fucking up royally.

I'm such an assclown for staring at that treadmill and not using it. I'm so fucking weak right now.

I have low standards, anyway

Gawd, how depressing! You're turning me off!

CHEER up, Randy!!!! Stop that bi-polar-on-the-low-dip talk and smoke a J, shit, do SOMETHING my vulva is shriveling up


LOL! Sorry, just trying to make you laugh