This time it's FOR GOOD

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Day 1
Hi,
I stepped on the scale this morning. My starting point is 209 pounds.
That's just a number.
Hah.
I can do this.
Suzy

Do I have the guts to take a Before picture ??
 
Hey Suzy, welcome to the forum! Starting a diary is a great idea. What is your goal? And how are you planning on doing it? Calorie counting, more exercise, bit of both? xo
 
Thanks very much Sunflower. :)

My outcome is 160 pounds.
It's not just the number... I'm 55 and live a pretty crazy life.
I NEED to be fit and in shape, for so many reasons!!!!

What I found is, I know what works for me (food, physical activity, etc) and yet I didn't DO IT consistently.
I don't have much support, which I feel is the missing element.
This is hard to do, especially at the beginning.
It gets easier once you are over the initial hump and have some positive momentum going.
At least that's been my experience.
Hope you have a great day !!
 
"If hunger is not the problem, then eating is not the solution."

I read that in one of the posts here today.
I need to put that one up in bright lights in my home!!!!!

:rolleyes:
 
Hi, Suzy & welcome to the forum. I love that saying! Food is nutrition. It's our medicine. We'll be your support group. This is a very positive & friendly place $ I'm glad you have joined us. Cheers, Cate.
 
Day 3
Hi there,
Thanks Cate for your kind message.

I did better yesterday and my body weight is down a little bit.
The issue is the rest of my life sucks in certain respects, and I can get discouraged.
Eating to make myself feel better - or not getting any activity in, which for me is equally bad - makes it WORSE.
Intellectually I KNOW THIS !!!
Yet I keep doing it (or not doing it, with respect to exercise).

What about the other way around ?
Eating better and using my body physically are ways that are fully WITHIN MY CONTROL, to make myself feel BETTER.
To make my life BETTER. To make ME better.

Maybe I have more ability to influence what's going on than I think.

Suzy
 
Day 9
Still at 209 pounds :(
Trying not to get hung up on the number, which comes as no surprise.

I travelled to Montreal for 4 days and came back last night.
I got a lot more exercise--worked out on the treadmill at the hotel every morning; did a lot of walking around the city.
It feels SO GOOD to move more !!
I ABSOLUTELY NEED more activity, day-to-day.

However I also ate more.
Someone local made the dining arrangements, with a focus on good local restaurants (with alcohol).
Every meal - breakfast, lunch, dinner - was booked for us !
I did make a point of ordering a green salad to start.
However my usual meal - green salad as a meal, with a protein - was virtually impossible to do.

Just have to move on and not beat myself up about it, I guess.
 
Its never worth beating yourself up over diet transgressions - its the most counterproductive thing you can do.

We are a similar size and a similar age - lets do this together. :grouphug:
 
Day 10
Thanks Omega. OK you're on !!

Weighed myself this morning. I did in fact gain a pound 210.
Fine. It is not a mystery as to how that happened.

The question is, what am I going to do about it.
What will I do differently TODAY.

Today is all I've got in order to solve this problem, really.

Walking.
I live a high-stress, sedentary lifestyle. I KNOW this !!
To make my health - my #1 PRIORITY.
AHEAD of my crazy job and the family I work for. Ahead of my mom's health. Ahead of everyone who is pushing for my time and attention.
Surely to God I can get out and walk 3 times a day.
Okay.
 
You are still lighter than me :)

Get out walking if you can - its a good way to escape some of the stress.
Your weight may go back down if you manage to get out.

Sorry you are worried about your mother's health - my mother is 94 and I'm her carer so I guess we have something there in common too.
 
Day 11
Hi,
Today it's 210.4 (sigh)
I did get out 3 times for a walk yesterday.
Where I fell down - i.e. no self control - was dinner and what I did after that.
I bought a green salad and toasted chicken sandwich takeout.
The sandwich was large enough for 2 meals. They cut it in half.
I'd planned to eat half, and bring the other half for lunch today. Instead I ate the whole thing.
Then I turned on the TV set, and started eating peanut butter with honey out of the jar.
Wow this is embarrassing.
However the more I become conscious of what I'm doing, the easier it is to change my behaviour.
THIS is the hard part, establishing positive momentum.
It WILL get easier. I know this.
 
Well done for getting out walking.

I've found I've been more controlled with my worst food since I've started listing the really sinful stuff in a challenge thread - for everyone to see when I go crazy. Its the only thing that stopped me eating chocolate on Monday or Tuesday.



Having said that - at this stage I'd do the sandwich thing and not even feel guilty about it
:eek2:
 
However the more I become conscious of what I'm doing, the easier it is to change my behaviour.
THIS is the hard part, establishing positive momentum.
It WILL get easier. I know this.
Stick with this SuzyQ. It's hard to change our mindset, but it can be done xo
 
Day 12
Hi everyone,
This morning I was at 209.2 (down from the day before)
More importantly, I ate a normal dinner last night then stopped. Yippee !!!

Exercise is an issue at the moment. Exercise and stress.
We are closing a financing for a land deal at my work. I'm the VP Finance for my company. Started there in November.
The closing is tomorrow.
Our lawyer on the file turned out to be a disaster, to put it mildly.
Errors, bad attitude, lack of accountability - I've never seen anything like this in 23 years of banking, which is what I did before.
While I plan to NEVER use her again, and our shareholders agree, we still have to get this one to the finish line.
We have to close tomorrow, as March 31 is also our year end.
I find it stressful being under the gun. We were supposed to get it done earlier in the week, and there were delays.
Anyways, almost there now !!
:)
 
Day 14
Still at 209.2
My mantra is: 49 POUNDS IN 49 WEEKS !

Last night driving home after year-end I stopped at a grocery superstore around 9 pm.
This is my crazy brain. They had Lindt chocolate bars on sale, the good ones, a 100 g bar for CAD 2.98 each - minimum 2.
And a maximum of 4. First I took 4, then was able to put 1 back. So I bought 3.
Thinking "this is such a great price, I'll have a supply on hand and eat 1 or 2 squares per day". So logical.
???!!!!!!!
Of course I ate 2 of the 3 bars last night :eek:
Have I EVER kept a supply on hand and eaten 1 or 2 squares per day??

Today I started my mission in earnest.
Walked to the grocery store after my RMT appointment and bought a dozen organic eggs and curly parsley.
Made scrambled eggs with the parsley, and fresh fruit. Something I like AND works well for my body.

Happy Saturday !!
:hat:
 
Happy Saturday - I hope that your stress reduced after the date deadline that has been impacting your work so severely.

OK so you ate 2 of the bars of chocolate - but at least you didn't buy all 4. Also the 2 bars that you ate didn't increase your weight. I can see some definite pluses there... I am terrible with food once it is in the house too... I could never eat one or two squares of chocolate and save the rest for another day. For me it is much easier to not have any.

Well done on the walk and the healthy meal. This will get you where you want to be.:hurray:
 
Glad that deadline is over SuzyQ. Some people can have chocolate in the house & just have 2 squares & then others have to eat the lot. Most in the forum are the eat the lot sort of people. Maybe only buy 1 next time. I can't have raisins in the house. I kid myself that they are good for me & I have trouble stopping!
Hope you are having a lovely weekend after all that stress. Cheers, Cate.
 
Thank you Omega and Cate :cheers2:

I wish I could say we polished off year-end.... yet our loan didn't fully close !!!!! Our lawyer called me at 5:05 pm on Friday to say she "couldn't" get the funds to us in time. We closed the year with the funds from the bank in her possession !!!! WHO does this??! Our CEO has had enough. He will be on the phone to the managing partner of that firm come Monday morning.

In any event, it is truly a weekend off. Life is returning to normal thank God.

Reading the posts here is helping A LOT. I went this afternoon to a chain called M&Ms, which sells quality prepared frozen foods. When I took the weight off the first time, I actually used a food delivery service for the first while, as it was the only way I could get a wide variety of vegetables until I got organized enough to cook. I tried them again recently. They were horrible having changed owners. Also it's expensive :(

M&Ms is a step up from Lean Cuisine and other individual frozen meals. Which is to say, the food TASTES GOOD, not a lot of chemicals, and the price is reasonable enough that I can do this longer-term. I really want to start cooking again eventually. Dinner tonight was chicken teriyaki with rice and vegetables, and it was quite satisfying.

I'm starting to think this might not be so bad?? 49 pounds in 49 weeks is actually starting to sound doable. Keeping it that way - well, that's different. But one thing at a time.
 
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