kaplooie
New member
I'll stick with it this time, because I'm worth it. *flips flowing waves of golden hair back*
You know what my biggest problem is about being fat? It's that I don't have a problem being fat. I don't feel down on myself, I don't feel like people treat me differently or poorly because of my weight and it doesn't limit me in any way physically. All this means is that I have less incentive to get skinny. Sure, I look like hell when I look in the mirror, but I've never beent he type to judge people on their physical appearances so when I look at myself I see a beautiful woman and not a fat middle aged office drone. Sometimes healthy self esteem can work against you I suppose. Maybe this means I'm a narcissist.
At any rate, I'm almost at my all time high. After I had my son almost 10 years ago I was around 260, this morning I weighed in at 250. Around the 4th of July I weighed in at 257 and really cut back on my beer consumption. I have not as of yet increased my physical activity because...well...because I work a seditary job and I'm a lazy fuck off. I have a polar heart rate monitor, treadmill, a gazelle, free weights, resistence bands, and body by jake bun and thigh rocker, perfect pushups, ankle weights, a medicine ball, and tons of exercise dvd's but I lack the motivation to use any of them. I also have a gym membership to a facility with a basketball court, running track, weight and cardio rooms, a swimming pool and sauna and tons of cardio classes...total lack of motivation.
As far as diet goes, for the last 6 months I've been living the life of hell. I've been pretty busy at work so we've been eating take out. Also, my kitchen is a disgusting disaster due to my busy work schedule. I can't cook anything in there, and there is a strange smell that tells me I shouldn't consume anything that comes out of there either. The dishes are piled up from the sink the microwave which is 100% of the counter space including the stove top. Yep, total lazy fat slob here (with no dishwasher...I just wanted to make that clear, it all has to be done by hand). I spend most of my time in my office anyways which is clear on the other side of the house so I don't have to smell it
Thankfully after Saturday a lot of my work related stress will be gone. Tonight I have a business dinner, tomorrow will be a stressful day but no business related meals however, saturday and sunday both have meals with collegues (one of them a buffet style brunch) and some pretty stressful meetings along with a few really intense presentations. HOWEVER, on Sunday I can relax a little, clean my house a lot and get some exercise in. Before it all starts again on Monday. When I factor my health into my work responsibility I sometimes think I need to retire from the medical field to regain control over my own health. Sometimes I literally don't have time to go pee much less get some physical activity in. My schedule has been working every waking hour, at the clinic from 7am to 7pm and then finishing my reports and paperwork in the home office. I got a promotion between now and the last time I was posting here, and someone higher up then me resigned and instead of rehiring that position the big bosses decided my position and one other position would absorb the job duties...ya...wow...and it didn't come with much of a pay raise. But, they appreciate me more, call me all day long everyday (in fact I'm on a teleconference right now, paying close attention ), and I get to travel...even more. This year so far I flew enough air miles to qualify for AK Airlines MVP by May. I was pretty proud of myself. I got to board early and wait around for everybody else to board and when I ordered 3 or 4 drinks on a 5 hour flight the flight attendents didn't give me any lip.
Typically in their first diary post most people here lay out their plans for success. I'm just hoping I don't fail. I'm hoping that coming back here will keep me in the mindframe of weight loss. My plan is small incremental changes. Less carbs (because right now carbs are about 99.99% of my diet), more lean protein, more veg, HOME COOKED FOOD. I need to make space in my office for my gazelle so I can get some physical activity when I'm teleconferencing. I'm usually a calorie counter, which has been shown to be the only real way to lose weight (calories in vs calories out) so I'm going to get online today and work out the numbers. How many cals I can eat and how many I need to burn. Alright, I'm going to cut myself off here and go and work out my numbers and come back and post them.
You know what my biggest problem is about being fat? It's that I don't have a problem being fat. I don't feel down on myself, I don't feel like people treat me differently or poorly because of my weight and it doesn't limit me in any way physically. All this means is that I have less incentive to get skinny. Sure, I look like hell when I look in the mirror, but I've never beent he type to judge people on their physical appearances so when I look at myself I see a beautiful woman and not a fat middle aged office drone. Sometimes healthy self esteem can work against you I suppose. Maybe this means I'm a narcissist.
At any rate, I'm almost at my all time high. After I had my son almost 10 years ago I was around 260, this morning I weighed in at 250. Around the 4th of July I weighed in at 257 and really cut back on my beer consumption. I have not as of yet increased my physical activity because...well...because I work a seditary job and I'm a lazy fuck off. I have a polar heart rate monitor, treadmill, a gazelle, free weights, resistence bands, and body by jake bun and thigh rocker, perfect pushups, ankle weights, a medicine ball, and tons of exercise dvd's but I lack the motivation to use any of them. I also have a gym membership to a facility with a basketball court, running track, weight and cardio rooms, a swimming pool and sauna and tons of cardio classes...total lack of motivation.
As far as diet goes, for the last 6 months I've been living the life of hell. I've been pretty busy at work so we've been eating take out. Also, my kitchen is a disgusting disaster due to my busy work schedule. I can't cook anything in there, and there is a strange smell that tells me I shouldn't consume anything that comes out of there either. The dishes are piled up from the sink the microwave which is 100% of the counter space including the stove top. Yep, total lazy fat slob here (with no dishwasher...I just wanted to make that clear, it all has to be done by hand). I spend most of my time in my office anyways which is clear on the other side of the house so I don't have to smell it
Thankfully after Saturday a lot of my work related stress will be gone. Tonight I have a business dinner, tomorrow will be a stressful day but no business related meals however, saturday and sunday both have meals with collegues (one of them a buffet style brunch) and some pretty stressful meetings along with a few really intense presentations. HOWEVER, on Sunday I can relax a little, clean my house a lot and get some exercise in. Before it all starts again on Monday. When I factor my health into my work responsibility I sometimes think I need to retire from the medical field to regain control over my own health. Sometimes I literally don't have time to go pee much less get some physical activity in. My schedule has been working every waking hour, at the clinic from 7am to 7pm and then finishing my reports and paperwork in the home office. I got a promotion between now and the last time I was posting here, and someone higher up then me resigned and instead of rehiring that position the big bosses decided my position and one other position would absorb the job duties...ya...wow...and it didn't come with much of a pay raise. But, they appreciate me more, call me all day long everyday (in fact I'm on a teleconference right now, paying close attention
), and I get to travel...even more. This year so far I flew enough air miles to qualify for AK Airlines MVP by May. I was pretty proud of myself. I got to board early and wait around for everybody else to board and when I ordered 3 or 4 drinks on a 5 hour flight the flight attendents didn't give me any lip. Typically in their first diary post most people here lay out their plans for success. I'm just hoping I don't fail. I'm hoping that coming back here will keep me in the mindframe of weight loss. My plan is small incremental changes. Less carbs (because right now carbs are about 99.99% of my diet), more lean protein, more veg, HOME COOKED FOOD. I need to make space in my office for my gazelle so I can get some physical activity when I'm teleconferencing. I'm usually a calorie counter, which has been shown to be the only real way to lose weight (calories in vs calories out) so I'm going to get online today and work out the numbers. How many cals I can eat and how many I need to burn. Alright, I'm going to cut myself off here and go and work out my numbers and come back and post them.
Poor you, i hope you take it easy on the days off
