Bedsy the MeGAathLetIC! I'm sure it will happen!!! Just keep on plugging away. actually, all joking aside, if you step back and look at the difference between what you can do now compared to when you started...its just because you are improving in tiny little incretments each time, its more difficult to notice. A bit like when you see someone for the first time in 6 months and you've lost 30lbs - they are like WOW and you are like...hmm, I don't see the difference!
You know I think you're right.
After skipping the gym all weekend which I felt really guilty about, I actually went back today and to my surprise, I smashed my cardio program and even had to put it up a level to get my heart rate up around where it was supposed to be.
It could be for any number of reasons. It could be because I was rested. It could be because I distributed my calories more evenly through the day and actually had more energy closer to my workout. It could be because I am actually getting better!
I notice great inconsistencies when I am working out.
Some days, like today, I am an absolute machine but I anticipate that tomorrow, I'll be lucky to get through my cardio program on the lower level that the trainer set out for me, and barely scrape through my weights session.
I can't understand it.
I mean to be perfectly honest, the whole exercising thing confuses the hell out of me.
Work out every day, don't work out every day, work out to push yourself beyond what you think you can do, don't push yourself...argh.
I wish I could be sure that it was just enough to listen to my body and when it feels like I can pound it out hard and fast go for it, and on the days when I feel like I am going to die if I put the resistance up another level than what I was on before, that I don't have to.
Having said that though, I am aiming for some kind of consistency.
I'd like to think that I could run for 15-20mins straight on an incline in a nice long stride, then hop on the elliptical crank the resistance to 9-10 and push out 15mins above 130kms and then get on that freaking god-awful bike and do 15mins at resistance 5-6 staying above 80kms.
That, I feel is a pretty respectable workout for someone of my stature.
And I'd like to think that as I lose weight, it will easier to get there and even beyond that.
For now, I guess I will just keep doing what I am doing because at this stage it is 45-50mins of cardio more than I wasn't doing before!!!
Food today was excellent.
I had a piece of wholewheat toast with 1 portion of laughing cow cheese, 50g of shaved ham and sliced tomato 3 times throughout the day.
In between I had fruit, and for dinner I had left over chicken chasseur and veggies which brings me up to around 900 calories, which isn't enough, but I will make sure I have some kind of yoghurt/fruit snack tonight to make up the rest.
Today I also noticed that I was back to feeling good about my diet (or lifestyle change) as well.
I've been struggling the last week or so to stay motivated and the fear of throwing in the towel can weigh really heavily on you!
Today was the first time in a while that I felt free from that constant state of hyper-awareness and being on guard against my tendency to binge eat.
I don't know how long it will last, but as if now, I am feeling good.
because they were leftover from a meeting and sitting in my office kitchen 
