Of course a kiss is better than a slap.
You sound like a weary man who could do with a long night's sleep and an hour two to himself, out on the trail. I hope you use this next week to recharge your batteries so you have a bit of oomph in reserve for the next busy patch.
I woulda said you already changed those spots. I don't suppose it would hurt them to have little circles of family challenge around their edges and I don't think your old wlself would turn his back on them either.
Even though I know the busyness in my life brings down my own health, I still see that as being a challenge I'm working on - I don't want to be without it. I suppose I think we all need roles and purposes outside our individuality. We definitely need both.
As you know I certainly relate to anyone who's finding the juggling awkward. Any added ball is going to disrupt whatever rhythm's there, and if we're thrown extra's that we haven't practiced on, there'll definitely be some dropped. We can pick some of them up again though and keep practicing. As far as crossroads go - all our possible roads now are variations on something better than the one we had in 2005. No?
And as for me, I just managed a much better day. I worked plenty. I paced myself a little better than I sometimes do though. I tried and made sure that I grabbed myself a cup of tea at recess, at lunch and immediately after school. And I even sat down for a little while at recess. I'm pretty sure it made a difference to my feeling that I could keep on being reasonable, and wasn't already stretched to my limit by the time I got home. I'm just talking about doing something really obviously helpful, which I none the less, mostly don't even think about doing. So I'm thinking for the future, I
do need to think about doing it! And I need to remember it, and I need to actually do it.
Wow, I really feel my mind resisting that thought, despite how obviously right it is. I've seen a little sheet up in another school where I worked, and someone put it up in the ladies loos at my current school recently, and I just thought, yeah, true ... but didn't see the relevance to myself. It is relevant though. (I don't remember enough of it to find it on-line, but basically it says we know it's easy to stand with our arms out straight and our hands level with our shoulders for 10 seconds but the longer we do it for without a break, the more it becomes agonizing instead of easy - this also applies to other activities which cause stress - so take breaks!) I sit at my computer and get absorbed and don't change my posture (not good for my joints), and stare uninterruptedly at the screen, or at what I'm writing (not good for my eyes) and I go from one activity to another at school and don't feel obliged to take little time outs. At school, I've been feeling obliged to just cram as much in as I can but when I think about it I know that's bound to be counter productive. It's my natural inclination to do things that way but it needs a little tweaking. It's probably important enough to go onto my list of daily goals I made when I joined here. New daily goal. "Take little breaks for the purpose of having more endurance, more productivity and better health!!"
I changed from coffee to tea these last 2-3 days because I that whereas tea and coffee both have caffeine in them (which I usually feel in need of), tea also has some other component, which helps us feel more focused, whereas coffee can make lead to more of a jittery feeling. I don't know if that's true - but I personally have been feeling better with the extra tea, and less coffee. I was scared to skip the breakfast coffee at first but today I even had tea at breakfast and I felt fine. The first day, I was actually a bit resistant to the idea of switching at all while I was feeling tired, but the idea of feeling more focused was pretty appealing, so I gave it a go.
I saw an article in a printed newspaper about possibly being good for losing weight too - as well as definitely being good for cardiovascular health. I'm very skeptical about taking things to lose weight - that link isn't about that, but I might try some - even if it's just to add a bit of variety - or maybe because I'm going to drink something anyway, and if one kind is more helpful to my heart than another, then I guess it could be a change worth making.
Anyway, in the end, today I did get a short walk in after work, and I only ate at meal times! For me, right now, that's a good result. One day at a time.
