This is the time

[Eldaweesda]

Thanks Jaicelle. It has been important to me to make my food balanced (at least most of the time - I don't think today's a great example!), because that makes it a lot easier for me to manage my appetite.

Oh that mudcake. You know the first few times I decided I didn't want to opt out of family birthday cakes, I was actually having a small piece of carrot cake about 1 inch high or something else very tokenistic. Today I just sliced a couple of pieces of cake about half the width of the others, and about a third shorter than some of the long ones. And then I took the smaller of those two and oh my gosh it did taste wonderful. My desire wasn't exactly neutralized by food before and after the way I planned because the cake was at a different time, and because I was so busy that eating was rather rushed anyway. Still on the other hand, I did take time for a hamburger earlier, I did eat some grapes and drink some diet coke after - plus there wasn't much cake left by then anyway! So I didn't feel tempted to eat more at the time. And later in the day I figured I needed to work out the damage, and the first numbers I saw were for a mudcake (from the shop where I bought it), divided into 12 slices - 685 calories per slice!!! Far out!! Well I divided our cake into 16, plus mine was smaller etc. I've written it down as 260. But equally I kept my dinner fairly small, because I actually don't know how many calories that mud cake really cost ...
And here the other end of the spectrum. Something that tastes like cheesecake, takes just as long to eat and it's 71 calories!!

We don't have that many flavours of that brand here yet. The flavours are around in other brands I think and still quite reasonable calories, though not as low. I haven't tried those because I was always content with the diet one Nestle make. I can totally see how these things can be cravings breakers.

I was excited to see the lower number on the scale this week. I reckoned I'd lost, but I thought more likely a third of that. I was very prepared to be waiting more than a month to get to the number I'm hanging out for. Of course it maybe that I still do have to wait that long!! And I sort of think it's a worry getting pleased by the scales because they can be so fickle, and equally give me a bad day or two when the weigh in result is unexpected - but in the opposite direction.

Sunday 16th March 2008

Breakfast
Normal 8:00 Bread a bit lighter. 454 calories.

Lunch 1:30 30 gm wholemeal breadroll. (65). ~ 110 gm heartsmart beefmince (165). Lunch - 230 calories.

Birthday cake: Marbelled mudcake (260). Handful grapes and blueberries (95)

Dinner 6:45 40 gm wholemeal breadroll (90) toasted open faced, with 100 gm tin John West light tuna tempters - oven-dried tomato & basil, (79). 35 gm snapper (from fish and chips - with batter removed) (? 61). Capsicum (20), baby carrots (20). Lowfat no sugar cheesecake yoghurt - 71. Dinner - 341.

Total - 1380 calories.

That tuna is so yummy. Flavourwise, mouthstretching wise, that combo is so satisfying.

On another point I am totally guessing the calories for the carrots tonight. I will try and hunt them down. However my usual source is strange. I have always wondered about the 40 calories for a small carrot which is what it says. But I weighed the carrots - a small one is about 100 gm. Oh well. Only now tonight I'm having baby carrots. They are very small some of them so I thought maybe 5 calories each as the book says was ok even though so much less. But today I looked more closely and yeah, Danica McKellar I am not, but I there is a piece of ordinary math I do repeatedly these days. This is something like, 100 gm gives 40 calories, therefore 10 gm gives 4 calories. And then again if a baby carrot is 30 gm and yields 5 calories - 20gms more for 1 calorie, this must mean there is something intrinsically different about the composition of baby carrots and small carrots. Like they are made of a different kind of food... Maybe they are ...

Exercise: I guess none. Then again I might say that I have fetched and carried walked and lifted and dragged and squatted and lifted and walked and walked for many hours and have a somewhat aching body and quite noticeable weariness and therefore maybe have burned enough calories for today to be acceptable as far as that goes. I really could have done with a nice swim, or stretching routine though.

Felici, Great job on your calorie counting. I have tried keeping tabs on what I eat but it usually only lasts a couple of days. I envy you for being so organized and driven. Sounds like you got enough exercise just by running around here and there! Everyone needs a day off too! Have a great day

 

[felici]

Glad your big day went well! One may not get any formal exercise on those days, but there's sure a lot of running around.

Also, I'm with you on the carrots. I actually like the big ones better, though I do still buy the babies sometimes for convenience when I want something to shove in my bag and eat at school. I so wish the vending machines would ever have anything really healthy in them. A Nature Valley Oat and Honey bar is about as close as they get--the only plain nuts they have are oversalted peanuts. So I really have to bring in all my snacks.

Sophie

Hi Sophie!! Yes I was running around and doing lots of lifting as well! We took a heap of drinks with us on the picnic and everything had to be shifted many many times! Afterwards I had a heap of muscles complaining about the extra exercise.

In the past I used to look for prepared snacks - at one stage for myself and more recently for my children but everything I've ever checked has been over on either sugar percentages or fat. Fortunately, when I go to work the snacks I see are usually little children sharing fruit, so it's easy for me to be a fruit snacker too. (Well, also I quite often rock up somewhere and find out it's someone's birthday or staffroom pigout morning tea! At those times I'm glad I have something to eat with me then too - it's so much easier to say "No" when my mouth is already full!! )

Felici, Great job on your calorie counting. I have tried keeping tabs on what I eat but it usually only lasts a couple of days. I envy you for being so organized and driven. Sounds like you got enough exercise just by running around here and there! Everyone needs a day off too! Have a great day

I have only recently started consistently counting calories. The attempts I made in the past were either quick checks that I didn't plan on keeping up with, or big efforts that I wasn't motivated to continue.

Now I'm more motivated because I've had an off again on again struggle these past few months to deal with the consequences of times when I couldn't just bore ahead with my usual plans, known local shops and foods etc. I know this isn't something I have to deal with right now, but equally it's not a skill I can start acquiring on the first day of my next vacation!! and the consequences of my past down time were a lot longer lasting than I wanted.

Also, now it's a lot easier for me. This is partly because I stopped trying to get the numbers off line or from records I was keeping on my computer, and started looking them up over and over again in the same little RL calorie counter book, with the occasional online excursion. This way I'm actually committing a lot more to my own memory, and I have something more portable.

Sometimes I wish fitday and similar online calculators worked more easily for me because I sometimes think it would be nice to see the totals of macronutrients. When I first looked at them though they seemed to me to have a different agenda to what mine was then, and for the food I chose, they made things more complex instead of simpler. However, I think my original food guide keeps things usually balanced for me. Maybe once the calories is less effortful, I will try to learn another bit, like salt or something.

Now I see you said "tabs on what you eat", not calories. Whether or not you do any other thing with it, writing down what you eat, as often as you are able, seems to be an extremely helpful aid to controlling eating for pretty much everyone.

I really resisted doing it for a long time, but in fact changing my eating from unhealthy to healthy did pretty much coincide with the time I started writing it down and kept going with that. I didn't add all the details I now include and I didn't add calorie counting till much later.



Monday 17 March 2008

Breakfast: As yesterday. Breakfast - 450 calories.

Lunch: 12:15 25 gm beef jerky. 7 Vive light wholemeal crackers. Lunch - 275 calories.

Emergency supplies from the glove box in my car. I left my school bag and food at home!! Thank goodness I at least had the glove box food, because even with that I ended up feeling much hungrier and ready for a monster huge meal later on than I would normally.

Snack: 200 gm diet apricot yoghurt (84), 30 gm wholemeal bread roll (75) with plum and cinnamon jam (9) and low fat cottage cheese (20). Snack - 188 calories.

Dinner: 7:30 150 gm (cooked weight), lean grilled lamb (244), 25 gm wholemeal roll (55), 2 slices grilled eggplant (10), brushed with EVO oil (40), 2 grilled mushrooms (4), 1 small tomato (20), 1/2 bundle fresh m/w asparagus (10). Salad veges 1 floret broccoli (10), 1/2 lebanese cucumber (5), 1/8 cabbage (15?), 1/2 capsicum (15), celery (5), 1 radish (2). 2 fresh dates (103). Dinner - 553 calories.

I love those teeny breadrolls! I put a piece of my lamb in it with one of the mushrooms and it was like the most delicious hamburger. It doesn't seem mini. Maybe because I have so much other bulky food still to get through after that.

My eggplant was bitter last night!! That has never happened before. I heard someone say recently that the reason we're not told to salt the eggplant any more is that they have less seeds in them now, but last night's did have a lot of seeds and boy were they bitter!! Afterwards I just felt like I'd had a full on bunch of flavours through my mouth (which is a good thing), but if I can find out how to choose the non-seedy ones in future then I sure will! (I'm not putting the salt on - too much bother, too much salt and I don't even like the supersalty taste I always ended up with.)

Snack: 10:00 Diet cheesecake yoghurt (71).

Total - 1530 calories.

Exercise: 40-45 minutes swimming pool.

I made a mistake with my snack and it was a little heavy for pre-swimming, so I got off to a slow start. It came together after a while though and I can feel my breathing improving again. I did some non-swimming warm ups then 5 slow laps, then 3 breaststroke, freestyle, backstroke lap sets. 14 laps total. It's still slow and not a lot of swimming compared to a swimmer! However I feel great afterwards - my back ache goes away, my legs are worn out and I've been breathing hard for ages so I feel well exercised!!

I think the new phone has finally arrived! Not to my house! cuss: telcos), but at least to my state!! I need to go collect it and load it up with some music and hopefully I can use it on the elliptical today. Well, it's getting late - maybe tomorrow though.

 

[bikinibound]

Hi Felici,
We run into each other in so many other diaries, I thought I'd pop by yours and say hello.

So according to my rough calculations, it looks like you've lost about 66lbs or 30kg. Is that right? Well done!

It sounds like your family keeps you very busy. I like your sense of humour about it, though.

I have heard teachers lounges are often full of naughty food, so you are wise to bring healthier things to eat so it makes the sinfully delicious stuff easier to avoid.

 

[felici]

Hello!! Great to see you here!

Well you've put your finger on a delicate point regarding what my overall loss has been. I've always been someone to spoil the story by making it accurate, so I did type you 4 paragraphs explaining that I was using a different scale when I started here, than I am now, and that it was impossible to be sure of the exact difference between the two, but that I guess it to be about 3.5 kg - more than 7 lb. However, at 4 paragraphs I still wasn't finished explaining that, so this paragraph is the condensed version. I'm a bit cross that I can't just say straight out what it is, but I reckon right now at ~67.5 kg I'm down about 25 kg (55 lb), from my start weight. As to how much I've lost - well I lost 26 kg and then with all the little regain's and little reloses - I reckon maybe about 40 kg altogether!! Pity about the regains in between huh - I'd be done with losing by now if it was just the losses that counted.

I did have my own version of a ticker up for ages, but when I was not sure how to record my current weight in relation to the old one I thought I would rest the whole thing until I got back to the old low. I didn't think that would take this long!! When I restart it I will convert it to the numbers I use now, because I believe these ones are more accurate anyway.

I did look and feel a whole lot different at my start weight, so I'm pretty happy at my change so far. It's hard to know what's the weight I ought to be, but if I lost another 10 kg (22 lb), then I would get a BMI of 24.5.

 

[felici]

Tuesday 18 March, 2008.

Breakfast: 9:00 Slice wholemeal toast (70) with plum and cinnamon jam (15). Weetbix (107) with soy milk (122) and tinned peaches (50). A boiled egg (70) and tomato (20) Coffee (5) Breakfast – 459 calories.

Snack 11:15 Small apple (50).

Lunch 2:00 2 small wholemeal bread rolls (135) with ~ 110 gm low fat cottage cheese (116). One with some capsicum (15), mushroom (3), and an olive (8), and the other with 1 fresh date (53) and cinnamon and nutmeg. A half a small carrot (20). Lunch - 349

Dinner: ~ 8:00 1/2 cup spaghetti (100), tinned red salmon (213), tinned tomatoes (49), EVO oil (60), 8 small olives (40), spinach (2), coriander, yoghurt (84). Cabbage (10), large baby carrot (10), capsicum (15), mushroom (4), celery (5), cucumber (10). Dinner - 512

Snack: 10:00 12 roast almonds (84), 250 ml light soy milk (100).

Total - 1554 calories.

I was really hungry before that last snack and also down on my calories for the day so I figured I should have something, but I was anxious about what to have that would fill the space and not make me feel like continuing to eat. That snack worked well tonight. I'm very conscious of the big difference between trying to satisfy my appetite right now, which seems to be easy, and trying to satisfy it 3-4 weeks ago while my binging was still a big issue for me and nothing worked. I'm so glad to be past that again!!

Exercise: 2:25 pm 20 minutes elliptical.
5:00 pm 20 minutes pool - mostly backstroke - some funny walks. I forgot my goggles! Also I stopped early because I took so long to get changed (I don't know why), and because I had misremembered the time my daughter's dancing finished and got there 15 minutes early ... I really don't have a lot of issues happening now to stress me so I don't know why I'm forgetting so much the last couple of days - but I am - I won't try to record it all here. Maybe I just have too many different kinds of things on my mind - despite that most of them are are either neutral or happy issues.

Finally I have the new phone, but though I swear I was told it would come with a USB connection it does not. On the upside, the health club had good music on again today. Actually it had a fantastic video clip of this woman and man running together with hiking boots on and tied at one wrist. I completely forget what group it was or what song ... but I loved it. It totally got the start of my workout going and when it got to this bit where they jump over a cliff together into the ocean I actually laughed. I think that is possibly my second smile ever on that machine. I needed something to make up for seeing that side view with mirror gap down the middle again and thinking it was really me for a moment before I remembered. Seriously it's not just a 4 inch gain in circumference. I reckon it adds about 4 inches to my perceived diameters!! I'm not whinging about the health club at all today though because finally I rang and got through to the right person to help me with a request to help sponsor a fund raising quiz at my daughter's school and she instantly efficiently agreed. Thank goodness for that. I felt obliged to ask but I can't think of anything I'd less rather do really. It's like the kind of thing where I'd wake up in the morning and think today should feel good but there's something bad about it - I ate ok yesterday, it's not that - oh yeah, right, I have to ring up about that quiz night ...

 

[Miss Ladybug]

Hey Feli,
What brand offers that cheesecake yogurt for only 71 calories? I've got to get me some of that!! OH YEAH!!

Great calories for the day, very, very good!! And backstrokes are hard, I'm sure your burning some good calories when in the water. Great job keeping that going! I'm happy to see your still doing that.

I'll peek in later, I've got some work to do.
Hugs
Kim

 

[felici]

Yoplait brand 175 gm, Forme no fat <1% added sugar. It's only just come out here, though there's a heap of other Yoplait stuff - but it might just be a downunder brand - I don't know what you guys have!! Hopefully something else with the fat and sugar cut right back!! I do really like that stuff - seems like I'm not alone. My supermarket yesterday had plenty of the other flavours but the cheesecake spot was totally empty!

I did make the backstroke intense yesterday, because I took the time to try and work the insides of my thighs - normally the outsides get tired first, though the insides need the effort more. Normally backstroke is my recovery stroke to get my breath back after freestyle. I really do need to work my knees properly. I keep saying that but not doing it. I might make myself a separate heading to record whether I do the knee exercises or not, because it really needs to happen more.

I reckon the calories should be okay. For my interest I might look that up though because I don't know much about it. I guess I give myself one tick for if I did some exercise, another for if I included intense exercise, and if I ever manage it, a third one if I also exercise for an hour. So I have plenty of potential to increase those ticks right now!!

 

[wishes]

We get Meadowfresh which is about 51 cals per 100gm, but i just noticed fresh n friuity has changed their 'lite' to now be only 49! that means 1kg of yogurt for 490 calories!
Not only will that fill you up, but its low fat and sugar and fairly healthy! perfect diet food because you can get them in so many great flavours!

 

[bikinibound]

We have the yoplait here in the States, too, but I don't think I've seen the cheesecake flavor with such low calories. Dannon makes a 60cal lite version--but no cheesecake.

1kg of yogurt!! LOL I love yogurt, but I don't think I could eat that much of it in one day..lol

You're a typical Aussie with all your swimming..lol. No wonder the Aussies always kick butt at the summer olympics--especially in swimming/diving. What's the Thorpedo up to lately?

I would feel the same way about the fundraising quiz night..lol

I lost 26 kg and then with all the little regain's and little reloses - I reckon maybe about 40 kg altogether!! Pity about the regains in between huh - I'd be done with losing by now if it was just the losses that counted.

I hear ya there! My weight fluctuates wildly--gain 4-5lbs, the drop it in one week, repeat...lol. I'd probably weigh 100lbs if I counted all the losses..lol We'll get there, though. Just gotta keep plugging away.

 

[felici]

We get Meadowfresh which is about 51 cals per 100gm, but i just noticed fresh n friuity has changed their 'lite' to now be only 49! that means 1kg of yogurt for 490 calories!
Not only will that fill you up, but its low fat and sugar and fairly healthy! perfect diet food because you can get them in so many great flavours!

You know, you guys have sent me back to the labels on my yoghurt again, and the figures are weird. Brownes Light Natural Style yoghurt 99.5 % fat free (just plain yoghurt, no added sugar, no flavourings at all) is 112 calories for 200 gm (total fat 0.14 gm/100 sugars 15.0 gm/100 . Nestle Diet 99.9 % fat free, with pieces of apricot, fructose and sweeteners 951 and 950, is 84 calories for 200 gm! (Total fat O.1 gm/100, sugars 5.3 gm/100) I think it must be because it has more milk solids and a different thickener. I always presumed the plain low fat yoghurt would be lower in calories than one with added fruit!! Actually I quite like it with fresh pear.

The new one yoplait forme has no fat at all less than 1% added sugar (actual sugar is 5.3 % the same as nestle diet) - plus it comes in a smaller tub 175 gm - so it's 71 cal for 175 gm. But I dunno on the lid is also says "no artificial colours or flavours" I don't know how that can be true. It has "flavours" and "sweeteners 951 and 950" and it tastes like cheesecake but it isn't cheesecake.

We have the yoplait here in the States, too, but I don't think I've seen the cheesecake flavor with such low calories. Dannon makes a 60cal lite version--but no cheesecake.

1kg of yogurt!! LOL I love yogurt, but I don't think I could eat that much of it in one day..lol

You're a typical Aussie with all your swimming..lol. No wonder the Aussies always kick butt at the summer olympics--especially in swimming/diving. What's the Thorpedo up to lately?

I would feel the same way about the fundraising quiz night..lol



I hear ya there! My weight fluctuates wildly--gain 4-5lbs, the drop it in one week, repeat...lol. I'd probably weigh 100lbs if I counted all the losses..lol We'll get there, though. Just gotta keep plugging away.

Aussie swimmers - well most Australians live somewhere that tends to be relatively warm compared with the rest of the world, and when it's hot it's often very hot, plus we tend to live on the edge of the country near the sea. There is so much swimming that children have a hard time getting through primary school these days without being taught basic strokes. You're right we swim a lot!! Thorpie, I dunno, I'm not much of a sports follower - endorsing his sports drinks and enjoying the money I hope! When I swim, I'm bad enough to require a full focus on how to do it, or else I'm swimming in the ocean, so it's still interesting for me. Swimming up and down up and down over and over every day and just trying to do something you already do well but do it as fast as you can - that would be painful I think.

The quiz night is still on my mind. I love to go to quiz nights. But this is one which I am supposed to help make work. I should try to sell enough tickets for a table full of people. That shouldn't be a problem except if I go to a quiz night that my friends are already going to, I have to invite my rellies, and then who will I ask to babysit my kids? Normally I go to quiz nights with my friends and leave my husband at home with the children, but if I am helping with the night, I at least need my husband on the table with the people I've invited. Also my sisters might be busy because it's my niece's 18th birthday party the next week. Actually we just have too many social things to deal with right now. Though they are fun to be at, they are not really optional, they are parties for significant birthdays and things, and every time there are baby sitting issues, which are worse than normal because the events are too close together. Plus my niece wants us dressed up as if for the races with fascinators. Which is fun. Only then I need a new dress as I don't have anything suitable.

You would think all that is just fun heh? I would. Except yesterday morning when I dropped my son off at school I was in such a rush that I ran over his foot. Well his foot is ok. And he is over it. After a while he said to me, "You're not really having a good mum day today are you?" "No," I said, "and I haven't even bought any chicken kiev." (Ingham Chicken: Makes any mum a "good mum".) The day before, when I was dropping him at school on the way to my job, I drove off and left him standing behind the car waiting to get his body board out of the back for his surfing class. And then I got to my school and saw the board and had to go back to him, and then I couldn't find my school bag with my lunch in it. so I hunted everywhere for it, but it turned out to be at home... I am not having any hot flushes. I am post menopausal. Probably it's early Alzheimers. Or else the stuff on my To Do list, is too diverse.

I am up early today typing because I couldn't sleep. Probably because I feel bad about eating badly last night. I exercised well. I did my old body weight exercises and included my physiotherapists knee exercises instead of normal step ups. All up that took about an hour but that includes re-reading the instructions. I walked the dog a decent way also - about 50 minutes. I rang up the telco and talked to 2 people then waited on hold for an hour to try and find out if I really need to actually buy a usb cable for the new phone so that I can load music onto it to use with the elliptical. Eventually I hung up and then had a brain wave and rang their sales division and got straight through and just asked a hypothetical question which answered my real one.

All day, even after breakfast I felt a bit hungry. However I had enough food, I reckoned, and I thought that being hungry in the morning was because I was at the shopping centre buying easter eggs and smelling the food in the bakery and food hall. I'd already made up my mind to make oat pancakes to use the leftover berries I had, plus I wanted mushrooms. So after phone calls about getting my son home because of the foot incident, I went and got him from school, stopped at a shopping centre on the way home and bought more easter eggs and my son bought a gigantic doughnut with icing which looked disgusting but smelled wonderful all the way home. I resisted the bakery, and bought a wonderful nectarine, to have after dinner. I accidentally made the pancakes with too little oats and too much milk, so they took too long to cook and used too much oil. Plus I think I added random oil to the mushrooms. At any rate it was a bit high on calories and low on carbs, though I didn't know it was low on carbs at the time. Anyway, after that I was a little sleepy and dozed slightly though I tried not to - I was kind of falling asleep while I was drinking my coffee. Then I exercised and phoned the phone company and did housework and walked the dog and went shopping some more, once again, while I was really hungry.

Then I made a healthy turkey mince dinner, had with 1/2 C rice because I always have 1/2 cup, and ate it and quickly also ate yoghurt and dates and a nectarine and had coffee. Then I worked out my calories for the day - already 1700 which is more than usual, plus I'd had enough food. I could feel that.

I should have made another cup of coffee and come in here to the computer. I think that would have worked.

I didn't have any leftover birthday cake though I see it was still there, because the awful calorie cost of it is embedded in my brain. I just thought maybe it would be ok to have one piece of Toblerone chocolate, seeing as there were 3 there and no one seemed interested in them. Part of my mistake might have been that I left the other 2 pieces more visibly in the fridge so that when I went back for them they had already been disappeared by my husband. So then I ate choc mint biscuits - also left over from Sunday. Many. And I ate mini Easter eggs which were supposed to be part of an easter egg hunt. Also I ate my husband's small egg I bought him, which I can easily replace. And I ate one small icecream which is only about 82 calories because it doesn't have enough icecream in it.

So now I am having my normal breakfast, minus the toast and jam and minus the peaches because I can't bear to have anything else sweet yet. My scales are already weighing me much higher than yesterday. I think that is because yesterday my gut was so empty and today it is so full. I dunno about water. I don't know how much salt they put in chocolate biscuits...

Plus I had a nightmare, full of not being able to find the purse with my money in it, which I needed for something like paying an insurance bill to get my car back, losing my daughter, and having bad breath ... I sure do have a bad taste in my throat after all that horrible chocolate.

And there were places in that binge where I could definitely have stopped. I didn't start out consciously emotional. I just felt like my meal was unfinished and unsatisfying. I could have stopped before or after the first piece of chocolate. It was in me to do that. I didn't want to. I think I was running away from the computer and hiding out with the tv, and then the tv ran out of shows and I got my daughter's school novel to read. I won't read a novel I really want to read because then I might end up on another two day binge.

Ugh!

Well I am over it. I am over chocolate and hot cross buns and I haven't even had a hot cross bun yet. Easter should be a breeze after this.

I dunno about the weigh in though ...

Gotta go to work.

 

[bmohearn]

whenever I have chocolate... I feel sick afterward. Its almost like I can feel the sugar running through my veins and killing all my energy. I get over it fast too! You are tough. I bet Easter will definitely NOT even phase you a bit!

 

[wishes]

oh nice long post - took a bit to get through, Lol i cant believe you ran over your sons foot - thats classic! poor guy.
Sounds like you're stressed, most brains get a bit fried when stressed.

As for the chocolate, i kinda went overboard at work and ate enough for the entire easter.. i skipped lunch becuse i just couldnt eat because i felt so blah :/

 

[jw372]

Oh, dear. The sweets can be horrible hard to say no to, can't they? I know when I get my Easter package from my mother, there's going to be some splurging. Anyway, you've sated yourself and moved past it, which is the important thing.

Sophie

 

[T2 Trucker]

If it makes ya feel any better, I just ate a whole can of Campbell's Vegetable Beef soup, complete with about 100 oyster crackers at 2am - stone sober and not sure why.

We fall down, we get up.

 

[wishes]

hehe indeed

im still hung up on the 4 easter eggs, 3 hot cross buns, 3 small chocolate eggs, various cakes and slices and curry ive eaten today :/

 

[maleficent]

Dream analysis is a hobby of mine - let's me know how twisted I really am -- losing your purse is a pretty common dream symbol - there's a few different interpretations of it - (it's a common theme in my dreams actually) and like horriblescopes, you can pretty much interpret it to your life but..

To dream that you lost your purse, denotes loss of power and control of possessions. It also suggests that you may have lost touch with your real identity

 

[T2 Trucker]

You gals are killing me with the hot cross bun thing. If ever I had a weakness, it was for warm, fresh breads and rolls. I can't believe I haven't caved in to the white flour slavery, again.

I could actually smell baking bread while typing this. Chocolate doesn't do me ugly though *shakes head*

As far as dreams go, I'm in that stage where I'm not dreaming - or not remembering them. Not sure which it is *shrugs*

 

[felici]

whenever I have chocolate... I feel sick afterward. Its almost like I can feel the sugar running through my veins and killing all my energy. I get over it fast too! You are tough. I bet Easter will definitely NOT even phase you a bit!

Thanks Brandy! I don't always feel sick, but I try to convince myself I will, and when I overindulge I develop a definite next day backlash.

oh nice long post - took a bit to get through, Lol i cant believe you ran over your sons foot - thats classic! poor guy.
Sounds like you're stressed, most brains get a bit fried when stressed.

As for the chocolate, i kinda went overboard at work and ate enough for the entire easter.. i skipped lunch becuse i just couldnt eat because i felt so blah :/

That was the post I had instead of getting enough sleep! Possibly a good thing though, because posting here after a binge is the best binge breaker I know - keeps the binge short at least!!

I can't believe I ran over my son's foot either!! I kept thinking that the whole day. "You ran over your son's foot! You ran over your son's foot! OMGOMG!! How did you do that?"

You're right . It's stress. It does make me stuff up badly. I know that from before. I don't feel entitled to stress though!! I reckon I need to go out to work most days of the week for that, instead of just wishing I was!! I reckon stress should come from not enough holidays instead of too many. Well I suppose I have to deal with what's actually here.

Today we are going on a BBQ picnic with my husband's family. I just found out about this during my lunch break yesterday, so shopping for stuff to take on it was an unexpected addition to my errands after work yesterday. And my son's friend who has slept over, is coming with us. That was an unexpected addition later on in the evening, requiring another trip to the shops. However, I bet there will be time in this day to write a bunch of lists. Maybe driving to the picnic. To do lists are great for controlling this kind of stress.

Oh, dear. The sweets can be horrible hard to say no to, can't they? I know when I get my Easter package from my mother, there's going to be some splurging. Anyway, you've sated yourself and moved past it, which is the important thing.

Sophie

Thanks Sophie. I reckon part of the reason they were hard to say no to on that day was that my carbs were low often during the day - I skipped both morning and afternoon snacks, had a smaller serve than normal at lunch time, and then automatically gave myself a small serve at dinner time. My calories for the day were higher than normal but my carbs were low. I started losing weight here by making sure I did have those carbs. I reckon they slow down my weight loss, but they also help control my appetite. Balancing act needed.

If it makes ya feel any better, I just ate a whole can of Campbell's Vegetable Beef soup, complete with about 100 oyster crackers at 2am - stone sober and not sure why.

We fall down, we get up.

Very true. The getting up counts. Sounds like you got something important right in your night anyway. There are worse things around than oyster crackers.

hehe indeed

im still hung up on the 4 easter eggs, 3 hot cross buns, 3 small chocolate eggs, various cakes and slices and curry ive eaten today :/

Easter is rough!! No denying that. I hope you get some good riding weather in to balance things up.

Dream analysis is a hobby of mine - let's me know how twisted I really am -- losing your purse is a pretty common dream symbol - there's a few different interpretations of it - (it's a common theme in my dreams actually) and like horriblescopes, you can pretty much interpret it to your life but..

In my dream, my daughter was in a truck with another man who I didn't really know and we were supposed to be following them, but our car was stopped and I needed the purse so we could get going again. Meantime the girl was being driven further away. This was a horror "mother who doesn't look after her children properly" dream for sure!! The need to pay the insurance would be because Dr Phil's irresponsible parent that day had to make getting life insurance a priority ... I hope feeling like an irresponsible mother is a loss of my true identity!!

You gals are killing me with the hot cross bun thing. If ever I had a weakness, it was for warm, fresh breads and rolls. I can't believe I haven't caved in to the white flour slavery, again.

I could actually smell baking bread while typing this. Chocolate doesn't do me ugly though *shakes head*

As far as dreams go, I'm in that stage where I'm not dreaming - or not remembering them. Not sure which it is *shrugs*

Most white bread doesn't appeal to me - it's got too much space in it. I like food I can notice more. I do like fruit and spice though. Apple on cinnamon is good. I bet you'd like to make some spice baked apples now. That's healthy.

 

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oh im a white bread sucker as well, i love it :O

Dont guilt ya self over the what-ifs Felici, it happened, you live you learn. no harm done. Glad you seem to be doing better than me over the easter lol. Im trying to make up for it today though

 

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Yeah. I'm kinda over that what if. Hopefully I'm not over it to the extent I will actually do it again, and will be sufficiently conscious at school drop off times that my next loss of brain function will be to do with something else.

Today turned out great. Nice weather. Good company. I kept my breakfast a bit light in case the others wanted hot cross buns, so that I could join them if they did. Only they didn't. Then I barbecued prawns for lunch, and stuck mine in a bread roll with some salad. I resisted the easter egg hunt egg someone put into my hand (on the recommendation of my children who said the capsicum tasted better), but did eat a (very small) mini-egg - sugar coated - on the persistently pushy urging of my daughter. My husband finished the last bit of cooking of sausages while he ate prawns from a skewer and a kookaburra View attachment 6156came down and tried to steal the prawns and actually managed to give him a tiny scratch on his lip! They're a kind of kingfisher - but a big kind!! Then a little parrot came and sat on the edge of a hut where we were eating and took food from the kids - only on invitation though.

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I got some attendees for the quiz night, and a lead to more prizes (great, now I have to contact someone else about a donation, which will be good for the quiz night and not good for my peace of mind!)

I did try to make up the to do list on the way to the picnic. However, the first thing I wrote was to put my school bookings onto my new phone organizer and that took all the rest of the trip.

I drove home, did my body weight exercises again, and then took the dog to the dog beach, and had a nice swim for half an hour. For some reason it wasn't seaweedy there today, just very pleasant. I'm pretty happy about the exercises. I hate starting them. They hurt and feel horrible and I keep wanting to stop. However, 2 of the exercises have already gotten easier, after just one practice and my whole body feels tighter - like my joints have a little more protection, and my posture is a little improved. Also, I made myself do a whole minute on those planks! I did that a couple of days ago, and though I don't know why I tried it really, I did feel very pleased about having made it to the end, as I collapsed in a heap afterwards. Today I did 3 at one minute each - but they weren't as hard because I reread something that said it might be better to do them with my backside up a bit to get started.

Anyway, I then ate a decent steak and veges meal. Lots of veges, including potato and beans, and then worked out that I'd had a pretty light day as far as calories went - also worked out the Easter egg my daughter had given me was about 500 and that I could manage it if I let the day go to 1700 and ate it. No binge!! Just coffee afterwards.

And now I have written down a whole bunch of to do list stuff. Kind of depressing that it's so long but less stressful to have it on a piece of paper instead of jostling around inconveniently in my brain.

I feel bad that I haven't been to other people's diaries as much as I'd like lately. I hope I get a chance tomorrow.