Tyly - you have been talking to me in your diary! It's not like I didn't know that you have been too busy!!
Eldaweesda - Hello!! I am excited about our challenge! I have yet to pop around to the other people on our team. I love that we are a team though!! As an individual, I don't have any competitive urges - BUT - I do get them once I'm on a team!! (Don't tell Brandy and Tyly though cos they're on red and black and they think they're still my friends!!

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I weighed myself this morning - 68.8 kg/151.3 lb. I can't find a careful record from last Saturday but I think it was 69.2 or 69.3kg, which means I've lost about a pound this week. Without calculating things for the days I haven't recorded properly, this seems about right to me. Hopefully I am done with 69kg now and not coming back again!!
I am feeling good about where I'm at. This morning I ate breakfast late and after a while took the girl to dancing and went to get a few groceries. It was harder to shop than it has been for a few days. When I first got there it wasn't long since I'd eaten, so I didn't expect problems, however I had other stuff to buy and was wondering what to get for lunch and took too long shopping and by the time I got home I had been feeling famished and wanting a lot of poor alternatives for quite a long time! I had enough sleep - 7 hours - so I was wondering why I felt so off - I still wonder if it's partly cos I didn't exercise at all yesterday. Also, I think part of the problem was that I forgot to take my pills when I had breakfast, and then ended up having them with half a glass of soy milk just before I left home. I don't think that was enough food for my tummy to manage the anti-inflammatory - also it gave the knee a bit of time to start getting a bit more sore again.
I did feel like buying a date scone, or an apricot delight roll, and I started queuing for a Gloria Jean's low fat cappuccino. However, even though they could all potentially fit into my day, in the past they have all been part of the thin edge of the wedge that's started a binge - they're just eaten and over with really quickly while I'm shopping and the satisfaction element is too low!!
However! I did spend some of that shopping time choosing something wonderful for my lunch. I'd bought a little piece of low fat fetta yesterday, and today I bought some little wholemeal bread rolls that you finish baking at home, and some dates - which I bought intentionally for a new yummy little combo. I worry about eating dates now I have a new number for how many calories they are, but I love them.
So anyway, for lunch I baked the little rolls, let them cool off a bit, then I sliced one (82) open and topped both halves with some slivers of low fat fetta (15 gm) (40), 1/2 a vine ripened tomato (18), 1/4 lebanese cucumber very finely sliced (3), a mushroom (2) and a few slices of black olives (10). This was very yummy, though not heaps different to usual. I had forgotten that I intended to slice it into little rounds to top with the fetta alone so that I could taste the cheese properly! But still, it was ace anyway.
The other one I left open (82), topped with slices of a fresh date (53), 50 gm low fat cottage cheese (46), cinnamon and nutmeg, and 10 gm chopped walnuts (52). It was absolute heaven. I am so doing that again. Now I can feel like I'm eating dates for plenty of time, without having to have so many calories with it.

I guess if I wanted that combo to have fewer calories still I would just have less bread, and/or less cottage cheese, or less nuts!!

but that seemed like the right amount for today.
So the first roll was 155 calories and the second was 233. I had to leave then and afterwards ate an apple and had coffee when I got back again so that's 443 calories altogether, and I reckon I could eat it even if I was on my old diabetic diet. Umm. Maybe the carbs would be a bit high, I might have needed 1 1/2 rolls.
Tonight I have to go to a party. I would just as soon not be going. I would sooner have another night where I can easily control what food I get, and how I spend my time. Not that I don't want to go to the party at all, just that the timing is bad - another couple of weeks' quiet would suit me better. I don't honestly have a clear plan of how to make this work for me either, and that is a bad sign. So I just checked, wine, soft drink and nibbles are provided. Yet I recall some people don't get enough diet soft drinks. Probably my best bet is have some light tinned tuna, and carbs before I go, and take my waterbottle and my own tins of soft drink and have a wine when I arrive. If I'd been doing better lately, I would say have a sliver of cake later, but for all I know that would start a slide. OK. I will have a full meal with veges and yoghurt but no fruit before I leave home. The wine will be coming soon on top of the meal and be a high cal substitute for the fruit, plus I can try to make it last. I will just let myself know that I've already eaten nicely and comfortably and am done with it, and hopefully that will be enough.
That feels like a tighter idea to carry with me. I definitely want to wake up feeling happy tomorrow, without any oh no guilt hanging around from the night before.