Monday
Breakfast 7:00 2 weetbix, 1/3 C diced peaches , 1C low fat soy milk. 1 slice wholemeal toast ½ + ½ with plum and cinnamon jam and vegemite. Boiled egg . 2 x coffee with 40 ml Hilo milk.
Snack 10:30 Coffee with milk. Apple.
Lunch: 12:40 2 slices toasted wholemeal bread with slices of shaved ham, low fat cheese, tomato. 1 Orange. Coffee with milk.
I was working in a school I was unused to, and I became quite confused about how much time I was supposed to have to eat in. And there were complications that made me cautious so I skipped eating the bag of snow peas and baby carrot I had brought. Which I wouldn't mention except now while I'm reflecting on what I ate next, which was weird, I wonder if the little muck up at lunch time had any impact. I remember being drowsy at lunchtime too, which I hadn't expected, as I'd thought I'd slept enough.
“Snack” 
3: 20 A piece of leftover chicken, which I took the skin from again. 2 slices wholemeal toast. One with jam, one with vegemite. A tin of baked beans. 2 weetbix with peaches and low fat soy milk. Finally I remembered that I'm supposed to have a drink and STOP EATING. That was 5 ½ serves of carbohydrates in one hit. Since I started this diet I have never done that. I came home from work feeling really hungry and wanted a bigger snack than normal, but I had no idea what. I had no sense at all of fighting my urge to keep eating. I just felt like I was tired out and going to do what I felt like. So then I fell asleep sitting up in front of the computer and after a while woke up and went to sleep in my own bed, with my boots still on.
Exercise: About 5:15 I made myself get up and went and did some housework, then went for yet another crummy slow local walk, taking about 45 minutes to walk 15 minutes worth of distance, with the dog pulling me home in the end. I had eaten so much that my stomach was hurting at 6:00 – 2 hours after I finished eating.
However - BONUS GOOD MOMENT HERE - I have been walking every day again for more than a week, so with all the ups and downs lately, at least that is actually happening. I'm not that keen on exactly what my exercise and food has been lately, but walking every day was a goal I struggled with for a while, so I'm pleased with that progress. Also, despite thinking the food's not special I'm still walking past the cake, and the chocs, and so on. I haven't been craving anything awful - just been awkwardly hungry from time to time. And I still find this forum and diary helpful to deal with some of the crappy, non-craving impulses I have had lately. It's still a big deal to me to think in advance that if I ate something I can't approve of myself, I would have to write about that, or fudge that, or give up my diary ... It's still a useful extra brake. The other thing that's been useful at impulse time has just been to remind myself of my goal and how much more I want that, than any snack bars sitting near the cash registers.
Tonight, I didn't actually bother with dinner but eventually I felt a bit hungry again and had
Snack: 10:00 a diet apricot yoghurt and my leftover snow peas and carrots that I had expected to eat and been balked of at lunch time.
Plus I drank about a liter of diet coke. Was I dehydrated?
Lately I keep thinking about this kid's book.
The Very Hungry Caterpillar, by Eric Carle. Which despite being a little kid's book is fairly well known. Anyway this is the bit that keeps recurring in my mind.
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On Saturday he ate through one piece of chocolate cake, one ice-cream cone, one pickle, one slice of Swiss cheese, one slice of salami, one lollipop, one piece of cherry pie, one sausage, one cupcake and one slice of watermelon. That night he had a stomachache!
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The next day was Sunday again. The caterpillar ate through one nice green leaf, and after that he felt much better.
It is the nice green leaf bit I like.
