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Tuesday

Breakfast 7:30 2 weetbix,. 1C lowfat soy milk. 1/3 C tinned peaches. 1 slice wholemeal toast with minimal margarine (70% no fat Proactive) and plum and cinnamon jam. Boiled egg. 1 C coffee with 40 ml Hilo.

9:00 1 C coffee with milk.

Midmorning: 1 lady finger banana. 1 C coffee with milk.

Lunch: 12:30 Toasted sandwich: 2 slices wholemeal toast, , ~ 25 gm low fat hard cheese, tomato. 1 C coffee with milk.

Snack: 3:45 1 apricot diet yoghurt. 1 slice ham. 1 C coffee with milk.

Dinner: 7:30 100gm tin light tuna with sundried tomato and onions. 2 slices wholemeal toast. Lots of mushrooms, snow peas, broccolli, zucchini, capsicum, celery, baby carrots. 1 dessertspoon of light french onion dip.



School is going really well still. I just love the kids and may never get over them I think!

I should be extremely busy because my house is somewhat rubbish-tip-like and it happens to be the most convenient place for people to come back to after the funeral on Thursday. My sisters will help with food but the scrubbing I have been putting off is still down to me!

Mind you, my computer may not be as appealing as usual seeing as my son's laptop is no more and he has migrated to the machine next to mine... It won't play his favourite game.... and I don't know which of us was most relieved when he remembered he could use his MP3 to listen to music.
 
Snack 10:30 Apple – yummy – new season's Pink Lady. Coffee with milk.

I actually am feeling stressed now. My dad is not too good at all. He has been affected by prostrate cancer for some years and in the past few months has developed secondaries. He had go into hospital last week. It was supposed to be temporary but he has been deteriorating and I had more bad news about him tonight.

Mmm - i love those Pink Lady apples :):):)

Im so sorry for all you have been going through and that I havent really been around supporting you - you have always been so supportive to me - I wish I could have returned the favour:(


My dad died last night. It was a peaceful death, after years of extended illness and much recent pain had massively whittled away his quality of life. Though we can regret his illness, at this stage we can't really regret his death. Still it leaves a space, and grief. I feel my mother's pain too, though I do also feel my family is gaining much support from each other.

:hug2: Im so sorry to hear abt your Dad passing on but what a great attitude you have about it...if he was sick and uncomfortable - he is in a much better place now...:hug2:

It did feel sudden in the end, despite him being in hospital and despite our longer term anticipation.

Ya I remeber when my grandfather was dying sorry for the harshness but he got sick with cancer to the throat - we lived with him and watched him progressively get worse - we took care of him till we could no longer and he went into the hospital - we watched him slowly die...it was sad and hard and no matter how much we prepared ourselves for his death - in the end you just cant - ya know what i mean

:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: Hugs to you adn your family Felici - you are in my thoughts - Im sorry Ive been such a stranger - I havent really been posting much period...


and I don't know which of us was most relieved when he remembered he could use his MP3 to listen to music.

Ha Ha Ha too cute :)
 
Thanks for your thoughts, Cerella. I do appreciate the support. I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather too. I believe my dad's heart gave out in time to spare him, and us, a more extended period of pain. I do know what you mean. It is easier to handle deaths that have been long expected, as his was, yet that's just a relative thing. It's still hard. I'm very grateful though that my family has been able to keep looking after each other. From what you've said here, and elsewhere it sounds like your family is good at supporting each other too. It makes such a difference.
 
From what you've said here, and elsewhere it sounds like your family is good at supporting each other too. It makes such a difference.

We are a bit screwed up and disfunctional but most families are - heh heh heh - but we do love eachother and support eachother and can depend on eacother - that is hard to obtain these days :):):) I wouldnt have come as far as I have or become the person I am if it werent for my families help and support and having my daughter at 16 :)
 
Thursday

Breakfast 7:30 2 weetbix,. 1C lowfat soy milk. 1/3 C tinned peaches. 1 slice wholemeal toast and plum and cinnamon jam. Boiled egg. 1 C coffee with 40 ml Hilo milk.


3:30 onwards...assorted nibbling on food we had here for the get together after the funeral. Mostly not too different to what I'd normally eat, but a bit higher on fat. OK for cals overall I reckon, especially considering the 7 hours I spent cleaning my house in the middle of the night beforehand. I do all my best housecleaning in the middle of the night. I'm not a great multi-tasker. I did have a couple of unplanned sweet things but very small and controlled still I think. I didn't eat them until about 5 hours after I first saw them. I had a tiny mini-carrot cake, about 1" diameter and 2 little squares of Lindt chocolate. At the time, I was amazed at the wonderful taste. I had a bunch of leftover dip and veges I was planning to eat and which I deliberately ate after the chocolate so the taste didn't linger. I've found that I prefer to get rid of the taste fairly quickly to help me stick to the amount of sweet food I've planned to eat. I don't feel nervous about having eaten it, because I'm conscious of having done this same thing a few times now. I still recall how delicious the two mouthfuls of chocolate cheesecake I had at Christmas time tasted! And I don't regret at all that I stopped at two!! :)

Friday

Breakfast 7:30 2 weetbix,. 1C lowfat soy milk. 1/3 C tinned peaches. 1 slice wholemeal toast with plum and cinnamon jam. Boiled egg. 1 C coffee with 40 ml Hilo milk.

Snack 10:30 1 persimmon. Coffee with milk

Lunch: 12:15 Toasted sandwich: 2 slices wholemeal bread, lowfat hard cheese, tomato. Coffee with milk.

Snack. 4:00 1 diet apricot yoghurt.

Dinner: 5:00 onwards. 3 pieces portugese skinfree chicken from Red Rooster. Undressed salad from RedRooster ( lettuce, tomato, carrot). Bowl of Sultana Bran and Sogood. Dried apricots, handful of almonds.

That doesn't look so bad written down like that, but actually I was so tired that I felt famished and started dinner early, the chicken was a bit dried out, plus frustrating because the order was messed up and I had to go back, so the meal was not too satisfactory, and then I delayed adding carbs too it. So the sultana bran, dried apricots, and almonds were all larger serves than I would normally have, and basically part of a day where I was struggling a bit, and picking reasonable choices rather than the best possible choices. I think this is mainly a sleep issue – I fell asleep at about 7:45pm but had to wake up to collect my son at 9:30pm. I always have some level of control issues in those circumstances. It's also probably partly because I was a little off plan yesterday and the price I often pay for that is to find things a little more difficult to manage for a couple of days afterwards.

It's good that school is finished for a couple of weeks. I have a bunch of stuff to fit in still, but will make it a priority to get back on track with my exercise.

I did wonder in advance how my commitment to exercise would stand up to the stress of full time work, and how it would stand up to a major event like my dad dying, and I see that it didn't! I'm not majorly concerned right now, because I think knowing that I was about to have more time available again soon, helped me feel that it would be ok to direct my focus and time elsewhere temporarily. However, I would prefer to have another go at establishing some sort of routine with my exercise. Just something small that would be the bit that sits there despite the fact that my days are not usually routine but very variable. My food is usually like that – lots of routine that doesn't require a lot of thought and will carry me through changes in circumstances. I'd like to get a patch of routine into my exercise and separate that from extra exercise and fun exercise – make it something that gets priority and keeps happening regardless. I'm not sure if this makes sense. It wouldn't be for calorie burning, and being brief enough to happen regardless, it might not make much difference to my fitness level. It's more that I'd like to know that I could count on myself to have a reliable exercise habit.
 
i'm so sorry for your loss felici. my thoughts are with you and your family. i'm sure your dad is at peace now. *hugs*

i do understand this thing about the routine. actually there is one thing you could do...walk, or stretch or do yoga, these are all activities which can be done at the same time at the same place etc. so you might form a steady habit out of that.
 
I'd like to get a patch of routine into my exercise and separate that from extra exercise and fun exercise – make it something that gets priority and keeps happening regardless. I'd like to know that I could count on myself to have a reliable exercise habit.

First, Felici, hugs and my love to you and your family...I'm really sorry for the loss of your dear father. What an outstanding response you have had throughout all this stress, your father and teaching full time. I know what you mean about exercise. It's a great goal to make it as routine as brushing our teeth. We move towards that which we aspire to!:hug2:
 
Lena and Lilly. I feel a little strange because my step-dad has not been part of my daily life now for such a long time, yet I am still noticing his death a lot. Thank you for the kind thoughts. I do appreciate them.



I'm thinking that I might try to incorporate a walk most afternoons as my basic habit. I'm still not sure exactly. It has a lot going for it. Maybe I can find a way to feel as though a walk that is normally at that time, but sometimes earlier, is a habit. It's doable most days but not practical for every day. I spent a long time earlier in the year thinking that I would eventually get myself to do something first thing every morning. Perhaps if that was my habit it would be easier to maintain? It so does not fit who I have always been though. It would take such a massive change in me to get that habit. Do I need to? I don't know. I guess I don't really want to gear up for it unless it's the only option. A part of me wonders if I should try because it would be wimpy not to, another thought is that it would be unnecessarily, wastefully stressful. Then again perhaps aiming for the near impossible would provide another layer of psychological toughness that will one day provide me with a necessary protection while I barely notice it's existence...

Well I'm not stressing. There should be plenty of opportunities for me to keep losing weight for now without this having any massive impact.

Today I weighed myself again. I'm down 1.1 kg (2.4 lb), to 73.9 kg (162.5 lb). This is for 2 weeks because I couldn't do it last Saturday.

Looking back I don't see much difference in my appearance since I posted pictures 6 kilos ago. I'm thinking that's ok in a way. As though I've become used to being this shape, and now instead of being a surprising improvement on what it was, it's more obviously a spot I want to move on from. Yet, the weight's still been going and that's fine by me!! I'm thinking that is a good sign because I know I could have been a lot tougher with my food and lot more physically energetic, so as I see it the losing is still sustainable for now.
 
... We move towards that which we aspire to!
I especially like this.

I think it's true - the more clearly we can see the path towards our aspiration the more easily we can walk it. Yet even without that, knowing the goal has an impact, especially if we keeping looking at it!! :)
 
Saturday

Breakfast 7:30 2 weetbix, 1C lowfat soy milk. 1/3 C tinned peaches. 1 slice wholemeal toast with plum and cinnamon jam. Boiled egg. 1 C coffee with 40 ml Hilo milk.

Snack 10:00 cappucino

Lunch: 1:00 2 slices of toasted wholemeal bread with light tuna/sunddried tomatoes and onions. Coffee with milk.

Dinner: 6:15. Veal topped with capsicum and onions and grilled lowfat cheese. 1 roast potato (~120 gm). Steamed asparagus with about 10 gm parmesan, 2 roast baby carrots. My husband cooked this. It must have included at least 1 tbspn EVO oil. It tasted delicious.

1 large cappuccino from McD's.

11 fresh dates. 1 big mug of green tea.

Edit: I forgot to write down that I did go for the afternoon walk! Gentle but sooo nice.
 
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...see the path towards our aspiration...I like that So we don't just have vision...we have strategy.

Like you, I've also thought many times, a good strategy would be to get up every morning and fit my workout in at the beginning of the day, a habit for the rest of my life. I know people who do that and I look at them and think...wow. But I agree, for me it is simply too stressful, at least at this point in my life it is. I've done it for a few days, only to feel like a heap of garbage by 3:00 pm (especially if I had insomnia the night before) when I still need to have energy to finish my day at work, and come home to make a meal for the family.

Way to go on the weight loss! Mmmm your cappucino looks good, I think I'll pick up a coffee after my yoga class :)
 
Well if you've managed a few days in a row of the early morning exercise, you are a few days ahead of me!! I always thought it would make me feel good - if I could get over the idea of not heading from the bedroom straight to make coffee ... and breakfast.

I am not a morning person... Many years ago I did manage to make myself get up earlier to meditate. Once. I am good at switching off alarm clocks. I had to organize wake up calls from a phone in another room. And when I got there I sat down in a bean bag and fell asleep. I have progressed. I don't believe we have to be stuck in just one pattern for life - or else I wouldn't be bothered trying to lose weight in the first place!!

Actually I have managed to push in the idea of stopping on the way to the kitchen to jump on the scales. It did take me about a week before I could reliably remember though. I reckon my thinking self takes longer to wake up than my body.

I'm thinking now that the bottom line for me to do the early morning thing is that I would have to give up late night things. I'm really not prepared to do that. So I reckon I'm going to try for the afternoon walks, with the proviso that if I know something else is going to get in the way I'll try to go earlier, or back up with some other exercise during the evening, if possible. I don't think I have to manage to do it every single day. I just need to feel like that's the normal way for me.
 
Having a little more time I just updated my graph in the weightloss table here. I like that graph. I always liked it since the first week I filled it in and it gave me a gigantic looking downward trend from one week's rather ordinary loss!! I always mean to fill it in weekly but actually do it spasmodically and have to hunt up the amounts by going back in my diary. Because it has seemed easier lately, I was surprised how awkward the numbers looked going back a few weeks. Also, when I checked I found there have been 2-3 weeks when I just wasn't able to get the reliable figures on the Saturday. So now I have fudged a couple of amounts by making them half way between the ones I did know. I think that is sort of right though, because I was weighing myself every morning on the dodgy scales and getting roughly that result.View attachment 3861. Still. It really did look to me, as though I was trying harder while my progress looked flatter. I'm guessing the change of pace was good for me despite not having been all that intentional.

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We have a party to go to this afternoon so I went for a walk this morning in the nearby bush with my husband and dog again. The bluebeards are blooming as much as they will, so I wanted to see them while they're around.

Tomorrow I should be able to try and keep going with the small daily walk I want but hopefully up the ante a bit once more.
 
Thanks Tom.

I like that graph! Despite its flattish patch, I think it has maintained a good attitude overall!

I could have sworn I already posted today's food. Must have clicked on the wrong button again.



Sunday

Breakfast 7:30 2 weetbix. 1C lowfat soy milk. 1/3 C tinned peaches. 1 slice wholemeal toast with plum and cinnamon jam. Boiled egg. 1 C coffee with 40 ml Hilo milk.

Snack: 10:30 5 dates. Coffee with milk

Lunch: 1:30 Wholemeal sandwich with 2 slices ham.

Party: 2:30-6:00 1 glass white wine. 4 nuts. 1 minitoast thing with a kind of bruschetta mousse on it. 2 x ¼ sandwiches. 1 mini springroll (that was a careless choice).

Dinner: 7:15 150 gm grilled lean lamb steaks. 110 gm microwaved potato. ~ 1tbspn baked beans. 3 grilled mushrooms. 6 dates.

Snack: 10:00 1 diet apricot yoghurt.

It was a nice party at a club rooms right on the beach. A lovely spot. The people we knew there were a fairly large group related to my husband's old football club. We have regular reunions with these folk. I remember for many years, every time I was losing weight, I would think that it would be good to turn up at one of these things looking a lot slimmer. Finally today I did, and the result was quite as flattering as I could have hoped for. It's funny though that if I said I still had a way to go, people would act as though that was strange. Maybe with some that was just politeness. I know I still have to lose another 4.5 kg (10lb), just to get to be overweight rather than obese. However, I think maybe I am getting close to being an average weight now for women my age around here. I guess it is normal now to be at least overweight. I don't want that though. I don't want those nasty little fat cells making me oestrogen unnecessarily. Fortunately the women I see more often are younger and still keen to develop good food and exercise strategies and aim for a genuinely normal weight.
 
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Darn I wanna read your last couple posts but have to run to an acting workshop...will check in later. Your posts are always so goooooood. Have a nice day Felici.
 
Hey you Mcd's has cappicinos I had no idea - your graph looks great - you really have hauled some ass in the exercise and life style change department!!!
 
Oh, Lily an acting workshop sounds like so MUCH fun!!

I got in trouble for the cappuccino cos I got one for me and one for the boy didn't bring one for my husband. :eek: I can understand how he felt! Who would know that night would be a no beer night!!

Cerella - I am happy with what I've done. I've been coasting a bit lately as far as weight loss effort goes and I'm kind of fiddling around right now getting ready for another burst of effort I hope.

I have a long list of proper duties to be done with during these 2 week holidays.

So far I have slept in a nice long time and have made and paid one doctor's visit. The list still includes blood tests, doctor's visit, dentist, optician, plumber, car services, school preparations, library, extra dancing lessons, paediatrician, hairdresser, tax return, organizing passports, hire car, accommodation. I am still not going to try and refinish the dining room table. This does not include normal housework, shopping and so on, internet time, meeting up with friends and family or any of the things my daughter will try to get me to do.

I feel like I am playing hookey, sitting here taking body measurements! I'm not going to feel guilty though! I am planning to fight my way through spark people or fitday again to try to get the info about my usual foods in there so that I can keep a better record of what's in what I eat, without it taking the excessive time calorie counting was earlier on. If it's still no good I will make myself a proper document to at least do the calories and find another way to be able to understand and compare figures on carbs and so on.

These measurements are for March 17 (~83 kg), May 15 (78 kg) and July 9 (74 kg)
April 19, when I weighed 80 kg is when I took the pic in the b4 and during thread.
All unspecified measurements are cm.

Left upper arm (9.5cm from inside elbow): 32.5 32 31.5
Bust: (not measured) 102.5 98.5
Waist (narrowest): 96 89 87
Waist (belly button): 105 96 93
Hips (13 cm from b/b line down side): 111.5 108 103
Hips (at leg band): 107 113.5 102.5
Left thigh (largest point): 67 61 59

I'm not sad that the breasts measurement is down cos the boobs can't really change now (there has to be some sort of a positive side to everything I guess!). The loss must be from my back and the unwanted lumpy bits on the sides of my chest.

The waist measurement. I can't remember what I did to get the earlier measurements. This time I tried the posture I'd use if someone said stand up straight, tummy in, hips tucked under. I also took one at sucked in as much as possible and tight as I can – this gives me 80 cm (31.5 in). This is actually a legitimate measure of something or other because it is hard to change and because it is the way I used to do it when I was young and weighed about 108 lb. And called my waist 24 in, though probably 25 was more like it. :)

So presuming these figures are fairly accurate, I see that in comparing the last two losses, a little less time has elapsed this time.

The weight loss is 4 kg now compared with 5 kilos then.

Left upper arm is dropping at .5 every 2 months.
Waist (narrowest): Loss at my waist is a lot less. (Probably - see above)
Waist (belly button): Loss is just 1/3 of the previous amount.
Hips (13 cm from b/b line down side): This loss is greater than previously (5 cm compared with 3.5).
Hips (at leg band): 113.5 107 102.5 4.5 this time, 6.5 last time. Less of a drop but probably still noticeable
Left thigh (largest point): 67 61 59 Loss is under ½ of the previous amount.

I just reread that list. :eek:

Time to walk the dog.
 
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We all need breaks or slow down periods my dear - and I think it is especially taxing when dragging a family and children in tow :D:D:D
 
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