This is MY choice!

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Am proud of myself for not feeling like an outcast today. Yes, everyone else shared food etc, but I think that my friends have stopped questioning my behaviour and have just added it to my list of quirks. It's nice not to have to
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Hey! WOW GOOD JOB on eating healthy when you were with your friends! I think those are the hardest times for me to stay on track. Great job! I think that's so cute that your friends have just "added [your habits] to your list of quirks." My friends all thought I was crazy when I started weighing out my food and checking all the time to see the nutritional facts on things. Now they just giggle and know it's a me thing! :) Anyway, yay, have a great rest of your weekend! Keep up the awesome job! :seeya:
 
decisionmaker said:
Just got back from a house-warming bbq at a friend's place.

I would have killed a small rodent to eat one of those crispy sausages and some of that chocolate bavarian... but I took my chicken strips, marinaded in balsamic and garlic, along with some mushrooms and asparagus (always good char-grilled) and some mango for dessert. That seemed to make everyone else jealous, which was a nice change!

Am proud of myself for not feeling like an outcast today. Yes, everyone else shared food etc, but I think that my friends have stopped questioning my behaviour and have just added it to my list of quirks. It's nice not to have to defend my eating habits all the time.

One of my friends there has lost 26 kg in the last 9 months. She says she has done it through personal training sessions and just by eating smaller portions. She is looking great! She has (this left me flabbergasted!) even enrolled at UWA to study sports science and nutrition! So proud of her.


P.S. Sorry about my boring posts - all my creativity has been sucked up by work this weekend. :ack2:
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I know what you mean about the sausages.....they just smell sooooo good sizzling on the barbie!!
I think your friends would understand if you simply explained to them once why you are currently behaving the way you are but I agree we shouldn't have to explain if we don't want.
Your friend sounds like she has done so well and good on her for choosing to do that course at UWA!
Keep up the hard work, we are doing so well and I hope you still drop in every now and then with school back and all!:seeya:
kc xx
 
Thanks for your support, girls!!!

I'm feeling really sorry for one of my friends who is also doing cohens. She is doing it absolutely 100% and never adds any salt to anything. She's only lost 0.2 kg in the past week and is feeling very disheartened. Poor thing.

Meanwhile, I lost 0.9kg in one day... which is so exciting but also makes me feel a little bad!

I can't talk about it, as it gives me the shivers already thinking about it, but i found a huge huntsman in the kitchen this afternoon. I am so unfathomably and unreasonably arachnaphobic. My man deals with these things, but I swear it must have been over a year since there has been one here while he's around. He goes up north occasionally, and I SWEAR they just KNOW. He left this morning and BAM there one was this afternoon.:willy_nilly:

This is the first time I have ever really been able to deal with it myself, which makes me really feel triumphant! Usually I have a full physical breakdown and am unable to move or function in any way. Total paralysis. This time I did a variety of things, ending with use of the vaccuum. WOOP! I dealt with it!

Anyway... time to go. More work to do in preparation for tomorrow. :iagree:
 
Hey DM,

don't you go emptying that vacuum cleaner bag yourself - shudder -whole families of huntmen breeding in the dusty gloom and a shreiking DM -hmmm gives me an idea for my year 9's short story writing:smilielol5:

I'm waiting to tell you that I'm 2kgs down -just not sure when that's gonna happen atm. Don't ever feel bad that you have lost heaps when someone else hasn't because 'they' probably left it too long and their skin needs more time to adjust -not as elastic you see -it might just take a little longer but maybe they can wear your cast offs -rolled up to the knees hehe. (SC did suggest you may have a dress I could borrow for the ball - it would have a beautiful flowing train wouldn't it?? Can't wait till we take out photo together at the ball this year -it will be sooooooo much better than last years! 4 weeks to go.

Keep on looking gorgeous -I've heard so many people say how great you look.

lotsa love,

CB xxxx
 
Hi kids! Sorry I've been AWOL, but I've been crazy busy.

Small update: I NEEEEEED to be a BMI of 25.0 by my birthday (Feb 24th). That will make me 20.3kg down. A few weeks ago I had the goal set for 18kg down by that date, but I really really really really want to hit the 'healthy' BMI.

I haven't been the best cohenite since school started - I always start out great, but then I get really hungry when I get home. I need to keep distracted. I get home, slump in front of the TV for an hour, and that is the point where I always used to eat. :smash:

I have been great today - not even any crackers, and only one piece of fruit. I'm trying to undo the custard I had yesterday after work. :ack2:

I have my unofficial weekly weigh-in and my official weekly measurement tomorrow. We'll just have to see how I hold up. I just need to keep that goal in the back of my mind. HEALTHY BMI BY MY BIRTHDAY! :smash: And untimately, it's MY DECISION.


By the way...

CUDDLEBONES

EEEWWWWWWWWW DEL! I can't believe you said that! I am going to have nightmares about millions of teensy gross spiders crawling all over me... EWWWW!!!!!!

Thanks for everything you said. You are such a sweetheart. I am feeling really good... and people have said such nice things. IT's so lovely. It won't be long for you, gorgeous. I know it is taking you longer, but just you wait. In a week or so you might drop 1.5 kg in a day! You never know... It's worth it.
 
Joh, you are doing so well!! Steaming ahead at nearly 17kg loss. Thats awesome! Im sure a lot of your students from last year would have noticed your weight loss, yeah??
I think you will be able to make that 20.3kg loss by your birthday, how good will it feel to be in the healthy BMI range!Well done chicky, keep up the hard work!
 
Oh, I'm sorry Joh, I just couldn't help myself hehe.

Hey, just wondering if I accidentally ate the sticker on the apple does that count as a deviation???

Yes I'm trying to be light hearted about it all - had my blood test today and had to wait an hour! Remembered that I had my yr 12 programme in my bag so I started planning my lessons for next week and the task sheets. I can do it so much better when I'm not in front of the computer -probably as I don't get distacted by this forum and solitaire and as the technology seems to create an anxiousness in me. Might start doing that more often (not the blood test)

Off to get my hair done now.

Love lots sweetie,
Del xx
 
Hi Gals, I hope it's not too hot over there! My mum rang me today to tell me it was 48o on her side verandah. OMG. I would hate that. She just isn't going outside. You 2 sound like you are such good support for one another. Custard Joh? I love custard........
About the spiders. I used to freak out totally if I saw a huntsman. I became incapable of any reason or movement except to get the heck away from them. You did very well dealing with it. That's a great sign. I eventually have got to the stage where I can get a broom & take them outside, just so long as it doesn't crawl all the way up to me. My OS puts his hand down, they crawl on to him & he takes them outside. Can you imagine that? He's a nature boy!
Hope things move along soon for you Del and continue just as well for you Joh. Sending you love & support, albeit a bit belatedly, cheers, Cate.
 
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EEK 48!!!! Poor things!

Joh, Joh, guess what????? FINALLY, I'm down 900g :hurray: that makes a whole kg for the past week so I'm smiling lots.
Been up half the night picking kids up from town and consoling the broken-hearted and now I have to clean up as the house is open at 2pm. Got to go back in and pick up cars as well -never rains but it pours, hey.

BUT I had a phone call from a group of my yr 12's from last year all bubbling to tell me where they are headed this year. Absolute delight to talk to them and it made my weekend. Miss them a lot.

Anyway, happy to be back in the land of losers. Hope your weekend is going well Joh and Cate and readers.

love and squeals of delight,

Del xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
HEY JOH!!! Coooooooooooooooeeeeeeeeeeee!!
Havent seen you around for awhile, I just thought I would stop in and make sure you hadnt wasted away to oblivion.
Im sure you are well and truly on your way to reaching your new mini goal!
Hope you are staying strong.....
kc:)
 
Congrats on your loss Joh.. Look forward to your next update.. i wish you all the best over the valentine weekend... it could be tempting... Your progress ia amazing.. keep up the good work...

TTFN
Chelle
 
HI GIRLS!!!! Thanks so much for your support! It's fantastic to jump on here after a few days and see all those lovely things you have said.

DEL - WOWOWOW!!! I didn't know and I didn't even say anything at work! Don't you worry - today I'll be bouncing for joy for you!

Casey- Thanks! I'm not sure if I'll meet my next mini-goal. I'm trying really hard, but I'm just not sure if I'll get there. I changed all my goals last time to make them more difficult, so I know it'll be hard. Not to worry, though, I'm definitely not wasting away!

Cate - I can't imagine that your son does that! It makes me shudder and feel so disgusting. I suppose, though, that it's great there ARE people like that out there! They scare me though... hehe.

Chelle- Thanks for the gorgeous comments! You are making such incredible progress yourself. It's so great to see! I don't think the valentine's weekend will be too bad - we try not to get sucked in by all that. We just go over-the-top on our anniversary instead. Hope you have a great weekend!


In other news, I emailed some ladies last night. I saw a poster at my local shops that was asking for people to volunteer to get involved in a PhD study on the effects of diet and exercise on stress levels. They said that it'd be great if you were currently on some kind of diet and/or exercise programme, but it wasn't a prerequisite to get involved. I figure that things like this may just help me to stay motivated, and anything that does that deserves a shot!

I'll keep you updated.

xxx
 
Joh, 18kg that's sensational -no wonder you are looking soooo gorgeous and wearing those stunning girly clothes -congratulations xxxx that's 3stone in the old language!!!

Yes, I'm happy too, feeling much more positive now - 6 weeks today~~ getting much easier too.

The phd study does sound interesting, Joh - I don't reckon you'll need any more motivation though - all those compliments should be enough to keep you going, you lovely lady.

Love lots Del xxxxxxx
 
I'm feeling really shitty lately.

Really flat.

Volleyball was really crap last night - one girl quit because boys will be boys and keep taking over. She only got two hits the entire game (and she's so great at it!) and it's not worth her time or money. The guys were really defensive and that made me mad, etc. Whenever things like that happen they just really stick to me. I came home at 8.30pm but didn't really sleep. I was sick of lying there awake, so I got up at 3.30am to do some lesson plans (actually got a lot done) and then was obviously really screwed today. Not sure why I'm feeling so fragile. I want to find a dark spot in the corner of the room. Or at least not stand in front of 32 teenagers and try to make them all look at me.

Oh, also, I don't qualify for the diet study, unfortunately. They can't take anyone with any history of diagnosed anxiety disorder. Apparantly they test your psychological ability to cope with stress, so they have to induce it to a certain degree. and they don't want to risk anything, blah blah.

So yeah, I'm feeling flat. Tomorrow marks 9 weeks.

This doesn't have much to do with food, yet... I had a bad day. which doesn't surprise me, considering my emotions. I'm starting to see that there is a connection there...

Breakfast - Omelette with grated zucchini (good)
Snack - two Vitaweats(good)
Lunch - Mozarella with zucchini (good)

...then it went bad. I had a big fat caramel slice(WHY?!?!?) with my long black. I feel really guilty and awful about it - I should just let it go and move on. I think that's largely why I'm feeling dreadful - I'm really beating myself up. I have my weekly weigh-in tomorrow and it will be bad because of that.

Dinner - nothing.

I'll stop whining now!!! EEEEK! I hate being like this. I shouldn't make you all read it! If you have gotten this far, you are a silly duffa! :)
x
 
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Love you gorgeous xx

Today is a new day, Joh, so look ahead - I'm so proud of you and can't wait to look as pretty and slim as you (in an older, shorter kind of a way).

See you at school - light on classes today with the swimming carnival but I'll get heaps of reliefs. BUT when are you coming to visit me at my new digs??
Georgia and I are on different lines so mostly it's just me and Br M or G and Br M in the office - soooooooo different to last year when I roomed with DB and JH! I do miss DB and his funny poems.

OK, Joh, this is what I do when I'm feeling a bit blah - it's totally ridiculous but it really works - think about what you'd do if the person you love most in the world felt like you do now. You'd give them a big cuddle, wouldn't you? Well, that's what you should do - wrap your arms around the most important person in your life (you) and give yourself a big hug - it's great and I do it often. Told my year 9 RE class about that and they were all trying it - it did make them smile.

Better get ready for work. See you there.

Love lots,

Del xxxxxxx
 
Joh- Well if reading through your diary post to the end makes me a silly duffer, then I am one. Sweetie, we all have our bad days. No-one is perfect! We're all learning about ourselves. We all have weaknesses & for most of us that is turning to "bad " foods for comfort & then finding that they are not comforting at all.
"Pick yourself up, dust yourself off & start all over again," as some ancient song goes. Don't give yourself such a hard time over what is only a bloody caramel slice. It's done & it's not worth worrying about. Del is right! Give yourself a big hug & forgive yourself. I'm sending you one as well. You'll do this Joh. Be kind to yourself, xoxoxoxox Cate.
 
:) Thanks Cate. You ARE a silly duffa! I remember reading your diary all the way through once upon a time - which is obviously even crazier (miss 100 pages!).

I've been picking myself up all day - Del has been giving me hugs. That stupid bloody caramel slice was just a manifestation of a bad few days.

Thanks for looking after me :)
 
Joh- Something remarkable has happened. I'm speechless...............
All 100 pages in one go??? OMG!!!!!!!!xoCate
 
yes, cate, yes it is true. This was before i even signed up to the forum! I signed up straight afterwards to tell you how inspiring you were/are:) yes, I was yet another one of those. No time to write more at the moment!!! xxx
 
Hi Joh, bet you looked so pretty yesterday for Valentine's day.

Well I'm VERY HAPPY too - 79 today!!!! Yep, down 1.3 this morning!! Such a great feeling to be in the 70s - another 9.1 and I'll be in the 60s -the dream looks like a reality now.

Hope you had a fantastic day yesterday and for the rest of the weekend -don't work too hard, lovely.

hugs, Del xx
 
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