This beginning is two years in the making

I'm a slacker

I've been busy at work and keep forgetting to post here. Fail fail fail.

Up a pound today, but that's because I went a little crazy at dinner last night. I have a weakness for taco salad. What can I say? I'm by myself for dinner tonight (husband is going to a friends house and expects to drink too much to drive home) so I'm hoping to eat light to make up for last night. I'm kind of looking forward too it. The house to myself, my big screen, and apples and peanut butter. Bliss.

Long run planned tonight. I had a great four mile run on Monday, a crappy three mile run on Wednesday, and I'm hoping to do another four miles (maybe four and a quarter) tonight. It'll be nice that my husband is going out so I don't feel rushed to get home for him. He's never once commented about me getting home late because of a work out, but I always feel bad when I get home later than he does. Stupid. Working out is important too. But I still rush myself.

This weekend promises to be good. We're doing a march at my alma mater tomorrow then I'm hopefully building some book cases after that. Then Sunday? Nothing. Absolutely, blissfully nothing. I needed a day off.
 
:(

This weekend didn't go as planned. I skipped my run on Friday, got into a huge fight with my husband on Saturday, and basically didn't eat the entire weekend because I was so upset. I know this is bad. :-( But nothing sounded good, nothing tasted good, so I just didn't eat. I'm down three pounds to 165.6. I'm sure part of it is water weight, but I don't know. I guess we'll see tomorrow.

Supposed to do another four miles tonight. Hopefully I have a good run. I'm starting to question whether I'm going to do the half or not. I know how great it will feel to say that I ran it. But I'm still not in a good place mentally and am not caring about it as much as I should to put into it the training it deserves.

Pizza paninis for dinner tonight. I also switched up my lunches so instead of sandwiches I've got buffalo chicken salad. Hopefully this will help me out around 2:30 pm when I get the munchies.
 
Good and bad

So first, the good:
Buffalo chicken salad for lunch was a huge hit. I was FULL, stayed within my calories, and didn't get the munchies. Can't ask for more than that. Plus given my natural avoidance of most green foods, the salad greens are probably way better for me than what was in my sandwich.

Ran a sub 30 minute 5k last night! I had decided that running for me has now gone into the mental category (at least for 3 miles and shorter distances) since my heart rate and breathing are all fantastic there is no reason for me to walk at all during my runs. So I didn't last night and I set a new PR. I stuck a sticky note over the clock and just watched TV. I had tried to time it so I would start at the beginning of a show and end at the end of it. That way I would know when to stop but wouldn't be staring at the clock waiting for it to wind down. And it totally worked. I did sneak a glance about 26 minutes in, but I was so excited at how close I was that it didn't even phase me. I ended up doing 4.5 miles in 48 minutes (which included a 5 minute cool down) so I am just THRILLED with that. I've got a few blisters I need to take care of but other than that I feel fantastic.

The Bad:
I had buffalo chicken salad for lunch which includes LOTS of Franks hot sauce. I basically used it as my salad dressing. (It's 0 calories and delicious. Why WOULDN'T I use it as salad dressing?) And for lunch, it was awesome. But all that spiciness bouncing around in my stomach during my run? Ouch. I'm going to have to reconsider my lunches on my run days.

So that was my day yesterday. TRX tonight, and I'm going to dry to do a few more sets of inverted pushups. Also, since I've reached my sub 30 minute 5k goal, I need to set a new one. Maybe I'll try to increase the speed by 1 minute per week or something. I don't even know if that's feasible, but I'll try that.
 
5k in 30minutes is brilliant, i`m nowhere near that. ahah yeh setting new goals is good if you`ve just completed one good luck with that and well done on the 5k run.
 
Thanks Scott! It's been a loooong road to this point, but I still got here. :)

TRX workout last night was awesome. I pushed hard and did, I think anyway , really well. Did twelve inverted pushups. My goal was 10 so I'm happy with that. I also did some HIIT beforehand to work on my running speed. I was trying to focus on my form as well as running fast, but man is it hard to change your stride. Oooh, my TRX instructor said she wasn't going to be there next week, and me and one of the other guys have decided we're going to run her class for her while she's out. I'm excited! I've learned so much, I think it'll be fun to share it with others.

I think I'm going to do Spin tonight instead of running. A couple of new guys came to TRX last night, and we all talked it over and have decided to do Spin together. Not that I dislike Spin. I had just been planning on running. Ah well, it's still great cardio.

Sweet and sour chicken for dinner tonight. I love this stuff, it's so damn tasty and so low calorie. Yay!
 
I disappeared for a little bit

Sorry about that. Work has been insane. I've been working long hours and have had no time to post.

Weight loss isn't stalled, it just isn't going very fast right now. Back up a bit to 166.1 but I'm not sweating it. I had a rough past week and then an even worse weekend so the fact that I didn't eat myself sick is an absolute miracle. This week will hopefully be better.

I'm teaching TRX tonight as our teacher is going to be out. That should be fun. I need to come up with exercises if we have more than a few people show up.

Buffalo chicken wraps for dinner. I'm telling you, I'm addicted to Franks hot sauce. It's my crack.
 
Long time no see

I have been terrible about posting here and I apologize. I will try to do better.

Life has been rough the past couple of weeks. Work is still crazy, and now I'm having to be available to some of our Chinese counterparts which means I'm working all hours of the day. I'm still eating ok and I'm still exercising, but I'm not online as much as I would like to be anymore. I think the worst of that is over, so I am going to make an effort to be more diligent about my postings.

I'm down to 162.8! Which means I just met two goals! I've now officially lost over 40 pounds and over 20% of my bodyweight. That is just unreal to me. I can't believe it! Three more pounds and I will be in the 150s and I haven't been that weight since I was in my sorority in college (freshman and sophomore year). And if I do say so myself, I was hot back then. I know I will never look the exact same as I did then but oh I cannot wait to be that size again.

I finally bucked up and went out and bought some new clothes. I am very happily in a size 12 right now which is great. I'd absolutely love to be a size 8 when all is said and done but if I don't go below a 10 I will not complain. I am so close!

5 mile run tonight. This will be my longest run to date. I have a 5k on Sunday and after this 5 miler I have to do some tapering so I don't hurt myself. But I think I'll be ok. I can't wait for the 5k. I love races so much.

Breakfast for dinner tonight. I've been craving a ham and cheese omelet like no one's business. And for the most part I don't like eggs so this is strange. But I am going to satisfy my craving and enjoy it dammit.
 
I have been terrible about posting here and I apologize. I will try to do better.
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Tell me about it, I've hardly had a chance to check in at all over the last month or so, am going to try to make the same pledge!

Congratulations on meeting your goals so far, you'll be waving bye bye to 150 in no time I'm sure.
 
This place has been so important to me for my weight loss, but when things get tough it's the first to go. That's not good.

As I say to so many people in real life, LIFE is getting in the way of my weight loss, and working is getting in the way of my working out.

Stick with it. We can do this!
 
Franks hot sauce is not conducive to running

My five miler last night was painful. UGH. I don't know why I thought that eating lunch with Frank's hot sauce before hand would be a good idea, but it was not. It was so painful I almost threw up. And you know what's terrible? This is the second time I've done that. STUPID.

However, I did get my 5 miles done in under an hour. Not super fast but not terrible. I'm really aiming for a 2:30 half marathon time which is just under a 12 minute mile. If I can just increase my stamina and keep running my 10 minute mile pace for all of the half, I'll be golden. We'll see how that goes though.

I don't know how it happened but I was way under my calories yesterday. I input everything I ate and it came out to under a thousand. That wasn't on purpose and I definitely wasn't hungry, so I'm not sure how that happened. I'm going to make a more concerted effort to eat my calories today as I'm not feeling all that hot again and want to make sure it's not because I'm not eating enough.

Weight is back up to 163.3. I say "back up" like I'm gaining. I'm not really but it's always a bummer to have to relose weight you've already thought you've lost.

TRX tonight. The teacher is going to really work on abs today which I'm stoked about. I want to get my core stronger as I've read that a strong core makes distance running easier and gives you better form. I need all the help for distance running that I can get.

Chicken fingers and fruit for dinner tonight. Given how much I love my home made chicken fingers, chances are not good that I will stay under my calories tonight. Hopefully I can have a little restraint.
 
I know what you mean about re-losing weight you've already lost--Sucks butt :( Chin up, pretty lady. Awesome news about the running too, you're really improving xx
 
Thanks! I knew that the huge loss was partly because I didn't feel good over the weekend, but it still sucks to have the scale go the wrong way.

Your new signature makes me hungry.
 
Eating Disorder

I've got an appointment with a counselor on Tuesday. It's not as bad as it could be, I suppose. But it's pretty bad. I know this is something that I cannot fix, as I've been trying and have been unsuccessful. I've not been eating well, nor enough. And have some pretty damaging behaviors to go along with it, though I won't go into that for your sake. And it's been affecting my running. I have had an ongoing hip injury and I think my bad eating habits are exasperating it. So I'm going to gracefully bow out of the half. This kills me. But It's not worth getting hurt even worse. I need to get healthy (physically and mentally) before I put in those kinds of miles. There is always next year. There are always other races. I only have two hips. If one goes, I'm screwed. I am going to keep running, and keep training but not with the vigor I've had thus far.

On that note, I've got a 5 miler tonight. I've decided to stop packing buffalo chicken salad on my long run days to see if that might help me run and not be in pain. I guess I'll tell you tomorrow how that goes.

I have to stay late tonight to make up for leaving early for counseling tomorrow, so no work out tomorrow.

Breakfast for dinner tonight. I made Sally Lunn bread last night and I'm hoping to make french toast out of that. Hopefully it's good.
 
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