ashleymiholli
New member
So, this is day one of my weight loss journey. It is already hard... and it hasn't even been 24 hours. I have tried this several times before, but I have a feeling that this time is for real. I keep thinking why haven't I lost weight in the past? What has stopped me? I am afraid of giving up the life that I am so used to. I think it is fear that is holding me back, nothing but fear of my own self. I have no excuses... I have a tread mill, an elliptical, a Wii with the fit bundle, the Biggest Loser game for it, a Turbo Jam dvd, and capabilities of making healthier food choices, but it is so hard. My husband is really wanting me to lose all of the weight, he says it would fix most of the problems in our marriage. I feel like it would fix our marriage, but at the same time, why is me being over weight the cause of problems in our marriage? Why can't he accept me the way that I am? When we met 5 years ago I was 18 years old and weighed 160 lbs, and I was happy with myself. Since then, I have moved out of my parent's house, dealt with money problems, dealt with several domestic problems, marriage, a pregnancy, college, and now a new job.... in all that I have gone from that comfortable 160 lbs at 5'4" to being 230 lbs, and completely hating myself. I should not have to live life like this and I shouldn't be letting fear keep me from being happy with myself. So, today I decided to stop being scared, and just do it. My goal is to weigh 130 lbs by Christmas this year- the ultimate Christmas present! That's right- 100 lbs, quite a feet! But, I can do it. It's my life, and it is time to do what is right for myself!
