I tried to eat away my anxiety last night. Shocker - it didn't work. In between eating I actually turned off the TV and opened up a book I've been trying to read about overcoming anxiety. I read a few pages but then ended up just trying to force myself to sleep. When that didn't work I ate more ::sigh:: TOM started today, I'm sure that had something to do with it, but also it's just what I do.
I've got a "mid-year touch point" lunch with a boss today, and I'm a little nervous about it. They love me, but to a fault. I'm in a particularly unmotivated stage with my job at the moment and am having a hard time being productive, but no one will ever tell me I need to do anything different. Mostly because my team thinks they rule the world and don't care what others think, but I care a lot and know that everyone else is annoyed by us. And honestly I don't have a lot of respect for this particular person, but he's not my direct supervisor so it's usually ok. I usually clam up during these mid-year meetings and just say 'everything's great!', and then I kick myself after for not making these talks worthwhile at all.