Hi all,
I'm excited to have found this forum. Just a quick intro- I am a 19 year old full time college student (female) and I have a rather demanding job (that i love thankfully!). Most days I have some time to get in a work out. I come from a very active family who love to run. I am big into pilates, as well as circuit training. I know I don't need to lose weight, but I am looking to tone up and take my work out to the next level. I am getting bored with my workout routine and I'm losing some motivation. I try to run, but I don't think my body is designed for long distances. I try to run at least 30 minuets three times a week but I find it so fusturating. It doesn't help that most of my family run 6 miles for their short run... I often feel left out. I feel like I should like it but I can't seem to get past the mental part of any cardio workout.
I should mention here that I am recovering from severe anorexia and bulimia as well as body dysmorphic disorder. My behaviors are much better and I'm looking to be healthy NOT skinny. I've never really had a problem with overexercising and I found that exercising keeps me from purging. The hardest part for me is dealing with the "voice" in my head. I am a perfectionist so I honestly don't know if I'm actually doing enough as is, in regards to exercise. I beat myself up after workouts, because I didn't do "enough" or didn't do it "right". I am looking to increase my workout intensity, but I often think I'm too weak to go further and be stronger. Interesting dichotomy? Ha. The biggest hurdle for me to get over is the mental part and I'm hoping i can find some people here who can relate. Hopefully we can be an encouragment for one another
I'm excited to have found this forum. Just a quick intro- I am a 19 year old full time college student (female) and I have a rather demanding job (that i love thankfully!). Most days I have some time to get in a work out. I come from a very active family who love to run. I am big into pilates, as well as circuit training. I know I don't need to lose weight, but I am looking to tone up and take my work out to the next level. I am getting bored with my workout routine and I'm losing some motivation. I try to run, but I don't think my body is designed for long distances. I try to run at least 30 minuets three times a week but I find it so fusturating. It doesn't help that most of my family run 6 miles for their short run... I often feel left out. I feel like I should like it but I can't seem to get past the mental part of any cardio workout.
I should mention here that I am recovering from severe anorexia and bulimia as well as body dysmorphic disorder. My behaviors are much better and I'm looking to be healthy NOT skinny. I've never really had a problem with overexercising and I found that exercising keeps me from purging. The hardest part for me is dealing with the "voice" in my head. I am a perfectionist so I honestly don't know if I'm actually doing enough as is, in regards to exercise. I beat myself up after workouts, because I didn't do "enough" or didn't do it "right". I am looking to increase my workout intensity, but I often think I'm too weak to go further and be stronger. Interesting dichotomy? Ha. The biggest hurdle for me to get over is the mental part and I'm hoping i can find some people here who can relate. Hopefully we can be an encouragment for one another