The Journey to Jerseyliciousness!

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Jerseylicious

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So, how did I get here. 40 years old, 230 lbs., not dealing with the empty nest syndrome very well....

In my younger years, I always considered myself the typical Jersey Girl. Cute, fashionable, all about dressing up the outside. Now, at age 40, I have never felt further from that young girl. For the past week, I have been BATTLING to get that girl back again. Not her mentality, her fight. I need her sheer determination to set her sights on what she wants & her drive to go and get it.

I am here because I need to get my weight and health under control. I am tired of having Hashimoto's, tired of being hypothyroid, tired of Fibromyalgia, tired of a size 18/20, tired of my friggin' belly-fat that makes me look like I'm 7 months pregnant....TIRED OF BEING UNHEALTHY, FAT, AND JUST PLAIN TIRED!

I feel weak. In the past 7 days, I have gone down to 226 lbs (as of this morning - which I know is water weight), but I have to keep my eyes on the prize & build up a resistance and strength to the old ways that have helped me reach 230 lbs. I joined here today hoping to find strength in numbers. Hoping to find others who feel like I do and understand what I'm going through.

Thanks for allowing me to rant for my first diary entry. It was either this or putting a spoon into the cream cheese frosting container in the cabinet. :nopity:
 
Welcome jersygirl!!!!:)
Good luck~!Please get rid of the frosting and never have things like that at home.
Would you like to share your weight loss plan?any work outs>?
 
Hey, welcome and good luck!

Make sure you're consistent and honest. Update here daily and be honest with yourself and your workouts. It may be a tough battle, but we're all here fighting it together! :p
 
Thank you for the welcomes everyone! I know I TOTALLY need to get rid of the frosting, etc. in the cabinets, but what makes it hard is that I have a 19-year old son (in college) who comes home on the weekends. Needless to say, he's in great shape & like most teenagers, has that wonderful, youthful metabolism. I am FIGHTING to practice mind over matter & willpower, because there's always Doritos, brownie mix, Corn Pops, etc. here. I absolutely HAVE to learn how to co-exist with it.

Luckily, I have a personal trainer coming to my home three days a week, who kicks my butt in the privacy of my own home, and helps keep me on track. We established a great relationship immediately, and she will text me every day to help me stay motivated.

I'm planning to visit every day & write in this online diary as a way to get out what I hold on to. It's those things that drive me to overeat, feel guilty, and then repeat that cycle. I am proud of myself today, though. I forgot my lunch this morning. So instead of getting a peanut butter & jelly for lunch (on white bread...I teach, so it's school cafeteria PB&J) I had to BEG one of the lunch ladies to make me a salad & give me a kid's yogurt. Thank goodness she likes me! LOL!
 
Do you find yourself eating these things in your cuboard?or do you resist.
Maybe you or your son van buy just what he will eat and leave no leftovers?I dont keep chocolate at home cause i'll be alwayw temted.
I started a diary too a month ago and find it so good to write down al i eat at the endof my day.Are you calorie counting?
We are all in the same boat fighting for the same thing!!!
 
Honestly, I eat healthy when I'm on my own. But I can't turn down food from anyone! I go to my aunt and uncle's place for the weekend and I eat way too much crap :(. It's like the entire week's effort was wasted. :( I'm getting better though. Good luck with those temptations in the cupboards!
 
Thank you for all the good tips! I spent this weekend PURGING the cabinets & refridgerator of all of the bad foods & gave my son his own cabinet for his things, since he's home on summer break. I went shopping at the local farm stands & a little organic food mart close by and filled the cabinets & fridge with lots of healthy options for food & snacks. When my trainer came by today, I had her look everything over & she was really pleased with the food makeover. I also signed up for Weight Watchers Online (at her advice) to help me keep track of the food I was eating, workouts, and to provide the structure for eating healthier portions. Very pleased & very excited to begin this new way of LIVING. Now, challenge for the day...going to the movies tonight with my son & niece...MOVIE SNACKS!!! Ugh - my kryptonite! I've already pre-planned & bought pistachios & dried fruit to put in my purse so I can snack too. Luckily, with the Weight Watchers tools, I already measured it out, added up the points, and am ready to go! Wish me luck!!!
 
So proud of myself at the movies tonight. I had my 1 serving of dried fruit in my purse & bought a cup of coffee at the snack counter. My son & niece were chowing down on nachos w/cheese & Twizzlers, and I had no urge to eat it. Then came home & had a plum (zero points on WW!) & water. Yay!!:hurray:
 
That's great, I know the movies are my weakness. I just loooveeee the popcorn so much! And if you get the popcorn you need a lot of drink, and if you have a lot of drink you need a lot of popcorn... I think you can see where this is going :p. I haven't been to the movies in a few months, but I used to go almost weekly! Good job on staying super strong!
 
Snezy said:
That's great, I know the movies are my weakness. I just loooveeee the popcorn so much! And if you get the popcorn you need a lot of drink, and if you have a lot of drink you need a lot of popcorn... I think you can see where this is going :p. I haven't been to the movies in a few months, but I used to go almost weekly! Good job on staying super strong!
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LOL! Ain't that the truth!!! Thank you...it's an ongoing BATTLE! :lurk5:UGH
 
Okay...so....tonight was a ROUGH night. Came home after a L-O-N-G day of workshops (I'm a teacher...yes, many of us DO work right through the summer!) to find a bill from my son's college, for almost $6K. He has a merit scholarship, but until it goes through, I have to pay the bill & wait for the refund anywhere from 6-8 weeks AFTER the start of the quarter. Do I really have to spell out how I was feeling? If I knew the word "stressed" in any other languages, I would list them all to help express the stress I'm feeling. Normally, I end up pacing back & forth to the kitchen, the cabinets, the fridge, & back to the living room/my bedroom/wherever & repeating this until I give in to the stress eating urges. Now, being truthful, yes, I gave in. However, I tried to replace the normal comforts. No chocolate, no bread, no chips. I had dried Kale, a handful of pistachios, & LOTS of water. I know I have to extinguish this habit, but it's going to be hard. I mean, as soon as the stress was felt, I wanted potato chips & chocolate pudding. I'm happy with myself that I didn't succumb to the comforting "drugs"/foods that were my M.O., but I'm not happy that I gave in to that URGE. I tried replacement activities, but the urge kept calling to me. It was tough. Now I know. Now I have to fix it. Any suggestions? How did any of you overcome this type of hurdle?
 
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