The implosion of Kaplooie

kaplooie

kaplooie

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I am currently 182 lbs which is not the heaviest I've been but still obese for my height so under doctors orders I must lose weight or face a future of diabetes, heart disease and fat legs. The heaviest I've been was when I was pregnant with my son, struggling with gestational diabetes and toxemia, then I exploded up to 230+ lbs, was hospitalized and ended up having an emergency cesarean after I went into multiple organ failure. After that I went down to the 180's fairly rapidly and have stagnated here in heifer-land ever since.
I have a very supportive family who want me to lose weight so I can live long enough to take care of them in their old age. They love me the way I am but they know I'm not happy with the way I look and that obesity will only contribute to negative self esteem and failing health.
I want to lose weight the healthy way. No fad diets, or starvation are on my agenda.
Anyways, this is my first diary entry so I'll keep it short.
 
Howdy welcome and GL!Wow 105 how tall are ya?Aso you may want to shoot for mini goals to help keep ya focused example 162,142,ect and this will keep ya pumped for the next goal and the next.
Maybe check out fitday.com and sparkpeople.com both good sights for logging food in and checking cals exersice ect!
Keep a diary here and jott food and activities down daily and this will help ya see how your doing.Hope you have a nice day Tammy
 
Hello Tammy and thank you for replying to my thread. I am 4' 11", I am very short. My 5 yo tells everybody he's going to be taller than me next year. In my town, which is very small, it is a right of passage for young kids to outgrow me, boys usually pass me up when they are 10, girls by the time they are 12 or 13.
 
Yesterday was good for food and excersize. I ate very resonably and got in a hike with hill sprints while berry picking with my son. I have two paintings to complete this weekend and a whole lot of house cleaning to do. My parents are going to be moving in with me soon and I have to find somewhere to put them. I'm probably going to have to sacrifice my studio. Cramming four people into my tiny cottage is going to be like playing sardines. But with them living there it will cut down expenses, I won't have to pay a lease on an apartment for them anymore. The idea is to cut expenses so when the cafe opens we can live off of very meager profits until we hit our stride.

I have been drinking a ton of water lately, for about the last month. At least 2 liters a day. I think that is helping with the weight loss. and I've cut a serious amount of sodium out of my diet and started eating whole grains instead of processed grains. I made a quiche last night with no crust, which cut 800 calories from the whole pie, I also used egg beaters instead of real eggs and laughing cow low fat cheese instead of real cheese and it still tastes really good. my co workers are oohing and ahhing over it.

So today's plan is to behave! for breakky I had 1/2 a cup of oats w. 3 tbsp of ff milk and a piece of quiche which was a total of about 200 cals. I also had a latte. I'm going to take it easy at lunch. This mornings breakfast was special at our office because a co worker is leaving and we were saying our goodbyes.
 
I guess after reading about a bit I'm going to wean myself off of sugar. It shouldn't be too hard, I'm not a candy or soda person, but I do like a bit of sugar in my tea and coffee. I'll definatly have to become a label hound and read all the ingredient lists on all the food I consume. I hear bad things about high fructose corn syrup.
 
ooo scary... roar :p

Im 5" 4 ish but i always get picked on for being short, my family are friends are all taller than me, so im always lookign up to people :p
 
Okay, bad 4 day weekend. Bad girl! someone spank me. I guess it wasn't THAT bad, I didn't gain any real weight but I was lazy. I didn't cook once in four days...lol. We did eat cooked food, but it wasn't cooked by me. Thank goodness my boyfriend is handy in the kitchen. I did the eliptical trainer at the gym for about 45 minutes or maybe a little less on friday, went berry picking on saturday and cleaned house for 5 hours on sunday...but monday, I don't think I did much moving unless it was to put food in my mouth and change the channel.
Okay, this week I am cutting out sugar, and I have a good start this morning, got sugarfree stuff for the coffee. When I'm off the sugar, I'll feel better, I know I will. After I'm off sugar and feel confident enough I'm serioulsy going to try and quit the coffee. I think the caffien is inhibiting my calcium absorbsion.
 
Happy! Oh so HAPPY! I fit into a size smaller jeans then I thought I would when I was shopping at AE. Okay, they have a bit of stretch...but not as much as old navy stretch jeans. And my boyfriend last night said he wants to lose some budweiser bulge with me...lol! He's a big guy but not obese if you go by BMI. He just has a bit of a beer belly, and considering he's a truck driver he wants to lose it so he doesn't "start looking like the rest of the lot out there."
I'm having dinner with my parents tonight so I'm conserving calories right now. I've had about 400 and its almost 3pm here and I'M HUNGRY! I should have packed a healthy snack for myself. I've been trying to muster the gumption to work out during my lunch hour but the idea of returning to the office sweaty doesn't appeal to me. What do other working single mums do to get enough excercise?
 
Yesterday was my first sugar free day in probably my entire life. Wait. Does beer have sugar in it? if it does them I'm a failure because I had a beer last night while attempting to "chill" with my boyfriend. He pointed out to me the other day that we always hang out doing things I like to do (because I'm a busy body) and he wants to hang out doing something he likes to do. Which, apparently is nothing. We sat, drank beer, and watched tv. He said it was the best date we had ever been on. How weird is that? The best? I worry about his standards.
Today is going to be a hard day. I was so good yesterday behaving myself because I was saving calories for my parents house and dinner and that ended up not happening, so tonight I am eating over there and this morning I am starving because I didn't eat enough yesterday. I already ate breakfast, and I'm seriously empty. And I am struggling to maintain control in an office of gluttons who have a big box of donuts in the break room. So I think I am going to keep a food diary in this diary too. I saw that sometimes Tammy writes down every thing she eats. I think that would go along way towards accountability on my part.
Breakfast: Sub Total: 257
non fat latte: 157
Yoplait nf yogurt: 100
Lunch:Sub Total: 220
Lean Cuisine: 220
Dinner: Sub Total: 320
Cottage Cheese: 80
Egg Beaters: 60
WW Bread: 80
Snack: Sub total: 100
popcorn: 100
Daily Total: 897
sounds low, but I'll screw it up somewhere. At least that gives me some screw up room without making me panic and hyperventilate.
 
I am so super tired today. Totally blew my calories yesterday because I went out with my mom and had three glasses of white wine. Then I had to take a cab to my boyfriends house and get him to drive me home. I hope I can behave tonight. Although I have nothing planned. I kinda stayed on my meal plan aside from the wine. I didn't eat the lean cuisine, I had what I planned for dinner for lunch instead and for dinner I had seared ahi.
Today so far I've had about 400 cals. three cups of coffee and some heinously glorious smoked salmon dip made with cream cheese on saltines. I think I'll be skipping lunch.
So, does anybody here believe in ghosts? I have a ghost problem at my house, a woman ghost who likes to talk all night long. Its creepy. Anyways, I'm working so I should go...
 
WOW.

thats creepy. how on earth do u sleep? :p

oooo wine. i miss wine, i used to drink so much of the stuff. I think when i hit the 190's ill treat myself to a glass or two ^_^
 
Well, I just recently bought the house so we've been adjusting for a few months. The she-ghost is a new development and unfortunatly I'm not the only one that has heard her so I can't just write it off as a sign of mental illness *darn*. My friend Mel slept on the couch and thought I was talking on my phone in the hallway all night long and my boyfriend always thinks I'm talking to him if he's in the back of the house, he'll call out "what?"
and I'll be like, "I didn't say anything."
"yes you did."
"no, I didn't. I swear."
"I'm going home, your freaking me out."

Last night was the first night I have stayed alone at my house and I really noticed it, even after several glasses of wine she kept waking me up from deep dreaming sleep. Its better when I'm not alone. My imagination doesn't get the better of me.
 
It looks like you are working hard on your food intake well done but remember not to go tooo low with your calories, watching my food has always been the hard part for me.

what sort of exercise have you been doing ?
 
I do cardio three times a week and try to get a good hike in at least once during the weekend. I also have a young son to chase around...literally! he is learing to ride his bike without training wheels and it involves quite a bit of running on my part.
As for the history of the house, its 34 years old and previously belonged to the original homeowner who was/is batass crazy. Aside from the ghost, I also have a serious spider problem! LMAO, I HATE spiders.
 
hehe me too. i HATE spiders. me fear has got worse too. i used to just not like them, then one day when i still lived in england i was waitressing, and as i walked into the kitchen i felt an itch on my arm.... i looked and OMG... there it was.. the biggest house spider i have ever seen it was like 2 inches by 2 inches i swear, and i freaked totally. My boss had to calm me for 10 mins cause i was shaking so much i couldn't carry plates. ever since then i just cant stand them. Its the way they move i think, every time i see them i can feel that one on my arm and ICK i get freaked :p

Awwww . yeah i bet you run around alot. I remember when i was learning to ride my bike without stabilizers, it was a scary process with alot of falling off hehe.

So you dont know who the ghost in your house is?
 
Well, I'd ask her but I'm a bit leary about communicating with the dead...lol! Over the last week though I have learned that all my neighbors have their own ghostly issues. We are located just downwind of the local bone yard, its on a hill the overlooks our sub division and it quite literally in my back yard. I have a fetid corpse 200 yards off my back porch, sure its 6 feet underground but it still bothers me a bit. not as much as the spiders bother me though, lol, your story is almost exactly like my story on why I hate spiders. Only mine was a green tree spider and it was on my leg! eww. I can practically feel it crawling on my flesh just thinking about it!
 
hehe yeah. Thats the main issue i have. When ever i see or think about spiders i can just feel it and see it on me...and i get all shivery and shakey.

Lol... its funny were talking about spiders and the dead in depth on a weightloss forum hehe. Maybe i should go spider hunting... im sure id run miles when i see one ! LOL..... run in fear to shed the weight hehe
 
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