launamleto
New member
To start off with a little bit about myself; 21/m and I have been overweight my entire life. About a year ago I was at 285 pounds and after 6 months of going to the gym my weight dropped to 195. Once I hit 195 I was content with what I had, and couldn’t have asked for any more, but now the pits of despair have attracted me yet again and this is my last shot at salvaging what ever I may have left in life. Now before any of you say “Oh your still so young and wet behind the ears” just know that I’ve heard it all, trust me I was in Py1 – south for a month coming to grips with life and reality. But feel free to express yourselves as you wish, I will always read it and think about what is being said even if I have heard it before 
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Anyways as of recently the depression has come back worse than before, and my only shot left at anything is to succeed with what I’m about to do. I’m a security guard at a medical facility making $ 10 an hour and I live on my own with no one to support me in anyway, shape or form. I’m alone in a dead end job, feeling really old and as if life is passing by way to fast, and imp going no where. I’ve put a lot of thought into what I need to do with my life these past few weeks yet again, and have come to my conclusion. I need to lose weight and be athletic. Though that’s what we all desire no?
I have several options as to what would make me content yet again in terms of a career; Police officer, Canadian Military or the RCMP. Nothing else will do in terms of self fulfillment and yes I’ve looked into a lot of things I refuse to be like those I work with who are in there dead in end job making $9 for the past 10 years and I’m sorry if I offended any of you
Anyways, I know I’m not even eating close to enough food let alone healthy food. Honestly I wake up and about an hour before work I eat 5 perogies and 4 sausages and that’s it for the day. I literally can’t eat any more, I’m never hungry and if I force myself to eat, well that just leads to more problems. I’ve tried eating other stuff instead of my main staple but it never works out, I feel sluggish or tired all day.
Luckily for me my workplace has a 24 hour gym, although it’s not big it gets the job done and after about 11pm no one uses it. I read and try and read and try but never end up finding a routine or work out that suites me. I’ve been on the treadmill longer/shorter, used more reps or less with more weight just about any variation and they never really worked. I just ended doing whatever I felt like from day to day before and that felt wrong.
Any ideas or something? I’ve 99% of the posts on these forums and a crap load of useless stuff on other sites. And again I know I’m young, but I refuse to live my life a joke any longer.
. Anyways as of recently the depression has come back worse than before, and my only shot left at anything is to succeed with what I’m about to do. I’m a security guard at a medical facility making $ 10 an hour and I live on my own with no one to support me in anyway, shape or form. I’m alone in a dead end job, feeling really old and as if life is passing by way to fast, and imp going no where. I’ve put a lot of thought into what I need to do with my life these past few weeks yet again, and have come to my conclusion. I need to lose weight and be athletic. Though that’s what we all desire no?
I have several options as to what would make me content yet again in terms of a career; Police officer, Canadian Military or the RCMP. Nothing else will do in terms of self fulfillment and yes I’ve looked into a lot of things
I refuse to be like those I work with who are in there dead in end job making $9 for the past 10 years and I’m sorry if I offended any of youAnyways, I know I’m not even eating close to enough food let alone healthy food. Honestly I wake up and about an hour before work I eat 5 perogies and 4 sausages and that’s it for the day. I literally can’t eat any more, I’m never hungry and if I force myself to eat, well that just leads to more problems. I’ve tried eating other stuff instead of my main staple but it never works out, I feel sluggish or tired all day.
Luckily for me my workplace has a 24 hour gym, although it’s not big it gets the job done and after about 11pm no one uses it. I read and try and read and try but never end up finding a routine or work out that suites me. I’ve been on the treadmill longer/shorter, used more reps or less with more weight just about any variation and they never really worked. I just ended doing whatever I felt like from day to day before and that felt wrong.
Any ideas or something? I’ve 99% of the posts on these forums and a crap load of useless stuff on other sites. And again I know I’m young, but I refuse to live my life a joke any longer.
