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THURSDAY, DECEMBER 8th, 2016

11:05 AM


Nothing good lasts, hey? Despite having a fantastic game on my co ed team on Tuesday I was completely useless on my women's team last night. We played the worst team in the league so it was the perfect time for me to work on some things, show off, etc., but no. I arrived late (blonde moment) and didn't really contribute much while on the field. Oh, well.

At least my CICO intake was good. I ate a few sweets (2 Lindor chocolates and 2 cookies) before bed, but I barely ate anything all day (less than 700 calories up until my sweets fest) because I just wasn't hungry. It wasn't the most nutritious of days, but my caloric intake was low enough and my calories burned (indoor soccer is an intense sport) was high so fuck it.

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Feeling kind of... sad today.
It doesn't look like we'll be doing fuck all for NYE and that upsets me.
I wanted to party.
I sounds so twentyomething's, but I don't feel NYE is the time to stay in, have a nice dinner, relax, etc.
We do that a lot... Pretty much every other Saturday we fine dine so a good steak or rack of lamb is nothing special to me.
I always get dressed up for these outings so again, it's not an excuse for me to look my best: I make sure I do that a lot.
For me, NYE is about getting turnt with friends of all calibers - the BFF to the frenemy - while wearing an expensive dress and drinking Crystal.
I don't have the energy to organize an event or the money to fund one so the decision to stay in was, technically, mine, but I need to prioritize my car over a night out.
I know I could make it happen, but I'm not motivated enough to put in the work it takes.
(My BFF is the organizer of our social circle and she's staying in with her daughter this year.)
I've already told my husband I will not be visiting family on NYE - neither his nor mine.
We do that a lot and as much as I love my family and merely tolerate his I don't want to sit on their couch and countdown to 2017.
We're 30... Not 65 and a night spent indoors with people in their pajamas depresses me.
I think I'll sleep through the fucking countdown.
 
Ohhh that's a shame you're not doing much this year - it's only once a year. When me and Yank were really poor one year we went to the beach with 4 bottles of wine and got absolutely hammered by the water, ending with a freezing cold swim at midnight and kisses :) It was lovely and really cheap! Maybe you could do something fun just the two of you that doesn't cost much?
 
Ohhh that's a shame you're not doing much this year - it's only once a year. When me and Yank were really poor one year we went to the beach with 4 bottles of wine and got absolutely hammered by the water, ending with a freezing cold swim at midnight and kisses :) It was lovely and really cheap! Maybe you could do something fun just the two of you that doesn't cost much?

Oh, we ain't poor, lol. This isn't a money issue. It's an organization issue. In order to get the night I want I'd have to do a lot of planning and I've never been good at planning things that involve other people. I get upset and disappointed too easily so I just stay away from it. If I had my BFF to do the organization her and I could share the upfront costs and have the night out I'm looking for, but without her (she's staying in with her daughter) it's not worth trying.

You're night sounds... OK. but honestly. We've done things like that SO many times. (We also both hate the beach, lol.) It's nothing special to me. I love a good bottle of wine. It's not about doing something cheap. It's about doing something different. Different for us would be a good party with OTHER people.
 
THURSDAY, DECEMBER 15th, 2016

11:40 AM

Things have been going well.
I went through a really bad 2 week funk in which I didn't want to get out of bed.
I just went to work, came home and slept.
Whatever, I'm out of it now.
During this time of year, however, I get what I call "accidental anorexia" in that I have almost no appetite so I don't eat much.
I still eat, obviously, but my CI is very low.
I've lost a bit of weight already!
What a difference a few pounds can make.
 
Is this site dying or something? I tried to search for it and I couldn't find it. Even went through my e-mail to get an old link and I was re directed to another site. This site is just some little lonely link at the bottom of the other site. What's going on?
 
Oh, we ain't poor, lol. This isn't a money issue. It's an organization issue. In order to get the night I want I'd have to do a lot of planning and I've never been good at planning things that involve other people. I get upset and disappointed too easily so I just stay away from it. If I had my BFF to do the organization her and I could share the upfront costs and have the night out I'm looking for, but without her (she's staying in with her daughter) it's not worth trying.

You're night sounds... OK. but honestly. We've done things like that SO many times. (We also both hate the beach, lol.) It's nothing special to me. I love a good bottle of wine. It's not about doing something cheap. It's about doing something different. Different for us would be a good party with OTHER people.
A lot of hotels that have ballrooms organize black tie affairs that are swanky. You just pay and go for a ballroom affair with masks that come off at midnight. Look into it.
 
Is this site dying or something? I tried to search for it and I couldn't find it. Even went through my e-mail to get an old link and I was re directed to another site. This site is just some little lonely link at the bottom of the other site. What's going on?

NO idea. Confused as well.
 
WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 21st, 2016

11:10 AM


Sometimes, I forgot how powerful words can be.
My delivery driver asked if I've been losing weight!
He's not the type to flatter as he's a little awkward so for him to say something like that it's simply because he noticed it.
I'm not extremely overweight or anything so a few pounds lost isn't obvious on my frame which made the compliment that much better.
I've lost a solid 7 pounds which took me out of the 170's and has planted me in the low 160's.
An insignificant loss for sure, but like I said it makes a difference on me so I'm so happy!
(My goal is 145-149... I don't ever want to see that second number be greater than a 4.)
We should all compliment each other a little more.
 
THURSDAY, DECEMBER 22nd, 2016

8:54 AM

I don't know if Crystal - a girl on my soccer team - is a complete bitch or a total idiot because this will be the second time she's given me a backhanded compliment, a loud one for everyone to hear. In the locker room after the game last night, the subject of age came up as it was a girl's birthday next week. At 30 I'm not the oldest on the team, but there are only a handful of us 25 and over - the rest are between 20-25. Whatever, no big deal. When someone asked how old I was she responded with: "Yes, you look 30. Not in a bad way or anything." First of all, I don't look 30. Being 30 doesn't bother me, but I got quite irritated because it was like she said something that was just so completely untrue. I've never had anyone realize my age so for her to do so it just felt like complete bullshit. I just felt like she said it to purposely be a bitch. Unless she's the only person on the entire planet to think so. If my age was guessed correctly all the time this would be a non issue, but in this situation it annoyed me. She also made a comment about my weight.

I have a light fever right now and I'm so irritable. It was so bad last night - 101.4, but I can't call in sick or I lose my stat pay.
 
Ahh my mistake - you said you didn't have the funds to organise an event - I figured by event you just meant having some friends over or something or going to a club night so assumed you meant it was a cost issue.

Try not to worry about what that girl said - if ANYONE asks me to guess how old they are I ALWAYS say at least 4/5 years younger than I actually think they are..Do people guess your age a lot?! Why?! I always think it's a bit sad when people do that..how ya look isn't that important - cliche but age is just a number and the older I get the more fun I'm having, the more confident I get and the less I give a fuck what anyone else thinks about me. Backhanded compliments do annoy me though -- why say anything at all if it's not very nice!

Hope you're having a good week - nearly Christmas! xx
 
Ahh my mistake - you said you didn't have the funds to organise an event - I figured by event you just meant having some friends over or something or going to a club night so assumed you meant it was a cost issue.

Try not to worry about what that girl said - if ANYONE asks me to guess how old they are I ALWAYS say at least 4/5 years younger than I actually think they are..Do people guess your age a lot?! Why?! I always think it's a bit sad when people do that..how ya look isn't that important - cliche but age is just a number and the older I get the more fun I'm having, the more confident I get and the less I give a fuck what anyone else thinks about me. Backhanded compliments do annoy me though -- why say anything at all if it's not very nice!

Hope you're having a good week - nearly Christmas! xx

Organizing an event in my city will cost $1,000 or more. The hotel. The bottles. The VIP. Plus an additional $400+ for a dress. I'm a go big or go home kind of person. I don't like just little dinners out... Or sitting in someone else's kitchen... Or having people over... I do that all the time so it's not special to me. A night out at the club costs a lot because I don't like to be one of those people waiting in line to get in, for drinks, etc. We're the group you see in the roped off area, ;). If I can't have the type of night I want then I'm not interested and I straight up have expensive taste. I have a few friends with the same lifestyle as me in terms of how we like to party, but both are spending it with their children this year so I'm not taking on all that work solo. (I hate organizing things.)

No one guesses my age. That's why I was so annoyed. If I look 30 then I look 30, but I know I don't so it was just so vexing to hear her say that. I definitely care about what people think! I would like to try on your shoes, though... Just to see if not giving a fuck feels better, lol.

Merry Christmas! X0X0
 
Organizing an event in my city will cost $1,000 or more. The hotel. The bottles. The VIP. Plus an additional $400+ for a dress. I'm a go big or go home kind of person. I don't like just little dinners out... Or sitting in someone else's kitchen... Or having people over... I do that all the time so it's not special to me. A night out at the club costs a lot because I don't like to be one of those people waiting in line to get in, for drinks, etc. We're the group you see in the roped off area, ;). If I can't have the type of night I want then I'm not interested and I straight up have expensive taste. I have a few friends with the same lifestyle as me in terms of how we like to party, but both are spending it with their children this year so I'm not taking on all that work solo. (I hate organizing things.)

No one guesses my age. That's why I was so annoyed. If I look 30 then I look 30, but I know I don't so it was just so vexing to hear her say that. I definitely care about what people think! I would like to try on your shoes, though... Just to see if not giving a fuck feels better, lol.

Merry Christmas! X0X0

Merry Xmas. Sounds like you like things swanky. Dayum...
 
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