The Difference Between A Girlfriend and A Wife Is About 30 Pounds

Boycotting chips sounds like a good idea. :D
I am sorry that Mike's family have not been supportive. I really hope the 2 of you get to enjoy your wedding. Your dress sounds lovely & I'm sure you will look stunning.
 
MONDAY, JULY 25th, 2016

8:55 AM


My chip boycott lasted less than 12 hours.
Pathetic.
Mike grabbed me a bag when he was grocery shopping which was sweet and thoughtful considering he didn't know I'd made my little rule.
He does now, though so I'm officially doing this.
If they're not in my face it's easy enough.

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I'm having one hell of a time finding a wedding band.
I put this off because I wasn't 100% sure I was going to do it, but I recently learned there aren't any speakers in the courtyard which is where we're having our ceremony.
Basically, I need to find someone or I'll be walking down the aisle to the sound the crickets.
 
It is definitely much easier to eat healthy when you don't bring the junk into the house in the first place. I'm really good at boycotting sweets ... until the wife brings some into the house for her. I'm good for a few days ... then I'll have just one piece ... by the end of the week, it's a handful ... and then it's in my head that if I eat it all, it'll be out of the house ... and damage done :(
 
MONDAY, NOVEMBER 28th, 2016

7:50 PM

I'M BACK!

It's been awhile since I've posted. I was flip flopping all over the web trying to find a home, but any of the domains that are a good fit for me aren't overly active and I need online company. Like everyone else on here, I'm trying to lose weight, but I also suffer from an ED with a pinch of overall craziness so my entries tend to be a little darker, stranger and more judgmental than the average poster. I also like to write about my entire life - not just the food I ate or the mile I didn't run.

Anyway, I've learned to love avocados. I've always secretly hated the waif like women at the office who come in like clock work and eat their avocados. I wanted to be like them, you know? Well, no I am... As far as the avocado eating is concerning. It took my awhile to figure out how to cut the fuckers, but now that I have I enjoy them. I feel like I'm on my way. One step at a time, hey? (It's not about the avocado as much as it is about how I've changed a part of my diet I never though I'd be able to.)
 
I'M BACK!
That is SO funny as my 1st thought was "She's back!"
I think you are amongst good company here. I have always found this forum to be a good mix of craziness, non-judgemental people etc. Welcome back!
PS I LOVE avocadoes! :D
 
Welcome back! To quote the Cat: "We´re all mad here." Or anywhere, really. The only effortlessly thin women I know at my age (going on 40!) are the worriers who can´t get anything down when they´re stressed so... I guess I´m content with having to struggle a bit.
 
FRIDAY, DECEMBER 2nd, 2016

9:45 AM


Something is wrong with my account. Every time I try to log in it won't let me and I have to reset my password. It's fucking annoying. The lovely MODS are trying to fix it, but if the problem persists I'm getting a new account. Ain't nobody got time to reset a password every time they want to log on.

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The sales associate at Sally's convinced me to try a new product and I hate her for it, lol. I do my nails myself and have never had any issues with the Gelish brand, but they don't have any festive colours so I tried Gelaze. I should have known it would be shit. China Glaze in general is shit. I have to redo a few already and I only did them last night! I may give the product one more try, but if I have the same problems I want my money back. it's always frustrating when you try something new and it doesn't work out. It's my BFFs 30th birthday tomorrow so I was excited to get all dolled up and go out, but I can't stop looking at my ugly nails. I'll have to have an extra glass of wine for that little set back.
 
SUNDAY, DECEMBER 4th, 2016

5:20 PM


I'm not sure if Bubbles was the initial author of what I'm calling The Questionnaire or not, but I think it's a good idea and I wanted to fill it out for myself.

The Questionnaire

-- How much weight do you want to lose?

25 - 30 lb

-- What is the time frame for reaching your target weight?

3 - 6 months and no longer than 1 year. If it's taking me longer than 6 months it's probably not going to happen this try.

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?

CICO. I'm a big believer in this approach and I think it makes things simple. I need to figure out the maximum amount of calories I'll allow myself, though.
Daily exercise. I play competitive soccer 2x/week and I'm going to try to push myself harder when I'm on the pitch. I want to make the most of my minutes. I'm going to start walking at night as well. I haven't decided which days. I may transition back into running, but it's harder to do outside in the winter. (More likely to break your ankle.) I'd also need to invest in proper footwear for that. Until then, walking it is.

EDIT FROM HERE-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?

Nobody except myself. I share the love of a particular sport with my significant other, so he can help me get out and get moving.

-- How realistic is your goal?

Well it has proven impossible for me to achieve since 2012, so by that token I'd say 'not very realistic', but from height and weight charts, plus my natural tendency to be at that goal weight BEFORE I had to switch to a full time job SITTING until 5.30pm every day, it's definitely doable. It would be the lowest weight I could be before starting to look gaunt in the face.

-- When will you start?

Today - Nov 25th 2016

I'll start on these questions too:

Current height/weight: 5 ft 10 / 175 lb (I think. I haven't dared to weigh myself in a few days)
Ideal weight: 150 lb
What weight would I like to be 4 months from now: 150 lb
Why?

- Because I'm going through menopause and my waist measurement is more than 35", and I worry about stroke, heart attack and cancer risks. So definitely for health reasons.

- Because I am now making a little bit more money and want to buy and wear fun clothes. I have dressed dowdily now for SO long because I was trying to hide my body, as I have been ashamed of it. I don't want to be ashamed any more. I want clothes and dressing to be FUN. I know I could just stop being ashamed, but why not actually feel healthy and energetic too?

- (To feel healthy and energetic too!)

- I want to stand proudly on a beach instead of cowering and feeling like I have no right to expose my flesh. I don't want to dread yet another summer and spend 4 months cowering, staying indoors and praying for Winter to come.

- I don't recognize my body any more and I want the old one back. I want to feel like myself again.

- To get a handle on my out-of-control eating, my emotional eating.
 
Sounds reasonable enough, although losing 25-30 pounds in less than 6 months, especially when you're going through menopause - is probably a bit of a stretch. More than a pound a week over a longer period of time when you're not obese to begin with, especially when you're a woman, may hurt things like bone density. Best of luck, I think you can do this!
 
Sounds reasonable enough, although losing 25-30 pounds in less than 6 months, especially when you're going through menopause - is probably a bit of a stretch. More than a pound a week over a longer period of time when you're not obese to begin with, especially when you're a woman, may hurt things like bone density. Best of luck, I think you can do this!

Luckily, I have plenty of time because menopause, but I imagine it's 10x harder to lose weight during that particular phase. That's another reason why I want to take control of things now... Things are going to get SO much harder the older I get.
Best of luck to you, too, <3.
 
MONDAY, DECEMBER 5th, 2016

11:30 AM


Am I not able to edit previous entries? If not, I'll have to go back and delete one since half of The Questionnaire belongs to Bubbles... Ha.

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I was supposed to drop off my car this morning, but I was too lazy to get up...:sleeping: I'm having a hard time getting out of bed these days. I'm not depressed or anything; However, I just want to sleep. I love sleep and I sleep so well I don't want to wake up! Also, I'm not in the mood to spend money on my car. I try my best to take excellent care of it and I'm fortunate enough that it hasn't caused me any real problems, but this is an expensive time of year and I just don't have the money to tune up my car. I had to reschedule the appointment for tomorrow morning, though. If I don't get it in before December 15th, I'll lose the warranty for the parts from when I had work on it. (The only issues my car has ever had was an oil leak last year.)
 
You can only edit posts for 15 minutes after writing them. Something about spam control. But the mods are happy to delete anything you don´t want in your diary anymore. Good luck with your car, I´m so glad I don´t need one anymore!
 
You can only edit posts for 15 minutes after writing them. Something about spam control. But the mods are happy to delete anything you don´t want in your diary anymore. Good luck with your car, I´m so glad I don´t need one anymore!

Good to know! I have a habit of writing half of an entry with the intention of going back and finishing it. I'll have to write them from start to finish now, :).
I couldn't live without a car! Unless I lived in a dense metropolis (New York, etc.) I need my freedom. It's not about getting out in my city, but what if I want to go somewhere else? The transit system in my city is a joke, however. It's extremely hard to get by without a car here.
 
The joys of living in an urban area in Europe... What you can do is write half your post without posting it. The program saves with some regularity. That way you can continue writing later.
 
The forum does usually save anything you type. If I have started typing in a diary & get side-tracked, turn the computer off & come back later, my typing is usually still there, even from phone to computer. While the losing the editing option with our new forum setup is not good, this is.
 
I definitely can't leave half-written entries because I share a work laptop and that's when I do most of my writing.
 
WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 7th, 2016

9:05 AM


I'm writing a quick entry before I go to work!
Last night was amazing.
We played a really good team (they'll finish at the top of the first tier) and I was really nervous.
My team is really good which is why I think my confidence has suffered so much this season: I'm not the best player on the team... In fact, I'm probably the worst.
I'm a good player, but when you play with great players the gap in skill is obvious.
Anyway, I got out of my funk or whatever because I played fucking fantastic.
It was nice to have players on my team look for me to pass to rather than avoid it.
It just felt nice to be apart of it all rather than a mere body.
I think it's because I knew we were playing a better team so I took some pressure off of myself.
I got to have fun and all of the skilled players (on both teams) brought out the best in me.
We did lose 3-2, but we all decided we want to finish in the second tier so it's a loss we expected and welcomed.
(We're int he top tier now and we need another loss to drop us.)

I also had a successful CICO day.
I need to start keeping better logs, but until I find a good tracking site it's all in my head.
 
Congratulations on a great game! Those are the times you can really feel your body and work WITH it.
 
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