Ok, change in plans.
I've been crabby. And by that I mean, I've been a total b*@$& lately. It's because for the past few days I've not allowed myself enough calories for a decent dinner and I've gone to bed hungry. Then I wake up hungry and have a headache the entire next day (I do have some blood sugar issues). If I had been smart, I would have just eaten a few hundred calories more and been happy but only lost 1.5 pounds instead of 2.5 pounds...which is, of course, perfectly wonderful. But instead I got all wrapped up in the numbers. So after much discussion and thought, I've decided to take this week "mentally off". Not off for diet and exercise, but simply "off" for recording purposes. I still plan to lose some weight this week, but I've removed the body bugg and I'm not writing down what I eat. I have a really good idea now about how much I'm eating and exercising, so this is just going to give me a little freedom.
So on Monday, I weigh myself, put the bugg back on and start counting calories. Until then, I'm going to trust myself to make good decisions and actually lose some weight. I think this is also a good trial run for "life after weight loss". I don't want to have to be so anal about everything for the rest of my life. So I need to test out my new skills of being aware of my intake and output.
I'll probably run little tests like this every 6 weeks or so. I've just been so OBSESSED with the numbers lately that it has really screwed with my mind.
So...I ate way too much yesterday - don't know how much was too much, but I'm well aware that I need to take it light today. I kinda like not knowing actually. I hope this goes well for the weigh in Monday.